This Really Resonated With Me. I'm Demonkin And Also Deal With Substantial Mobility Impairment. Can't

This really resonated with me. I'm demonkin and also deal with substantial mobility impairment. Can't get around my best of days without a cane. I've spent the last couple days unable to walk entirely from a flareup. Ideally, I would be out exploring at night, running around looking for people to seduce and stuff, heck, I used to be able to do more of that, but these days my disability has gotten more frequently worse and if I DO try to go wild then I'd break myself. I've already done it a few times and have the surgical scars to prove it.

It's often incredibly humiliating for me too as a demon, I have had to learn to swallow my pride, and still do need to learn that in many ways. I feel like I should be so powerful it makes people cower, but instead they rush to open doors for me and such...

Not only do I have to deal with the dysphoria of not having my wings or fangs or tail, but also not being able to walk easily or at all, not being able to exercise except by swimming when I wanna run and jump and explore. I feel so much freedom has been taken from me.

I am proud of how I've learned kindness and empathy like this though! Empathy does not come easily for people like me. I think relying on people close to me has helped me in some ways develop the skill of cognitive empathy, but I don't think that tradeoff is always worth it so to speak. That being said I'm proud of myself and what I can do. When I wear compression bandages I feel like a badass now. My cane that I have has sigils burned into it with my name and my partners names in runes. I'm looking to get some red contacts, and when I wear goth I think I may be one of the scariest disabled demons ever!

So yeah I'm a demon who IS ALSO disabled.

Life as a Disabled Alterhuman

Let's talk about being alterhuman without being able bodied.

If you've never met me before, i'm a werewolf. I use the label of psychological otherkin, but nowdays I mostly just say alterhuman.

A lot of individuals in the community can relate to wanting to spend time in their natural ecosystem or habitat. Some of them don't live in a country where that habitat even exists.

Conceptually, I'm lucky. I'm surrounded by nature reserves that are an hour away at most. Some are much closer.

Every part of me wants to be out there, in the trees and bushes and soil, every week. I'm sure some of us ARE out there every week based on some of the responses I've gotten on my posts.

I can't be.

I'm chronically ill. Partly from birth, partly acquired later in life. My mobility is limited by my threshold for suffering. The more I move, the more i'll have to pay for it later. And those debts don't have an upper limit.

I would love to prioritise letting my animal out more, being in nature more, travelling more. Hell- even running. But not only would doing that wreck me over and over again, it would make it impossible for me to meet the demands and responsibilities of my human life.

As a werewolf, there's an internal pull towards more feral behaviour and imagery. But my chronic illness requires constant upkeep, constant maintenance. My wellbeing depends on frequent visits to professionals.

I've always dreamed of running off to a cabin in the woods. I'm sure many of you have. But it's patently impossible for someone like me, who relies so heavily on human healthcare to survive.

The truth is I wouldn't be able to function without humans to look after me. And I have responsibilities that come before my desires for freedom.

None of this stuff makes me any less of an alterhuman. Makes me any less of a werewolf. All of these smaller restrictions do add up to a certain kind of distance from the "ideal alterhuman" perhaps. But my identity has always been, and will always be, an internal thing for me.

I'm not a werewolf IN SPITE of being disabled.

I'm a werewolf who IS ALSO disabled.

Wow that's fucked up how real that is fuck

girl who has no personality disorders: yeah when people are mean to me I simultaneously feel the collective hatred of 10,000 betrayed angels while also imagining prostrating myself upon a spire of bloodied blades a mile tall. it used to be a lot worse actually but at least i'm self aware of it now and can take a few days locked in the abyssal dens of isolation rabidly losing all connection to mortal emotions until i burn myself out into catharsis to calm down. do you wanna see how much of your body weight you can put on my throat before i pass out btw

this is competing HARD for all time favorite image

Occasionally to my partner's chagrin, I will take out my demonic murderous bloodlust by stabbing our cheap couch with a knife. It works well!

Whoever made terrorpunk a thing, ily /p

I have with clinical depression + adhd or autism im not sure yet. And yeah i have some "unsettling" traits that i tend to mask, and when i do unmask i feel weird and unsafe. Like talking abt my special interest..stimming..not talking..getting extremely upset over things that usually dont upset others.

And yeah

Hey, sorry we've taken a bit to get to asks! Spoons have been low, and it's been hard to not have thoughts distorted by psychosis lately. We didn't want to word salad at people who came into our inbox, haha.

But thank you <3

Honestly, the best place to go is a place for people like you, if you're not feeling safe. They're more likely to get it. We're in Australia, so sorry if our information absolutely doesn't line up with where you're from--we tried to make this an overview.

I'd recommend looking up local in-person support groups, if possible. Spaces for people with your disorders or general mental health/disability groups. Sometimes it's hard to sift through the things that are meant for friends and family of those with disorders (especially autism mom type groups), or things that are overly clinical, but sometimes you can find something.

As for ways to find them....

Some local mental health clinics and doctors offices have a stash of flyers on the front desk from various organisations, you might find something helpful in there or on some website you find there. Some flyers advertise online chat services or multipurpose hotlines, and sometimes asking people on those can give you more resources to work with.

Try the local council, if you have one and they're chill enough. They usually have flyers or know of organisations around that might have events or social groups--in our country at least.

Also try Facebook--search general groups in your area and see if there's any mention of a support group--or hell, sometimes there's an online support group for people from your location right there, and sometimes they do have meetups.

If all else fails... Set aside time to fully unmask. Go into a private area, and be as autistic/ADHD as you can/want to. Stim to your heart's content, eat safe foods, adjust everything to suit your every sensory need that you possibly can. Have time for this set aside once a week if you need--hell, an hour a night or more, it doesn't matter. Whatever is manageable with your schedule. But we find that having scheduled "do whatever makes the disorders less disordering" time helps us when we're not able to unmask for a bit.

Anyone else is free to add on with ways to navagate the grey area between being safe and being unmasked--any input would be appreciated!

It's so Unfathomably based i just can't even

And the wisest monk said "young one, you reject the unenlightened ways of Hazbin Hotel, but not three years ago, I recall you posting twink Wheatley in great enthusiasm. You must not hate what you discard on the path to enlightenment. All of our old selves are within us, and we must imagine them lezzing out."