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Reblogging to help with reach! (@st4lk1ngsc4rl3tt is my main.)

#Art Drop 1

I did this art piece awhile ago for my friend @st4lk1ngsc4rl3tt I forgot to post it then so I'm posting it now. I am just now realizing I forgot her mouth stitching.

Somebody take my keys, I'm in no shape for driving

I made my bed but I'll sleep anywhere, anywhere

Are you ashamed of me, or did you buy what I'm selling?

It won't last you long, it'll disappear

okay so, my fellow bpd people, do yall ever feel the sudden and unpredictable urge to change absolutely everything in your outfit/makeup/hair style just a few minutes before going out?

like I'll spend 30 min getting ready and like 5 min before the time I have to get out I'll just absolutely hate my reflection in the mirror and completely change how I look..

this happens every other day and it's getting tiresome

I hate who I am

bpd culture is always being the "it's okay i understand your feelings and why you acted this way" person but never the one being understood

sh looks like ..

cutting

burning

hitting yourself

but it also looks like ..

unsafe sex

drug abuse

alcohol abuse

unsafe driving

starting arguments

accepting abuse

purposely isolating

self deprecation

and more.

I don't fucking mean anything

In the hearts of the people I love the most, I will always be second place to someone else.

The ugliest thing you can do is bring up someone's past when they’ve changed.

I am the biggest gatekeeper. I never tell my favorite bands, artists, or youtubers to people in real life. Like, that's MY escape. That youtuber is MINE. It makes my blood boil to see someone in real life enjoy the same stuff as I do, yet I want friends with the same interests.

you ever read a fanfic and just sit back and think…someone wrote something THIS good… and then just….published it on the internet….for free…..

all these voices in my head get loud, I wish that I could shut them out.

when i’m hurt, i shut down, i turn into a total bitch i shut off my emotions i act differently towards everything and everyone and i hate it

Vacations are so torturous. I want to do so many things but my mental illness doesn't let me do anything.

Actually, ex-Christians have earned the right to make fun of Christianity. It comes free with the religious trauma.

Wanting someone 2 love you like you love them when you have bpd is so shattering

They will never understand the sadness that you can physically feel in your chest

𝐆𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐫𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞𝐬 𝐦𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐦𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐫

“do you want to talk about it?”

no, i want to kill myself because of it.

that moment when you’re empty and nothing matters anymore . you don’t even know who you are anymore but it’s okay it doesn’t matter , you just want to disappear .