Things To Remember :)

things to remember :)

(trigger warning mostly for things at the end)

charlie one of percys best friends died on a boat in the middle of the ocean while he was there and then had to go back to camp and tell everyone that charlie had died on a boat in the middle of the ocean while he the son of poseidon was there and he probably hates himself for it every single day

percy probably still has moments where he thinks “oh charlie would love this” or “yo this makeup is so cheap it would be a great gift for silena” or “wheres the dam water fountain” etc and then remembers they all died and is put in a sad mood for the rest of the day like when he thought tyson had died—sometimes it takes someone else to remind him that they have died to remember

percy thought tyson died before he could call him brother

percy watched his mother die then thought she was going to stay dead through out basically 3/4 of the first book

percy watched clarisse one of the strongest ppl he knew and looked up to break down crying after watching silena die

percy was abused mentally physically and emotionally for most of his childhood

percy also watched his mother be mentally physically and emotionally abused for most of his childhood (and she was probably sexually abused as well but he didn’t see that)

percy doesn’t know jason died yet and will probably think his death was his fault bc he didn’t go with apollo on his quest

percy blamed/still blames himself for biancas death

percy watched luke k*ll himself

percy probably beats himself up about not staying behind in tartarus to help

percy has been through tartarus

percy probably hates himself for what happened in nicos childhood

percy probably still feels guilty for leaving calypso on her island and for blowing up that valcano

percy was burned alive and i would be extremely suprised if he didn’t have at least one scar to show for it

after meeting reyna and her sister and hearing what happened he probably feels guilty about that too

percy probably heard/listened to reynas pegasus’s last words as they died

percy has ptsd and i mean every type of ptsd- he sometimes still feels the terrible burning sensation from when he was burned in a volcano he still smells beer from when he was younger he gets frozen in things that happened years ago and he still hears bobs last words when things get too quiet

percy 100000% has panic attacks flashbacks and nightmares about these things not just tartarus and they are 100000% worst at night

when percy does have really bad panic attacks/flashbacks he can be stuck in them for hours and if he doesn’t have certain ppl (his mom or annabeth) to help him out of it he can be stuck in them even longer

percy eats a lot bc he grew up with so little that he feels terrible for not eating everything and is always waiting for when he finds out there isn’t any food left

percy 100000% has depression and 100000% has anxiety/social anxiety he’s just learned how to put his needs aside and take care of other ppl first/instead

percy can be put out of commission for weeks when it gets bad and he’s just forced to lay in bed and cry and feel and not feel

percy feels worthless most times it’s not something he grows out of

percy hates public speaking/hates being the center of attention

percy wonders why he’s still alive and thinks it would have been better if he had just died like he was supposed to-why couldn’t he have just followed that one rule and died like he was supposed to-or that maybe to save some trouble for the future he should just end it now

percy wants to have kids but he’s terrified that he will end up like g*be

percy blames himself for what happened to sally while g*be was alive

percy was bullied for 80% of his life and probably doesn’t like/want/thinks he can make any mortal friends other than rachel

90% of these memories and feelings are probably repressed bc that’s how your brain usually handles big trauma like these and that’s why we don’t see him completely melting down like you think he would

percy has terrible memory bc his brain has cut out large chunks of his life bc they are full of trauma and as a side effect to what hera did

percy hates himself

that’s all just thought y’all needed the reminder :)

i might make a pt 2 for more sad things or some happy/cute things bc percy is my comfort character but idk yet when/if i do i’ll like link it idk

on the next episode of: things to remember :)

so i think we can all agree that poseidon is generally a great dad to percy compared to the way the other gods treat their kids. i was re-reading tlt and i came across this passage...

i totally forgot this existed, but poseidon literally told percy “i wish you weren’t born” ?? and percy IS hurt by it, but he just brushes it away and tries to leave. imagine being twelve, and the first time you see your biological father he says that to you? percy is TWLEVE. that is so damaging. like honestly poseidon wtf?

the thing that makes this scene sadder is when we consider the fact that up until this point percy lives in an abusive household with gabe. it is canon that gabe is physically and emotionally abusive to percy. that being said, i’m sure there were times that he mocked percy for not having his biological father there for him. overtime percy did grow mad at his dad for leaving him, but at the end of the day we all know he would have wanted to live a normal life with his actual dad and sally. all the kid wants is to be normal. and i can’t even image the pain he felt when poseidon tells him “i’m sorry you were born” ? like excuse me sir what the fuckkity fuck? did percy think “damn maybe gabe was right? my dad does hate me” LIKE HDJKDK i know poseidon backtracks later, but still.

also this makes me upset too...

percy called his dad SIR... like i know that’s common for many people but i just think it goes to show how percy doesn’t really view him as the dad he always wanted and that’s a big let down.

and it’s not until percy has went on numerous quests and brought poseidon glory, that they actually start developing a father-son relationship. consider the birthday scene from botl...

i think it’s great and all that the relationship between poseidon and percy gets better, but it hurts to know that it took that much for them to actually start developing a relationship and it makes me so sad. the gods really do need to do better... all percy wanted was to have a normal little loving family but time and time after again he gets hit with shit. okay i’m done now.

heyheyhey! :D I’m back with another drawing I made for @pjo-hoo-bigbang!! 

fic: Celestial author: @queenangst

image ID: Percy, Luke, and Annabeth are standing at the edge of some woods. The sun setting over the ocean is visible in the background. Annabeth is in the foreground, back to the viewer, lit from behind from presumably a fire- just the sparks floating up are visible. Her ponytail is pushed to one side, obscuring her face. Percy has his sword out, pointed at Annabeth. The much taller Luke has one arm around his shoulder, and is gesturing towards Annabeth as Percy says something. All three are wearing orange tees. end ID.

this fic made me so emotional ahahahhaaaaaa ;-;; GO READ IT YOU WON’T REGRET IT

no one:

me and my wannabe storyboard artist ass:

i finished sea of monsters and also wanted to practice storyboarding, so here you go.

Translation

Rico: Remember to button your shirt next time, ok

Colt: Okey

Rico: And wear more clothes if you are cold

Colt: Yes sir!

tbh at this point i’m gonna start seeing them as dad and adopted son rather than mentor and student

also no hat version cuz his hair is so damn cute

Instead of a Camp Swap how about Hera just kidnaps both Jason and Percy at the same time, wipes their memories, and puts them somewhere in like the midwest or the south together. 

Without memories or any context of who the hell they are, these two demigod legends try to fumble their way back to their respective camps (also while figuring out where exactly that is and which one to go first) all the while monsters chase them going “finally revenge is mine!” and these two lovable amnesiacs go “is this one here for you or for me?”

For conflict, let’s sprinkle some misunderstanding that the Roman/Greek camp kidnapped their respective camp leaders and they try to duke it out somewhere in Florida only for Jason and Percy to show up and be like hey do any of you know who we are because we’ve been arguing over it since Utah.