I Think This Is So Accurate Though I Love Talking About Deep Things And The Struggles Of Growing Up,

i think this is so accurate though 🫂 i love talking about deep things and the struggles of growing up, and i personally think is depicted a lot in my writings. i love the challenge of overcoming troubles even though the first few steps will always be hard to comprehend properly. i miss my childhood and how free it was back then, but also ponder on how things will be when i grow up even more, even though i'm not ready to grow up anymore. and correct! i'm very protective of the people i love!! 🤗 i'm picky with who i consider my friends because of experiences but i'm thankful that the people i have now are so comfortable to be with 💕

also bubba 😭 "its like having a companion by your side even when u feel like youre all alone in the world." 😭😭😭 i love you

❄️🎄❄️ moot game ❄️🎄❄️- hi baby,, assign some romantic tropes to your moots + explain why

i totally forgot i had this in my inbox and a moot just answered this ask so i am reminded of it once again HAHA. only did the moots i am the closest to <3

@satoruly - miri is found family (i would say soulmates au too, but i wont be that cheesy.). you meet and her and you instantly click. she knows your soul and connects with it, makes you feel safe, makes you feel understood. your sense of humor is the same and you never thought you'd be blessed to have someone like her in your life, but it happens and you always thank whoever is up there for bringing her into your life. she is like laughting until you cry, like tending to each other's wounds, like listening to long voice memos and feeling so at peace and in tune with someone that you wonder how the universe works so well that there is someone out there that is truly your best friend, no questions asked and no doubts felt

@csenke - now come on there is no way i am not giving csenge neighbors au (slash childhood friends au). we are platonic neighbors because we live in bordering countries and i felt strangely so at home in budapest but other than that,, she is just that type of person you feel like you've known forever. the person you go on walks with and spend most afternoons with and have similar interests with because you are the same age and you grew up together and you feel so carefree with them and they know you so well. she is like evening walks during summer break and like catching the bus and going on a little road trip and like playing in playgrounds and she is like laughter and being silly and being only a house away and everything is good because you know that when you come back from whatever journey u went on, your neighbor, your childhood friend, will always wait there for you.

@from-izzy - izzy is coming of age. she is like sharing struggles and growing up, she is like finding yourself and overcoming trouble, she is all late night talks and rants, she is confessions and fun and inside jokes and being loyal and protective of your loved ones, she is finding your favorite person and being glued to them in the halls of the school cafeteria, she is that kind of person they ask you "have you been friends since childhood?" about, but you reply that no, it hasnt been that long, you just click so well. she is like staring in the mirror and seeing yourself in another person. she is like mourning your childhood and the thrill of growing up. she is like wiping your cheeks off tears and staying strong even on your lowest. its like having a companion by your side even when u feel like youre all alone in the world.

@sanaxo-o - sana is idiots to lovers. two people who are in love with each other, but too oblivious and dumb to realize it. she is all silly acts and blushing cheeks and chaotic energy that makes you question the nature of the relationship. she is all caring and sweet and genuine and over-all besties vibes. it takes a while to figure out your feelings, but u get to it eventually.

@okkotsu-simp - kyuzu is first love au. my innocent sweet little sister i need to protect at all times. she is shy glances and rosy cheeks and lovesick hearts and screaming over the boy you like. she is like freedom and fun and all the pure things in the world in my eyes. that type that makes u wanna squish their cheeks and give them a forehead kiss.

@injangism - is academic rivals to lovers au. that type where you argue (not that we ever did) and go after each others throat, but u secretly admire them for their big brain and their strengths and their smarts and the determination. you admire them from afar but would never admit it because words are too embarrassing, so getting to their level is what you do to make them notice you. and then u realize the sexual tension and it all ends well<3

@sungbeam - beam is college au acquaintances to lovers. she is that person u know through mutual friends, that person you somehow end up talking to and still question how it even happened. u meet in college and click over the same struggles and interests and the similar way you two think, you click over deep talks in the lonely bedroom of a house party, or the person that follows you out of the bars on your smoke break. she is like your study partner during exam season u lose sanity with, someone u secretly admire, and somehow find growing closer to. she is like the mature girl u meet in college and then realize she is younger than you and you slowly start questioning the state of your developing front lobe.

@koishua - vie is right person, wrong time. i know it sounds depressing, but hear me out. vie is like watching the person you have always loved from afar. she is making you reflect on who you were and who you are now, she is the person that got away but you keep thinking about in hopes that they're okay and happy. she is that person you stalk on insta and feel proud of, wishing them well, despite not crossing your paths with them. and im not saying we no longer have the same path, i just think your tumblr hiatus left a scar on me 💔💔 i love you always vie, u are like my mature younger sister. you make me think of just how fast time flies. also ur whole existence is so poetic to me.

my response: 😘😘

spread some love !

talk about your favourite mutuals and why you like them

@captain-brie I'm pretty sure brie was my first mutual, or at least the first one i really talked to. When we first started talking i was so shocked bc she's been one of my favorite writers on here for fuck knows how long and i was like WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU LIKE MY WORKS. But Anyway- Brie is one of the nicest people I've ever met and is so so so so fun to talk to. She's someone I rely on tbh ujaeugyfusf

@winterchimez Ally!!!!!!! We met through Fawn I think iuhysfusygeiw and I'm so glad we did. Even though your sleep schedule is fucked, we have the best conversations and you're always there to support me. You beta things that likely will never see the light of day (i promise they will at some point i'm just lazy) and you always give the best feedback. NEVER CHANGE. ILY POOKIE

@sanaxo-o where do I even begin....I think we started talking because ally kept harassing me and we just kinda went from there. Yes you and izzy bully me now more than ally ever did, but i always have such a good time talking with you (when I respond...)

@from-izzy Just like sana, we started talking because ally kept bullying me, and somehow you both ended up becoming worse than her. Even though you BULLY ME, I still love hearing your ideas and reading the things you send me

@sungbeam BEAMMMM MY POOKIE. I know we don't talk a ton but ILYSM UR SO SWEET AND SO TALENTED AND FUNNY AND I WANNA TALK TO YOU MORE I WANNA HEAR UR IDEAS I WANNA MAKE JOKES. No but fr ur so nice and understanding to everyone and i'm so envious of that. Ilysm

This goes for all of my moots: I'm the worst at starting conversations so if you ever wanna talk to me please god don't be nervous or unsure. Reach out whenever you want, whether just to start talking more or to talk about smth you're working on because I love hearing everyone's creative processes and I wanna support all of you in any way I can

Were you ever scared of releasing fanfics that are really personal to your life and explicitly saying it?

I think it's cool and I appreciate it but I could never be able to press that post button

YES!!! ALWAYS!!!

ahem...sorry about that i got a bit carried away 😭 but hi anon!! 🥰 simply to answer your question: yes. every. single. time.

and it's not a 'were' because i still am very scared. every time i write about something relating to something close to my heart, there are three main things:

mentions of anxiety and depression

am i going to be alright after this? as in! what will people think of me after? with every story i post under my 'especially to you' series, comes a real part of me that you will learn about. just because i post it on the internet, doesn't mean i'm invincible to the internet!!

will people understand? my series is centred around real-life struggles, mainly ones that i recognise are due to my anxiety and depression. my diagnosis has heavily changed my perspective on life especially when i'm aware of the before and after shift.

will people be interested and will they understand? will people be open-minded in how i approach my struggles written in my stories? will people be triggered? or will people be heard and healed? these are however factors i can't control but i always hope for the latter and will always try my best to avoid the former by using the genre/warnings/notes sections in my stories.

majority of readers (well, the ones i asked) prefer something that isn't close to their lives. most people (again, the ones i asked) read because they want to escape reality which is not what most of my writings are about. that being said, i genuinely respect all reasons for writing and reading.

i write because it has mentally benefited me and i choose to write about human struggles because i grew up in an environment where you should never think you're struggling and always be thankful for what you have.

but being thankful doesn't mean you're not allowed to struggle and a lot of people tend to overlook that

i write these topics because in my personal opinon, i don't think that's the right mindset to have. i don't think struggling means you're not thankful for what you have. it just means that you're facing a new challenge in life that you may not be prepared for 🫂

(also, i can never press the post button either!! most of my stories are scheduled!! even if it's a minute from when i post it, or an hour or days, most of it is scheduled!!)

...omg i need to stop writing essays for my ask answers

eric's got nothing on you baby <33 how is jamovi going baby 🥺 i think of you every day, i hope you dont mind me being very annoying on whatsapp 🙏

no real process on jamovi because we haven't done much yet. our prof just finished analysing the data for our lab report so the sleepless nights and stressful days will start next monday 😭

no you're not!! to be honest i have the app on notifs off just because all the other chats and uhm...this person (will tell you when i come back) is very active, please don't be sad tho 😭 i'm looking forward to the day when i'll be able to read it

“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale

“Love when you’re ready not when you’re lonely.”

— Unknown