Genuinely Feel Like Ive Been Really Lucky With Standard Pulls (in That Ive Been Getting Pretty Early

genuinely feel like ive been really lucky with standard pulls (in that ive been getting pretty early 5-stars. if anyone heres seen my post about getting gepard 2 pulls after welt's lightcone, this was 15 pulls. not updated yet but u can scroll down for pull history)

in any case welt is in the same state as clara now

both character + lightcone

i use clara's on a diff character tho but here

and both e1

in any case its kind of awkward since i dont use welt (i think hes good though. also supposedly can be used as a sustain cuz delay enemy or something??? idk game mechanics). but in all honesty he'll probably be used for a future team comp (when i actually get around to creating a second team so i can do the other battle stuff 😭)

Do you think "Riddle me this, Batman?" has become a common lexicon among Gothamnites for when they don't understand something?

I like to think it has. I like to think they've heard The Riddler say it one too many times, and now it's just ingrained into their collective psyches in much the same way as "No shit, Sherlock" is.

I also like to imagine Bruce Wayne making a rare appearance at a corporate meeting, and the latest Gen Z hire, a generation that infamously doesn't fuck with formal office corporate speak, just leans over the table and says, "Okay, I hear what you're saying, but riddle me this, Batman," and Bruce tries not to choke on his coffee.

birthday bloom kalim

notice how much more azul speaks then kalim, cause azul's all flatter-y and like. the type to ig do ill deeds by walking circles around his prey and striking when they dont expect it (as in slipping in little things here and there that could make it harder to notice for example)

but kalims all honest and more to the point, so he doesnt need as many words to get there

oof

💀 kailm. sweetie...

admittedly i feel like his upbringing of basically being spoiled and kept as happy as can be from any stresses (as in yknow always being first in stuff and doing what he wants- remember that mention of kalim finding jamil during his break cause he asked the security guys to like idfk see th camera footage? or like. to find jamil. like. i mean. he was a kid but also that kind of screams of abuse of authority, but to be fair kalim was under the impression that jamil was his friend and would have no reason to think that jamil wouldnt want to play with him as much as kalim does. you see? because he's been able to see the world through sunshine and rainbows [in comparison to jamil being faced with the harsh reality and meant to be 'mature' enough to know what hes meant to do] it means he misses these cues, that he can be so oblivious to harmful intent. or like. being so positive that it could almost blind him? like

he wants to do his best to stay alive because. remember he mentioned that one time how 'what if [his poisoner i think] had a change of heart? it wouldnt mean anything if he was dead by then'. but thats under the assumption that theres. well. to put it bluntly, good in them and that they would act on it. i really dont know how to word it in a better way.

and. its not that its bad to view things in a hopeful way, its just that too much of it can be harmful.) only does him more harm

cause like. hows he gonna survive on his own? and i mean there might not be a situation like that. but like. by them raising him like that, it means that he doesn't know how to take care of himself.

and while he has servants and everything... im of the opinion that it would've been better to raise him self-sufficient. i mean spoil him as a kid ofc precious bby but also make it clear that he should also kinda be able to depend on himself too? like. like listen

make it clear that while he can trust other people, that they can also betray him. and i get that that creates trust issues, and also idk he probably already knows this in canon (its just that he wants to believe that they can change. and also because it just never occurred to him that jamil could turn on him since hes always been there)

cause. we know his other asim relatives have tried to hurt him. or well. maybe it was only mentioned in kalims' labwear vignette? i thinki it was that one.

so like. understanding that, and then giving him the skills to be able to manage on his own when needed to. not having to rely on other people all the time. cause i mean. well. this isn't the greatest lesson to teach but its like. the only one you can fully trust is yourself??

and i mean yeah he cares for himself (because so many bad things could happen if he died. or others could get hurt/punished because he died.) but it genuinely feels like hes only doing it for others and not for himself

maybe im puliing all of this out of my ass

but im STILL not over kalim talking about how frustrating/annoying it was to know that kalim only won because of jamil. that it was because jamil held back (also in relation to the truth of him always being chosen being broken, because it wasnt true at all. which i mean, if theres something that gets established in your head as what the truth is, finding that it isnt true at all is.. a lot. like. idk. that parents arent invincible, that they're human too.)

and then grim shoots him down with 'i didnt even get picked [to peform]! how do you think I feel?'

and kalim immediately apologizes. like

i swear this is like one of the only times i feel like kalims ever been outside of his happy 'im here for you if you need me' thing

or like one of the only times hes expressed his feelings (and probably knowing he's privileged, so not wanting to express his issues because he knows so many people have it worse than him ?)

and in all honesty. if he ever gets feelings talk about himself in book 4. i forgot a lot of it. and i think it mightve been partially because i knew the twist in advance so it just hurt me going through it knowing that they were wrong of who they suspected so. yeah.

uhmm. as you can see. i have a lot of thoughts about kalim. haha oops

yknow the recent battle event?

the one where enemies insta-kill but then your character gets immediately revived with more energy

OH MY GOD them taking out the entire team and then coming back. holy shit thats a lot of voicelines

2. i didnt know there was a return to battle voiceline (i dont even know how thats triggered normally) but i just keep hearing sparkle being like 'can i finish my nap first' cause she keeps getting targeted😭 and its like girl i feel you

i dont like echo girl at ALL but listen

ALL zen told us was that echo girl wanted a 'deeper relationship'

and its. treated like this horrible thing? like. like. FOR ALL WE KNOW she just confessed and he turned her down like what?

"i hate how Echo Girl did that" DID WHAT??? CONFESS TO HIM?? like. literally no one but the RFA know we're a thing what are you talking about

is it because 'something happened' so zen thinks he cant really do the job anymore?? so its disappointing because she did that so yoosung cant see him on like the stage or whatever ??? like. what? like. it. kinda feels callous. cause for all they know she just fell in love with zen which is normal cause hes pretty and hes a good person

and like. yeah i guess you should be professional with ppl you work with and not let feelings get in the way but like

if thats the case then logically they could just pretend nothing happened, because zen treating it like he cant do it anymore because someone he'd be working with confessed their love is. weird.

like i mean not to say that zen isnt valid because she was really fucking weird and making him uncomfortable and not listening to him telling her to go home (cause she snuck out and went to his house despite the possible scandal it could cause the both of them) and pushing herself onto him

but WE DONT KNOW THAT

it could seem entirely unreasonable on our end because what? we technically work with him so shouldnt there be some scrutiny on our end for falling in love with him when we've only known him for a week? (and i think him meeting echo girl and like the job happened recently so they only met recently too??) so its like possible excuses that could apply could also apply to us and zen yknow?

and im just. so confused. cause he hasn't mentioned what the actual problem is? just that she wanted more, he said no, thats it.

anyway still i really dont like her and theres a valid reason for zen not to like her it just feels very iffy when framed a certain way (also this kinda doesnt really sound like him saying no nicely but to be fair you just have to double down if they dont listen to you doing it politely)

i figured it out

you know this image? (after i deleted a bunch of stuff to make space)

i deleted hsr to download zzz

which was enough.

and now theres space to also download hsr

i just have no clue how my laptop is going to respond to starting it up h a h a

and also just realizing this means all my settings have reset hfuisdhfis

in any case this wont last long once one of them has an update lOl tbh i just wanted to play the game as it is cause it seems like fun, i wanna go through the events and get the stuff for the pulls. maybe get the character i want and then dip

im. gonna go do other stuff first. like. uh. idk. eat. before i lock myself in for hours into a game im never playing again (not to say that its a bad game, but i really only have the storage to commit to like one hoyo game. and thats hsr.)

(and if youve seen my other post about like. idfk being able to play genshin now cause i was deleting a bunch of stuff for zzz and still didnt have enough space but had enough space for genshin. uh. yEAh. genshins deleted. maybe ill bring it back after i get rid of zzz. idk.)

i should probably show how much space i have left after downloading hsr but im lazy and dont wanna go back to this post. maybe in the future ill add it when its done but not rn

i probably shouldve shown before downloading it cause it tells you how much space it needs and how much space you have

and to be fair its like double the actual size so it can like. fuckin decompress(??) am i saying that right idfk idk this stuff

so its like

zzz needed 100, so getting rid of hsr gave it enough space

but then it actually only took like 50 gb, which gave like enough for honkai star rail's like. i think it mightve been 80 something? idk i forget things easy

which was kind of just barely enough. blessings. woo. anyway gtg

(if i made a typo or said the wrong word anywhre. um oops.)

not as bad as i worried it might be