Numb
Numb
How do you describe the feeling of feeling nothing?
It’s in the slit of light shining through the bottom of your bedroom door and hearing the laughter outside. Imagining being part of that, or maybe even causing those bellows of laughter, yet feeling absolutely drained and empty on the inside.
It’s the throbbing clench on your chest as you think of everything that could’ve been done better – all the things you could do better, should have done better – but knowing you won’t be able to push past the paralysing fear of opening your mouth. Even as you search for the fire that long since died, nothing ever satisfies gnawing ache.
It’s soiling your pillow, leaving stains that proclaim themselves saliva under sunlight, all while you stare at the darkened ceiling drowned in an ocean of night, unblinking. Unyielding.
It’s trying not to care, but caring too much anyway.
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GUYS I THINK I FOUND IT :DD
For those who may be interested (the 2 peeps that liked the og post lmfao), it’s this one:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/33580519
FIC SEARCH HELP
I am desperately looking for a Reo/Nagi fic on ao3 where Reo finds Nagi in a stadium at night one time then they start playing soccer together. Idk something happens and they end up not playing together anymore before Reo realises how boring soccer is without Nagi.
BUT I CANT REMEMBER HOW IT ENDS. ITS SO DAM FRUSTRATING BUT I JUST CANT FIND ITTTT HELP 😭😭😭
“When I die, I want every other prominent male figure in my life to lower me into my grave, so they can let me down one last time.”
- Hawks in an interview, probably
Really excited to see Hawks ask himself why the Jin-Toga clone had to dissolve before finishing the job of killing him just like every other prominent male figure in his life failed to follow through on
Anybody else got that Evergiven sized writers block
Adding on to OP
• That’s what [someone else]/ I just said
• Thanks for your input
• I don’t want to talk anymore because my social battery is used up, not because I’m tired of you
• You’re doing great
• The method that you chose is clearly not working, let’s try this other way instead
• I don’t enjoy the thing that you enjoy
• I feel like you’re not listening to me
• I’m tired, please just sit in silence with me
• No
direct things I wish I could say in their directest version but instead I have to be really hyped up about it so no one takes it the wrong way
Thanks for the info
I was actually asking for [someone else]'s opinion
I don't want to talk about this anymore because it's not interesting anymore
I said something and I would like feedback
I was asking you to come out to things because you seem lonely and I don't want you to feel lonely so it's totally fine if you're busy because I was asking for you so if you're busy it's literally not relevant anymore because you can't do it