My Life With ADHD

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And the third!

(Listen you've had two warnings already how are you missing these-)

The MeCloud folk! We start off with a good'un - one of my bingo squares checked off! Knife throwing punches at Cobs, ya love to see it!

...Oh.

Yeah I maybe screamed at this, I forgot for half a second that Suitcase tends to hallucinate, and I genuinely thought Knife had just murdered her (more than likely he just gave her a hug or was trying to shake her out of her hallucinations but. Shit dude.)

The whole scene following this was INSANE too - Suitcase's fears that she'll no longer be "useful" to Mephone after the show? Her unwillingness to die?? A PERFECT parallel to the later scenes.

I also really appreciate that Knife seems to be the "weaker" one in this situation! Suitcase has come to terms with the fact that she's not real; she's willing to do anything to stop Cobs at this point, even if it means sacrificing herself! She WANTS to save her fellow contestants, and sees value in them! Knife on the other hand? He can't seem to grasp it yet. He's in denial, yet also seems to have just.. given up. He doesn't care what happens anymore; just wants to "win" and get this all over with. That's all he was built to do, right?

The parallels here are just scrumptious, I LOVE THESE TWO SO MUCH 😭😭

Moving onto the plot twist! I had a feeling the fight would've gone this way, and honestly? I loved every second of it. Them calling out eachothers' insecurities, dealing (literal, in some case) low blows? And then spinning it around on Cobs, showing how naïve he actually is? Shows just how little he knows about their friendship. They are a PERFECT duo, through and through.

NOT TO MENTION?? Knife yet again being there to support Suitcase; them both coming to terms with the fact that this is it, they're both going to die. Deleted out of existence without a trace. They're more than willing if it means stopping Cobs, which is just. This scene is SO powerful, and a PERFECT note for the show to go out on.

In the end, they didn't win the show, but they both definitely won the fight.

...Even if it means they're no longer here.

(Final post on some loose ends + death scenes next! Thanks for sticking around to listen to my rambles! 💙)

So I've been compiling images (and composing myself), I think I'm ready to give my two cents. This'll be broken up into parts because only 10 images per post, so look forward to uh.. a lot! :,)

(MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE EPISODE 17 UNDER CUT)

We're starting with the Purgatory Mansion crew! And ohhh holy FUCK do I have a lot to say about them. First of all just. Fuck. God. Fan rambling during Test Tube's death, trying to keep himself composed?? And his denial of her death, just.. broke me. Painty having to be the one to snap him back into reality and TELL him that she's dead?? AUGHHHH 😭😭

ALSO THE PHONE?? MAN. THAT. THAT HURT.

SPEAKING OF PAINTBRUSH!

Okay I just. I genuinely this this was THE most gut-wrenching scene of II. Period. FUCKING PROPS TO JAZZY MOTHERFUCKING OLIVER CAN I LIKE. MARRY HER?? (/PLATONIC)

Okay so if y'all know me I'm pretty sure you know by now Paintbrush is my favourite OSC character. EVER. Their entire arc, their story, it just. It means so, so much to me. They're the entire reason I discovered I was nonbinary in the first place. They helped me find ways of dealing with anger in a healthy way. This fuckin' paintbrush has done more for me than I think.. ANY other fictional character in the history of ever?? This scene?? I genuinely nearly threw up from how hard I was sobbing.

Also can I just say how glad I am that Jazzy is voicing Paintbrush?? Like I don't think I've mentioned this enough but her vocal skills in this scene were PHENOMINAL and she SERIOUSLY did Painty justice. Good lord when they started crying I screamed out loud. Just. Lightbulb sacrificing herself for them, the whole "you need to be the leader now" thing?? Painty sitting there whilst all their friends die around them and they just have to sit there?? They can do nothing about it?? FUCK.

Them trying so hard to fight for her?? To SAVE her?? I just. I can't.

Not to mention just. This. Fuck. I'm a hardcore lightbrush shipper through and through so to me this is the equivalent of a child just trying to support their parent through the death of the other parent, but. Even if you see them platonically this hits DEEP. Their best friend, their rock, the silly to their serious, just died in front of them. The only things remaining being her lifeless corpse and a crab that she once gifted to them in memory of their friendship. Plus the symbolism of their flame dying out when Lightbulb dies?? BECAUSE THEY HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO FIGHT FOR?? ADAM ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME.

Yeah can you tell I love these guys?? (I'd post the image of Painty BEGGING Bow to tell them how to get back from death, but 10 images per post limit fucked me over :P)

(Hotel folk next!)

Watching Thaf's stream and drawing the jolly rancher man :)

So turns out I had a migraine (also I spilled scalding hot chicken noodle soup on my hand so that was fun 👍)

SO guess who decided to take a nap and slept through their alarm?

It's 9:30pm, my alarm went off 4 hours ago and I need to write (at BARE MINIMUM) a 7 and a half page essay due tomorrow. Guess I'm pulling an all-nighter 😔🙏

II EPISODE 17 TRAILER SPOILERS!!

I. Am going to be sick.

WHAT THE FUCK???

Lightbulb using the clicky pen again?? BAXTER?? Seems her facade is finally cracking; she's beginning to realise how serious this situation is and that is TERRIFYING.

FUCKING. KNIFE?? AND SUITCASE?? DEATHMATCH?? Oh my GOD I'm not prepared for this FUCK DO YOU MEAN IT'S RELEASING IN LESS THAN A WEEK?? ADAM?? JUSTIN?? BRIAN?? AAAAAAAAAA

Paper yelling at Salt is intriguing to say the least. Not sure what it'll be about, possibly OJ? But DAMN.

"It'll give you some time to process! I know ya need it :)" FUCK YOU STEVE.

We also get confirmation possibly on who is still alive, though Yinayang notably isn't there. Soap is also gone, though I had my suspicions that she died off-screen. Mephone X also showing up near Purgatory Mansion is NOT helping my suspicion that at least one of the Bright Lights will die. POSSIBLY Lightbulb, though my bets are still on Fan.

Just. AUGH I'M SO NOT READY FOR THIS 😭😭 JUSTIN YOU MADLAD YOU KEPT YOUR WORD AND RELEASED THE TRAILER EARLY BUT GOD I DON'T KNOW IF I WAS READY FOR IT...