This Is It. This The Life I Have Been Dreaming About. I Have Been Chewing Down Guilt, Swallowing Anger,

this is it. this the life i have been dreaming about. i have been chewing down guilt, swallowing anger, biting back sobs, clawing at hope, and gnawing my way through the past four years; i made it. because the world didn't end when i was 13, it's beginning at 17 <3

it just hit me. it finally just hit me. i start university in two months. i am an adult in forty-two days. i will have a job very soon, my provisional licence sooner. i moved out a fortnight ago. it’s a new year in two days.

hahahhahaha i did that thing where i overshare again. help. i can’t take words back. guilt burns my skin. why do i care what others think? acid in my veins. i look for reassurance in people who haven’t seen the whole picture.

beautiful bedrooms in ikea's 1996 catalogue

@academia-lucifer

girl are you okay? you’ve been consuming so much media lately that you haven’t allowed yourself to feel one single human emotion for months