I Didn't Use Tumblr For Quite Some Time Before This Year And Re-embracing It During A Difficult Time

I didn't use tumblr for quite some time before this year and re-embracing it during a difficult time has been a total gift and I'm loving every minute of it 😊

I have a friend who has been very supportive and is a fellow fandom nerd but who has never used this site so she likes to hear about the mysterious tumblrverse from me and I always tell her that as far as I can tell the Butcher/Karl fans (of which I am also one) are some of the most deliciously expressive and uninhibited kinda people on here 😎

So shout out to all the Butcher/Karl thirsters, I love y'all and your sheer unhinged feral joy! Keep it coming 😜

Very weird intense birthday doing a mountain of manual labour against an anxiety-fuelled deadline 😖 not much stopping to celebrate going on sadly

But smiling a whole lot now thanks to @stealfromthedevil 😊

Vive le tumblrverse 🥳

i think 'I trust you with my life but not your own' as a trope is one of the ones that can always fuck me up no matter what

One of my favourite things is when two actors have so much sheer visceral chemistry together that it literally doesn't matter what the writers write or the director directs or what the intention ever was 😊

Being a Mulder/Scully shipper (aka everyone except Chris Carter) is such a profoundly confusing experience.

You get gaslit by the showrunner himself because for the first 6(?) seasons the characters are platonic. You get six years of them glancing at the other's lips, standing and walking so closely they're always touching, you get tender touches and warm embraces, you get forehead kisses, you get displays of jealousy and one of them even admitting to being territorial. You get this as soon as the damn pilot.

You get Mulder speaking into Scully's hair, you get Scully cradling and singing to him, you get Mulder making a scene threatening to fight anyone in sight when Scully is returned to the hospital, you get Scully wanting to have his child of all people.

You get that the connection is so profound they only trust the other and would (and have) gone to hell and back for their partner.

You have all of these feelings culminating in the intense way in which they gaze at each other, both directly and when the other isn't looking.

Then you have the actors, who were so horned up and fed up with the tension they went off script and made out like that, the same actors who did photoshoots in bed and kissed at award shows and interviews despite never being together, despite the characters never being canonically a couple. You get David, who when asked if he played it like he wanted Scully, he said he simply played it like he cares about her input and you get Gillian, who kissed David in the mouth before turning to kiss her husband when she won an emmy in 1997.

It's clearly love and although the absence of romance and sex don't make a connection any less legitimate or meaningful, I just don't buy it that there was never supposed to be an attraction from the beginning. That they remained friends for that long.

And still you're left questioning if it isn't all just projection because the two actors are so insanely attractive you can't help but want to see them in a sexual setting. If it's all just two good friends having so much chemistry that it makes it easy to come off as romantic. You're left to wonder if you have just been so blind in your own personal life that you have never so much as seen that kind of connection in marriages, let alone with coworkers. That perhaps you've just never had the fortune of having such a special connection with your platonic friend that you make out just for fun. You're made to believe that what you're seeing isn't desire but a deep understanding and care for the other's well being and happiness.

What is the truth. It's out there and at this point I have to believe it's all a ploy from the shadow government and Old Smokey himself to cover up what everyone already knows. The evidence is right in front of us and they keep trying to veer towards a specific answer and call bias if you don't agree.

Adult realization: you will make mistakes, you will act irrationally. You will commit some wrongs that cannot be fully righted. People will dislike you and misunderstand you for all sorts of reasons. None of these make you a bad person. All you can do is try your best to be kind and just to people, grow and learn.

I was forever threatening to call my kid Fox if I had one. It's a fantastic name :)

one thing i don’t understand about txf is why they wanted us to think that ‘fox’ is a weird/bad name? i think it’s dope, i would love to be called ‘fox’