I Always Wanted To Be Somewhere Else, I Dont Know Why.

“I always wanted to be somewhere else, I don’t know why.”

— Hanif Kureishi

sitting on the kitchen floor, crying while listening to 'promise' on loop, at 5 am in the morning with everyone in my house still in their dreamland

the devil cannot get to me

the devil cannot get to me

the devil cannot get to me

#spain but make the s silent #mama didn't raise no coward #she did but don't tell her

my pronouns are she not her bc i can never be–

i love reading sad books bc when your own grief is stopped up inside you like a clogged drain you can grieve for a character on a page and understand that you're also grieving for yourself a little bit

so y'all tryna temme that THIS MAN RIGHT HERE is real?

is that what you're saying?

i think you have it all wrong bestie

he is not real

HE CANNOT BE

like it's not f-ing possible

whoever is in incharge of manufacturing living species up there doesn't make homo sapiens that look THIS FREAKING FINE

he is a DREAM

like ksksjskj how

i refuse to believe that he actually habitats on this planet among us mortals, until i witness his living glory with my own eyes

no one is convincing me otherwise

if only there was no month of November in a year such as this