Thank You. I Know I Dont Say It A Lot To You, But I Just Want You To Know That I Am So Thankful To Have

“Thank you.” I know I don’t say it a lot to you, but I just want you to know that I am so thankful to have someone like you in my life. I know it has been hard trying to understand a person like me, with many thoughts and imagination inside my head that are often mixed with the reality that sometimes I get really confused about what is real and what is not. I always have my own thoughts to think about, and my own problem to solve, but it feels good to know that there is always somebody who stays even at times when I am at my worst or even when I show the worst part of myself. I know we don’t always get in sync, and you know how easy it is for me to get tired. Sometimes I am a good girl who are easily pleased, sometimes I am a moody and messy girl who can’t be messed up with. I know it has never been easy trying to keep up with me, but you always try even at times when I don’t ask or need you to. So thank you for always. Thank you for doing things even more than I expect from you. 

The thing about me is I don't know which I am more scared of: hurting a person's feeling or being hurt by a person.

My personal consciousness

Sometimes someone says something really small and it just fits into this empty place in your heart.

Angela in My So-Called Life   (via whitenes-s)

There is a say “the truth will set you free”. 

And I have been wondering how long has it been since the time I started to carry this burden on my own. I know I have been hiding, and keeping the truth for myself. First I thought it would be easy, but it never gets easy. I thought I would just carry this on my own and it would just come out eventually, but now I am still carrying it and I still don’t know when is the right time for me to let it come out. I know I should have spoken the truth but I still haven’t, and I wonder what on earth that I am still waiting for. 

Tell me when is the right time to tell someone the truth? because right now I don’t think I can keep it any longer, but I still don’t have any courage to tell the truth. What if the truth destroy everything that you have been working on? What if the truth break someone that I care about? I am sure the truth will set me free, will I be totally free if it breaks a person’s heart, especially the ones that I care about?

I have been asking questions, a lot of questions about this, and the only answer that I have right now is telling the truth. No matter how much it will hurt them, they deserve to know. Yeah, I knew it right from the beginning that being honest was the only way, I guess I just have been waiting for the right time. And I hope one day I will wake up with no more burden of keeping the truth. 

Part one of the Psych2Go x To Be A Genius series focuses on sleep and dreams. Read more about sleep on Psych2Go. For more graphics like this about the brain, go here.