My 2-year-old Dog Died Today. Had The Most Bizarre Relationship With Her. I Didn't Even Bother Naming

My 2-year-old dog died today. Had the most bizarre relationship with her. I didn't even bother naming her when my neighbor gave her to me. I vaguely recall calling her Kikay at some point but also stopped, shortly after. She came into the house right after my mom died. I must have taken her in on impulse. Just so I can feel something filling in that void. Thank you and I'm sorry, Kikay. Rest easy.

Already dreading to get this work week over with. So much stuff will happen and let's just say patience will be tested, all nighters will be pulled and tears will be shed. 😃🔫 But at least I have something to look forward to! Wanderland on the 4th and 5th! Kinikilig ako! Hi tumblr! 😄👋👋

can't ever say no to a festival lineup that has carly and phoenix included in it. the rest of the lineup is kinda meh but w/e regalo ko na for myself this xmas hihi! wanderland 2023 - see yall there! ps - arctic monkeys scheduled a day after the festival i rlly rlly rlly wanna go but idk where to get funds for it benta ko na lang siguro kaluluwa ko? i hate it here

it only feels this raw right now

lost in the labyrinth of my mind

uh oh, i'm falling in love

oh no, i'm falling in love again

oh, i'm falling in love

December 31, 2022 -- Circling back to this entry which I posted exactly a year ago.

I can't say no to my kind neighbors who poured me 4 straight shots of alcohol and I have a shallow threshold for it so here I am, writing this down drunk. My head's spinning so let me get this over with quickly. Today I paid my mom a visit because New Year's Eve was her favorite time of the year. I said a little prayer thanking her for everything. For carving and paving the way for me. For all of her sacrifices. For unconditionally loving me. Great! Now I'm getting teary-eyed. I DEARLY, CRIPPLINGLY miss her. Emphasis on all caps because there is not a single word in the dictionary that can justify its magnanimity. Point being is!!! I feel like things have been slowly falling into place. I am humbled and thankful for how this year went by. It's far from perfect, but hey, a year ago today, I was only hoping to redeem a small fraction of last year's travesty. And I feel like I got so much more than that. My dad's health condition was hanging by a thread back in May but some divine intervention took place and he miraculously recovered. I got to reconcile with him too after almost a decade of radio silence (still working on this oh boy we have a lot to unpack haha!), my niece lives with my sister now (rightfully so lol), and I got promoted at work (!!!). Most importantly, I learned how to be gentle with myself. I tried my best to take things one at a time. Fight's not over yet and I have a lot more to learn but let me savor this moment and give myself a pat on the back. Said it before and I'll say it again: God, please help me tread on the right path. Wishing y'all a very happy and prosperous 2023! Cheers to better days!

Not to be that one edgy loser but I don't have a lot of things to be thankful for the past year. I lost the person who meant the world to me. That one person who stood by me through my mistakes, who cheered me on every step of the way, who believed in me more than I did in myself. Be that as it may - it can't get any worse than that, can it? This is the hopeful part of this post. Tragic circumstances kept on happening and 2021 was the absolute worst period of my life. There's nowhere to go but up from here on out, is there? If I can redeem at least a small fraction of how bad last year was, this 2022, then that's an immediate win for me. The goal is to learn self-forgiveness. Happy New Year! :)

since the gap between zed and renata's deaths exceeded the streak window this falls as an unofficial pentakill😄🥳happy sunday!