(other Than Being A Very Ordinary Tuesday Morning In July) Today Feels Like A New Beginning, As If Its

(other than being a very ordinary tuesday morning in july) today feels like a new beginning, as if its new years, or the first day of something new.

it took me accepting myself as trans for me to fully accept God, and it took me seeking a relationship with God to accept that i was trans. it was a cycle of realising that God's love really is unconditional and not "unconditional if you do it this way".

God seeks a relationship with all of us, no matter who we are. there isn't some checklist to earn His love, He just gives it freely. the whole point of following Jesus is just learning how to return that love to Him, yourself, and others. therefore, my faith is an exercise in humanity.

stomach knots. swirling. my chest burns, lump in my throat pulses hot. i hate seeing the hope flicker in your eyes, dull lights fading. i hear your mother telling you to persevere and the strain that reflects in your face. i wish i knew how i could help you.

From Backwater Sermons by Jay Hulme

we are with your friends in the audience of the artist that was the soundtrack to your life as i was falling in love with you and i have never seen you look as beautiful as you do in this moment, so unselfconscious and feeling the music so deeply.

i want to escape. what if my trip doesn't fix me? what if the unthinkable is the only silence to this unearthly noise....