Crying These Are All Ao3 Emails

crying these are all ao3 emails

i havent gone through it in a year how the fuck do i even begin to tackle this im !?!?!?!? and my problem is ive got into so many different fandoms that i genuinely dont remember what ive read before (cause ive subbed to works, series, and accounts)

so its like. i have to check each work because if ive subscribed to it i need to get rid of that since im not gonna read it anymore (also because awhile ago i think i had too many subscriptions so then i just stopped getting emails so i had to trim the list down but idk if thats happened in the span of a year because i havent been checking)

im just. om. like LOOK this is from the oldest

i dont know how to get rid of the yellow arrow i dont remember what i did that made it appear

anyway if there are any weird fics in here. know that i have no recollection of wtf i did a year ago.

also the retry later screen when you open up too many different tabs is scary :(

like. id like to think that im not as attached to ao3 that i cant handle taking a break from it (..this is a lie i read on ao3 all the time everyday) but theres just something about not having access to it that gets me so stressed fisudhfs

man. i remember i used to check my email obsessively with no emails waiting for a new email to arrive

now im left with this mess what the fuck

any tips?

i dont wanna just get rid of them all at once but im not too sure how to tackle this

[Attachment Investigation on the Lifecycle of Cosmic Intelligent Life Forms - AE 2157 has been sent] Trailblazer: On it. I love learning By the way, how long would it take to finish reading the document? Dr. Ratio: Conservatively? Just 1 Amber Era.

what? sorry? thats like a year right? also i jumpscared myself because i forgot i put the march event text thingy on and for a second i was like huh?

i feel like every time i talk to this man i continue to lose brain cells trying to decipher wtf hes talking about

except. its. kind of weird. i kind of think i get what hes talking about. (IM GETTING SMARTER?? GASP) not gonna share more screenshots cause i dont feel like typing it all out because im starting to actually get a headache 💀 and i kind of need to use my brain later

also new update out. if i get to playing it today itll be pretty late, but goodluck (no spoilers pls), and goodluck on your pulls yall

Treasure of the (Vampire) Duke's Family?! / TCF/LCF Fic (Fic Rec)

When Kim Rok Soo fell asleep while reading, he did not wake up in Cale Henituse's body. In some ways, this changed nothing. In other ways, it changed everything.

basically krs becomes naru lol. ive recently been getting super fixated on tcf and naru and white star and just interactions. and its both so fucking stressful and also 'aHAHAH nothing to be suspicious of here uncle hAHAHAH'

and its. so fucking cool. and id say its pretty canon divergent. stuff changes, some stuff stays the same, but so on and so on

and i think theres some stuff thats not actually canon that also changes it while making sense as we're well from dark creature pov and why so and so and i dont wanna spoil it because its really cool

it hasnt been updated in like a year i dont think (at 50 chapters with 480k words holy moly) but its. so fucking cool.

and i like it very very much.

id rlly recommend giving it a read

hhhi guys wanna see me talk about what anime/manga i like

ok

so

my mal page looked kind of boring so i decided 'why not talk about what im fixating on'

and then it. expanded from there... (to be honest i think i just like yapping about anything and everything to people)

so im.

if i ever say a word that doesnt make sense. or well is typed then just know. that probably isnt meant to be there but i wasnt paying attention

also if i drop a line of thought suddenly. know that it is because i started typing on a different part because i kept hopping onto different areas and adding things that i mightve forgotten to go back to because i kept getting hit with thoughts on what to add

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Current Fixations: Twisted Wonderland, Lout of Count's Family, Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint??? (i wanna get into it), Honkai: Star Rail uhh i cant remember anything else (i am slowly crumbling into a mess of sobbing noises as i delve deeper into the stories)

Potential: Debut or Die???? It seems interesting so far but I'm worried about how wacky idol drama might be. (..I remember googling something about it and there's just something about Park Moondae and.. pADS? or like tampons idk? And I'm pretty sure it's made up for drama (in story) but ??????) I really really like Dungeon Meshi. It's not something that's consumed my life that it makes up a lot of what I think of so uh not what I consider a fixation, but I like it and am excited to see it continued. (Yes I know there's a finished manga but I don't wanna get spoiled! This is genuinely a show I got into WITHOUT SPOILERS?? Which is insane because I usually get hit with MAJOR spoilers (end game type lol) that then make me think 'oh cool, that happens?' and makes me watch. But Dungeon Meshi had NONE OF THAT! I like cooking animes A LOT and just found it so I decided to get into it. It was great and I was not expecting there to suddenly be plot in my cooking anime but I don't hate it, it's really cool. I'm hyped.) Also Apothecary Diaries is great. I didn't get spoiled on that one either, I just got into it thinking it'd be something I could just put in the background (I did have it open though in dub so trying to pay attention while doing other stuff) and then it turned out to be actually really good. So, wow. The Promised Neverland season one was PEAK, best thing ever. Season two, uhh... (I did read the manga for that one though!) It also made me understand why MAL separates seasons, which made me very annoyed when I first made an account trying to add everything I watched and trying to add all the MHA seasons barely remembering which one had which. All Saints Street is cozy to watch. I have like the 3rd favorited because of that one episode where they're at like a play or something and Neil (with the help of like the Demon King I think??) suddenly busts out this really cool move. I want to read it's manga (listen I'm going to refer to it as manga because that's the term I'm used to otherwise I will be so confused) but MAL doesn't have that entry..?? It was in whatever state it's called when they're added but you can't interact with it because it's not added added. And now I can't find it so unfortunate. Apparently it has more gayness??

My thing is that I get fixated on something and devour so much content regarding it, and then drop it like a month later with little to no interest. Sometimes I come back to it but not as into it. (Sometimes I stay with it longer then that but I have my finger in a LOT of different fandom pies.)

Things I wanna get into: Black Butler, One Piece, Heaven's Official Blessing, Scum Villain's Self-Saving System (something like that i forgot the name), Bleach, Katekyou Hitman Reborn!, I'm Not That Kind of Talent, Naruto, Honkai Impact 3rd I went through Persona 3 Reload but I haven't seen the anime-related stuff to it yet. Have no idea what happens in The Answer. Vanitas no Carte. I watched one season and then stopped because I wanted to watch it while super focusing because I wanted to really pay attention. ..And then I never started. I wanna see what the hype about Nier:Automata is about but for the life of me I just can't get into it. Kind of want to get into Pokemon but I think I'm way too many years late on that train. Also I've started blanking out on what's going on with the.. Horizons?? Anime?? The new Pokemon anime.

Was fixated on but kinda not so much now? (Still keeping up with it): Oshi no Ko, My Hero Academia, Jujtusu Kaisen, Bungo Stray Dogs

Manga I want to read: Toilet-Bound Hanako Kun?? I saw the anime but that apparently skipped some arcs and then I never got into reading it. I finished Hunter x Hunter's anime and wanted to get into the manga to continue from it but then I never did it so oops but I don't remember what happened. Haha did I mention I forget things easy? ..Maybe Solo Leveling? I watched the anime but I honestly don't like the appearance change. It's probably just because of preference since it's not bad it's just not a thing I like. But I feel like I should because it is probably interesting maybe???? S-Classes That I Raised. I think the being looked down upon because 'so and so' would break me but TIME TRAVEL? Also story because goddamn like the beginning part?

Old fixations but will still like: Assassination Classroom was great to me. Ending always got me crying, and I like interacting with stuff related to it. Violet Evergarden is 10/10 always makes me cry even on rewatch, what a masterpiece. There's also Demon Slayer which I know the ending of but I really like seeing it brought to life in the anime. Hyped for the movies but also hell because movies take so long to appear in a streaming platform and already spoilers. Movie quality is crazy though so excited. Anyone remember that one fan animation of Zenitsu AND* (i said x but not in a shippy way but an 'and' way and i realize it could be taken the wrong way SO) Kaigaku or something that looked genuinely like an actual thing?? There's Spy x Family's movie which I haven't been spoiled yet but AHHHH. Danganronpa was a big fixation I had for awhile to be honest. Yuri on Ice was SO GOOD??? I do this thing where something gets popular and so I avoid it as much as I can. And then I turn around late to the party and get into it. I shouldn't but I do. I can't believe I didn't get into it when it got super big but I also probably wouldn't really remember what happened by then. Genshin Impact consumed my life until I ran out of storage so I got into Honkai: Star Rail. I'm not too too into Genshin anymore but trying to keep up with it? Kind of?

Dead fixation??: Fairy Tail I think was one of the first few anime I ever watched and I loved it so much. And also I don't remember anything that happened so... I kind of got into EDENS ZERO but I'm not that fixated and I'm not the biggest fan of fanservice. That one episode where, well, spoilers, but y'know the one where suddenly everything is going wrong and people are dying and then it turns out it's like a weird sort of power the protagonist who I cannot remember the name of for the life of me but is like Lucy but other character?? Her?? has??? It got dark QUICK and that was cool to see. There was also Sword Art Online? I really liked it but I have no idea what's going on now. One of my favorites was like Gun Gale Online to be honest though.

it. was originally meant to be just current fixations. but then i thought isnt that too little??? so then i started talking about things i kinda liked but wasnt sure on and then it spiraled from there

MAJOR spoilers for 2.4 trailblaze continuance mission (thats right, right?)

i played through the wardance story until we got to negotiating with feixiao cause i was nervous and tired and its been kind of too long but here i am now and i think in 8 hours we get the new update i havent seen the livestream for it i wanna see it AFTER i finish story so i gotta rush through this but awe dan heng

you. kind of make me feel really bad that im roaming with imbitior lunae you 💀

anyway i am very uncomfortable being here just thinking of dan heng being in here aghh

but also first thoughts on the shackling prison: hoooly shit this is laggy (i think it was just laggy at first trying to load in everything since its smooth now but oh my god LMFAO)

..me who is STILL not done with that event: uh. uh huh.. yepp. (im like partially done i think on that tho i just got tired of reading words tbh)

AA

IM SO FUCKING SAD THAT CUTSCENES LAG FOR ME

its just freezing at hanyas face and i just hear "Watch out!" and im just like what?? whats happening?

and then it speeds up to catch up to where it currently is at so then i have no idea wtf just happened im

wait sorry is jiaoqiu supposed to be there or is it like he cant do anything cause theres a guy right behind him

idk i just got so caught off guard

oh wait yeah he is meant to be. sorry it just kind of felt like. yknow how in genshin your character is still there and enemies can attack you or npcs can push you away while youre stuck in dialogue. it felt like me with the character jiaoqiu as the one im playing just randomly loaded in here and is not meant to be here

but i guess he is 💀

..gonna be honest. this is starting to sound like the start of a fanfiction. im sorry for harboring these thoughts but HMMMMMM i can certainly imagine what people will write out of this scene.

i guess ill see what happens next tomorrow. i gotta watch the livestream now fhsuidfhsif

Hanya: Could it be that the signal from the Shackling Prison is still blocked? Hmm... they proposed maintenance last year, but it's been delayed in the approval process...

i sure hope thats changed now (2.4-2.5 go brr)

OH MY GOD thats a huge wall of text. i was just clicking to speed up the texts and i just get hit with walls upon walls of texts and then it kept going and im like OKAY HOLD ON I CANT READ THAT FAST and trying to speed it up so i can scroll back and read it and theN BRRRR like holy fuck 😭

anyway context: hanya wrote this for her sister (who likes thriller novels). apparently its her first attempt. its called Seawater

Hanya: Judges have forever grappled with the burden of excruciating decisions. Among them, few weigh on their conscience as heavily as the relentless pursuit of the betrayer. Motivated by greed, disdain, or the intoxication of danger, comrades can swiftly transform into enemies. And when the moment arrives to dispense justice upon a former ally in the name of the revered Ten Lords, the torment becomes unbearable. The place I now journey towards bears witness to a heart-rending spectacle. Long ago, I meticulously constructed a trap to ensnare the perpetrator who conspired with the Denizens of Abundance. This elusive criminal, known only as "Seawater," peddled invaluable secrets, unraveling the intricate tapestry of the Alliance within the Ryansnaut Sector. Engaged in an unyielding battle with "Seawater" for an extended duration, I now find myself poised to tighten the noose. As I hasten towards the scene, a vivid tableau unfolds within my mind. A greenhorn Cloud Knight, a spirited street performer, a guileless foxian girl, and one enigmatic Nameless... Which among them could be "Seawater"? And when the truth is ultimately unveiled, how shall I confront the inevitable, merciless denouement...? Without warning, an arrow, launched from the shadows, pierces my heart. I collapse to the ground, I find my gaze locked onto the countenance of the assailant... Trailblazer: Wait, hold on a sec! Are you seriously planning to send me the entire novel through text messages!? Hanya: Sorry. I'm not done yet. "Seawater... It is you!" It ends here. That's all I've managed to write so far. I'm a bit stuck and need some advice.

im so sorry if there are any typos or if i typed the wrong word but thats a lot of text 😭 i usually write the texts together but separating it for each text sent. i dont know if that makes sense, but since she was sending a novel i thought itd be a better idea to actually put space in between the paragraphs so its not just all clumped together in a difficult to read block of text (also its a personal thing because i for the life of me i struggle so bad keeping track of where i am reading SUPER long blocks of text cause i keep accidentally losing my place or reading the wrong sentence in combination with another)

anyways

the reason we are suspects is because xueyi told her its easier to write characters based on familiar faces

Hanya: My sister mentioned that it's easier to write a novel when the characters are based on familiar faces. I've been thinking about it. Maybe it's because you guys are always too kind for me to imagine you doing anything evil. No wonder I'm stuck now. Perhaps I should draw inspiration from the criminals I usually deal with.

also she hasnt decided on who seawater (the criminal) should be