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started a t break 3 days ago because i wasn’t feeling the effects anymore and that’s what i need to help my mental health (cuz i use medical 🍃), so i stopped but now i just feel dead.. 18 days left 😖
Having bpd is realizing you will literally never be enough for anyone. They'll always be looking for someone or something better and more interesting. I ask myself why I even bother with anyone sometimes.
I hate the days where everyone and everything makes me mad or annoyed because I don't wanna be that angry person but I literally can't fucking control it then I take it out on the people I care about and they don't deserve that
i have bpd of course i’m gonna destroy everything and everyone i have in my life :))
it is absolutely horrid that someone may traumatize you to the point of it physically altering your brain and your mindset but, to them, they cant even remember it. it was just another fucking tuesday.
bpd culture is wishing you could feel emotions normally
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Without my mental illness I wouldn't know who I am but, because of my mental illness I have no sense of self. Like the logic is super crazy.
Tw bpd vent
If you don’t want to deal with someone with mental issues don’t. I always warn new friends that I have bpd and I am going to show symptoms. Then they get surprised when I do.
Unless ur my parent you don’t have to deal with me. If you can’t handle it just be fucking honest. I don’t have the energy to be disappointed.
And no I’m not talking about “oh you can’t handle being abused, fuck you” I’m talking about when ppl get pissed that you have mental breakdowns a fuck ton of the time.
Or ignore them because you’re too depressed to talk. That type of shit.
‘everything I’ve ever let go of has claw marks on it’ is cute and all til u have bpd and go genuinely psychotic when someone abandons you
bpd math :
slight change in the tone of their voice = they hate me and wish i was dead
I have bpd, of course I assume everyone hates me until proven otherwise
Having borderline personality disorder is like watching someone else destroy your life.
the urge to get into an accident just so people would start caring about me
It would be so cool if there was a magic thing that made the void in my heart feel full for once. Nothing makes me happy for more than 10 minutes before I'm back to agonizing about life.
One thing I love about BPD is, one day I'll be crying over something, then the next day it'll be like it never happened ,and I'll feel nothing about the situation.
My BPD symptoms are not excuses or something I can control you albist fuck. I hate when people expect me to just not show any sign of my mental illness when that's impossible, it'll always be there.
The One People Loses
I'm the one people leave when life gets tough,
The one they only want when no one else is there,
And I'm the one they discard when they get what they want.
In fact, I'm the only one in their life they can easily let go of.
I'm the one who's picked up last,
The one whose jokes go unnoticed, never laughed at.
I won't be the one people think of when good things happen,
They don't scan the room to see if I'm sharing their laughter.
They don't consider me when they need someone,
I'm the one who always faces the choice between begging and leaving,
Because people consistently make me feel this way.
So ultimately, I'm the one people lose,
Because I always choose myself over being chosen.
BPD math: they said I can come “if I want” instead of “you should come” so that means they hate me and they wish I was dead.
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People only care about mental health battle stories if the outcome is successful. They don't wanna hear about you still struggling or can't control your symptoms