A Peak Into Izzy's Thoughts - Tumblr Posts

not me just realising the amount of sunwoo fics i have 🤭 (...IN MY DEFENCE---)

...i'll try my best to write for other people 😔 (/hj 😇)

just in that time right now where i'm so impressed by kenzie and ldn noise 👏

i lack music theory and production to truly understand what's going on but they hit every. single. time.

my favourites (mix of kenzie and ldn noise) i need to listen to more

shinee - view, married to the music, don't call me, our page

red velvet - zoo, mr. e,

f(x) - all mine, danger (pinocchio)

exo - monster, lotto, for life, obsession, sing for you

taeyeon - why, four seasons, spark, to. x

nct 127 - replay,

wayv - only human

superm - jopping, drip, one (monster & infinity)

nct dream - box, hello future, [sorry, heart],

baekhyun - cry for love

nct u - 90s love, alley oop

ioi - fingertips

astro - crazy sexy cool

the boyz - water, honey, shine shine

alexa - revolution

nmixx - love me like this

"Memories are beautiful when they remain as mere memories. Regardless of how wonderful they are, their beauty lies in the emotions and memories of that moment, which exist only at that moment...leaving the moment as it is, even if it is unstable and incomplete. We must move forward towards our future."

THE BOYZ's Kim Sunwoo

THE BOYZ. (2024, March 20). [이상고등학교] Nectar MV 스토리 분석 | 2교시 뮤비영역 [Video]. YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vannQImqZqo

my ideal type is him.

240512 MARK (@ r_e__m___) IG Update

hey!!! its sweetiechenle !! tmblr wont let me send you a message :( but it was so cute im excited to read your other things :) have a good week 🫶🏻 p.s write chenle hehe

omg hi!! 🥰 i saw your reblog of my haechan story earlier today! 🤗 i'm glad to hear that you found it cute, thank you for reading!! 🤭 i was stressed from studying and decided to go back and watch some old nct clips (cause...nostalgia) and the way haechan was rearranging my bias list after that (SJFHKSDFJH) 🤣

i literally just had a thought a few days ago as i was looking at my masterlist (which is probably like...90% sunwoo) and i was like "...i should write for more members" 😂😭 and then haechan decided to climb up my bias list and well 😎

def going to try my best to write for the other members soon! had a look at my wips (particularly ones i abandoned) and found some that could fit members with the dreamies compared to the ones i assigned originally 😁

thank you so much for sending this ask in!! have a great week! 💗

note. yes i turned off my messages features because i was getting some messages that made me a bit nervous/cautious 🥹 but you're always welcome here!! 🫂

ok so it wasn't 90% but more like 45.83% 🥰

but uh...thought still stands (SKJDFHKSFH) 🤣😭

hey!!! its sweetiechenle !! tmblr wont let me send you a message :( but it was so cute im excited to read your other things :) have a good week 🫶🏻 p.s write chenle hehe

omg hi!! 🥰 i saw your reblog of my haechan story earlier today! 🤗 i'm glad to hear that you found it cute, thank you for reading!! 🤭 i was stressed from studying and decided to go back and watch some old nct clips (cause...nostalgia) and the way haechan was rearranging my bias list after that (SJFHKSDFJH) 🤣

i literally just had a thought a few days ago as i was looking at my masterlist (which is probably like...90% sunwoo) and i was like "...i should write for more members" 😂😭 and then haechan decided to climb up my bias list and well 😎

def going to try my best to write for the other members soon! had a look at my wips (particularly ones i abandoned) and found some that could fit members with the dreamies compared to the ones i assigned originally 😁

thank you so much for sending this ask in!! have a great week! 💗

note. yes i turned off my messages features because i was getting some messages that made me a bit nervous/cautious 🥹 but you're always welcome here!! 🫂

just doing hand-written notes and i've reverted back to my old habit of cursive writing 🤭 especially when i'm writing notes really quickly as well. i remember when i was taught hand-writing in school back in indonesia, it was cursive hand-writing. everything was in cursive. also remember panicking when my sister said no one uses cursive writing in australia and that i had to change it because barely anyone could read her writing 😭

but old habits really never die...

choi chanhee i beg you, please stay in your line.

(DON'T DO THIS TO ME 😭)

ok yes but that's not why i'm freaking out about him 😭😭

(it's this btw: https://youtu.be/oPXNqPG6p2c?t=729)

i could write a whole essay on him singing (in general) and even then, i would never stop talking about it (can you tell i love his timbre?)

choi chanhee i beg you, please stay in your line.

(DON'T DO THIS TO ME 😭)

his smile 🥺

'Cause Sunwoo, you're my Painkiller 💊

“The aim is to balance the terror of being alive with the wonder of being alive.”

— Carlos Castaneda

fingers crossed for tomorrow and friday!! i did all the revision i can...

note. please please please 😭 i'm not ready to be kicked out of this degree

[03:21] | tbz kim sunwoo

then at least you'll know that you tried

​PAIRING » tbz kim sunwoo x gn!reader (not proofread! tell me if i made a mistake!) TROPE/AU » established relationship au!, non-idol au!, smau...? text messages!! GENRE »​ hurt/comfort...?, sunwoo just being a supportive boyfriend because i think it suits him so so so much, fluffy fluff fluff fluff, angst, reader is going through a new phase in her uni/educational life, playful banter between them two, but sunwoo and reader love each other a lot, sunwoo is so cute (this is the type of partner i want tbh...) WORD COUNT » 486 ESTIMATED READING TIME » ~2 mins WARNINGS (lmk if i missed anything!) » mentions of anxiety/nervousness relating to university/education, not proofread at all

navi/masterlist!! 🤍 part of 'especially to you...'

i literally woke up twice during the night because of the new and unexpected changes relating to my uni journey. i think it's been weighing on me a lot because i never thought and had no expectations that i would be given the opportunity to move to a bachelor degree that will benefit me a lot.

i'm just a second year in university right now and i don't know whether i have enough experience to say this but to all of you hesitating and scared of new experiences, i understand you so much and i hope you'll be able to pick a decision for YOURSELF that will make you happy. uni is important. education is one of my core values but what is knowledge if you need to sacrifice happiness? education is a privilege, yes i get that but don't forget that to keep going in life, you must stay true to yourself first and foremost. and i can tell you now that hard work WILL NEVER betray you. i've always been stuck in this awkward position between the middle and high scores in high school but now in uni, though it's hard, psychology is something i love so much and now that i'm given this opportunity, though i'm nervous, i know it'll be worthwhile and i can only hope the same for you too.

i'm proud of you all. keep going!! you got this!!

thank you to all my friends who sat through and just listened to me rant about this, you gave me a lot of strength and courage. i love you all so much.

navi/masterlist!! 🤍 'especially to you...' tags (send a dm/ask if you would like to be here!): @deoboyznet 📢❤️ @k-labels 💙🤍 @k-films 🤎🎞️ @kflixnet 📺🍿 @heemingyu

i...found a semester 2 unit on creative reading and writing and i want to do it so bad 😭

(...i shall email the person in charge...and tell them i have experience on fanfiction /hj)

look i am very appreciative that you write vrry realistic topics but at the same time did you know it could be received very badly

you writing about realistic in real life things and dont seperate from in real life topics and using idols feeds the parasocial relationship that a lot of fans have and that's rly rly rly bad influence you know that right? as long as you know

i'll still read your works but i hope you know and maybe seperate irl to fics to make everyone more comfortable. not hating but something to think about lmaooooooooo

when i decided to start writing again but posting on a different platform that is, in my opinion, more interactive, i didn't expect to be getting something like this. with how tumblr works, it's quite hard to find posts that you didn't for example, link to your pinned post/masterlist/navigation but thankfully, i think i have addressed something similar to this here.

when i decided to pick up writing again after longer than two years of not writing anymore, in a site where everything is more interactive etc. i was mentally prepared to be criticised and/or judged with the quality of my writing: "you're not good at writing, stop writing"; "you're not using proper structuring"; "your plot makes zero sense"

but i must say that, i wasn't prepared to be faced with an ask like this (or the one that was linked) at all. and i just want to be transparent because i will still be true to myself and those who have decided to read my stories that it took me around a month to be able to answer the previous ask. i was beyond shaken up; i thought about quitting.

but this ask, in my opinion, is more serious.

i asked advice on how i should answer this ask and what i should do in general. i received support (even a template answer) on how i should respond to this ask and if my friends read this, i just want to say thank you for helping me out. i decided to approach this ask in my own way, taking your advice on board as well.

anon, i am very appreciative that you took the time to read my works. because of that, you decided to send in this ask. when i read this the first time, i was more apologetic over any other emotion that my writing has caused you to feel this way but after slow thinking and reflecting, i think the only thing that i can apologise for is that you found my page. i'm sorry that the algorithm led you here and that as i'm reading your ask, there is implication that you continued to read more than one of my stories. however, please understand that this is my art and i will not be changing my art for anyone else. i would like to further defend myself by saying that writing is an escape for me to reflect on my daily life. yes, i have made mistakes with the lack of warnings in the past but that is something i will continue to work on and be mindful of. if you're asking me to stop writing about realistic topics, then please understand that you're indirectly asking me to quit writing in general. i'm very sorry that i cannot give you this. if you feel like my writing is influencing you badly, please feel free to block me and tell anyone that you know that might be uncomfortable about my writing. i hope you'll be able to find stories that will suit you. warmest and kind regards, izzy

hi izzy,

I hope you don't mind me doing this on anon but I just wanted to say in response to the two anons who seemed to have a problem with your work that there is absolutely nothing wrong in the nature of the topics that you're choosing to write about. You're neither approaching it insensitively nor are you forcing your content upon anyone and that's actually quite important because anyone who chooses to engage with it is therefore doing so of their own free will like those anons seem to have done.

You've even addressed the issue of content warnings too to make sure that people know what they'll be getting into so honestly, there's not much more you can do beyond that if they choose to continue reading. But you, having taken those actions, would already know that.

I've not read through all of your works (which is a damn shame) but even I have to acknowledge the importance of the topics that you address in your personal series. Not all fiction (fan made or not) exists to perpetuate typical notions of romance. And actually, it's so important to have media (whether it be in the form of books or whatnot) that addresses mental health and other such topics in order to circulate and normalise those discussions. It's so easy for people to say they advocate for mental health, etc. but when someone does something that could positively impact the field, they're quick to reject it because it's uncomfortable for them. Life isn't always comfortable for everyone and THAT'S the reality of it.

And the notes about how writing isn't meant to reflect reality, etc. is absolute nonsense. The whole point of writing is that authors put to paper the words they wish to read or the stories they want to share. It's not an exclusive field. And you're doing just that. Sure, your work may not give everyone the escape they want but you never claimed it did. Plus, not everyone engages in reading to escape. Some people read to be comforted, to relax, or simply because they want to. And your work is so important for the former.

Most importantly, it helped you! Writing is your outlet and no one should be allowed to take that from you simply because it doesn't meet their standards of what writing should or shouldn't be. It would be a shame for anyone to lose literary integrity simply because people don't understand how impactful your words can be to the people that read it and those that need it (and that includes yourself).

I really hope they don't discourage you from writing not now and not ever because honestly, from what I have read so far, it's important for you but also for others that you're able to put the work you want out there.

Anyways, I wish you all the best for the future and sorry for my messy rant!

hi anon 🥹 i'm sorry i'm responding this encouragement of yours pretty late 😭 i wanted to make sure i wrote a really nice reply back with all the points you made here, making sure that i convey my gratefulness to you for this 💝

i remember reading this for the first time and my first reaction was to panic first because well...as you mentioned in your ask, i haven't had the best times with anon asks 🥹 in saying that! anons like you and others have come to my inbox to send my encouragements and i'm really glad for you all 🫂

thank you for supporting in the topic that i write about, i really appreciate this ❤️‍🩹 mental health is still such an interesting topic when being talked about in public. in a closed off space, for example, between friends or between a professional, it just stays there but open the door just a little bit, and somewhere in the crowd, you'll see someone glaring at you for talking about it. i grew up knowing nothing about it and so moving to a culture where it's heavily emphasised is something that i'll always be thankful for. being able to talk about it has helped me so much and that's why i choose to write these and i don't see myself stopping to write about these. but of course, content warnings!! thank you for acknowledging that i'm doing all i can for this 🫂

i see the way topics of mental health have developed in my life and for me, it's touching that most people are now able to talk about it without being judged and i genuinely think it should be like that going forward. i do understand how these topics can be uncomfortable but that's why i think setting boundaries are key. for writing, i do this through warnings, for friendships and conversations, i ask about how in-depth i can talk about each topic.

concealing it, ignoring it and/or stopping to talk about these topics will only make it worse. and this goes with anything that should be talked about more.

when i first started writing, i knew that i wanted to talk about these kinds of things but i was too scared to jump into it straight away. that's why it was really hard for me to release cupid's mistake because the main idea of that story is a part of me that not even everyone in real life knows about me. it has always been a goal for me to connect with my readers a bit further by explaining the background of the story and how it relates to me. i think this step further is important for telling people that they're not alone if they're facing similar issues; because that's how the people around me has helped me in my mental health journey.

i thought about why i was scared at first but i decided to go for it and i told myself: if people judge me because of this, then they don't have to read it!! it's similar in real life where if people judge me over this, then they don't have to be around me or be my friend. it's as simple as that to me. i can see why readers who don't write think that stories could lean towards being written not based on reality but you're correct anon, it's not an exclusive field and everyone reads for different reasons 🥹🫂 just the same as how writers will write for different reasons. for me, it has always been to talk about these topics and provide comfort. but yes, not all my writings are centred around that because i still love other genres too!!

writing has helped me in ways that i never thought of and for me, it's a healthy hobby that i hope will continue to be 💜 i'm even thinking of taking a unit on creative writing next semester but we shall see about that!! 🥰 if i do, hopefully i can make the quality of my writing better!! 🫶

thank you so much for supporting my work, anon 💝 genuinely, this gave me so much comfort and it's not messy at all by the way! i think this response is messier 😭🤣😭 i have no idea who you are, if we're mutuals, or if we have ever interacted before but if someday you're ever ready to reveal yourself, i just want to give you the biggest hug but for now, here you go: 🫂🫂🫂🫂 thank you for making me feel welcomed and loved in this community 💕

all the best to you too!! have an awesome rest of the day/night!! ☀️🌙

tw: mentions of calling emergency services

one of the things that i'm thankful about australia is the fast, free access to immediate mental health support. i've been feeling really stressed the past couple of days and have been feeling too heavy to talk about it with my friends and family. i think i desperately needed someone that i didn't know at all to talk to.

the last time i called kid's helpline was just a little more than a year ago and i think the service was pretty busy because i was on hold for 15 mins 😭 i forgot about lifeline (not sure how!) and got put through to someone within 30 seconds. the 45 mins talk was really helpful so i'm feeling pretty light right now.

and whoever is reading this, i hope you're always well supported 🫂

been crying a lot lately and i'm reminded of how therapeutic writing can be for me

the AUDACITY TO EVEN TAG ME---

girl...i was literally in a seminar when i first heard of this 😀 and i was in the front row 😀 and i was falling asleep 😀 and yk i thought this was a fanedit at first 😀 BUT NO!!!

IT'S NOT!! 😀

and did i smile for the rest of the seminar? yes.

did my friends ask me why i was smiling? yes.

did i look like an idiot just because this raccoon is going to get his acting debut? yes.

so in conclusion: no. i'm not ok. 😀

thanks for asking tho 🥰

@from-izzy are you okay girl?!?!? 😭😭

This might be sudden but

What would you feel like if a mutual of yours was lying about their age?

Just a random thought

hi anon 👋

to be honest, i don't see a point in lying about age at all, under any circumstances for any reason. mutuals or non-mutuals. especially when it's about social media, or in this case i'm going to assume tumblr.

in this world (not just the online world but also the physical one), age is used as a 'benchmark' to make sure that everyone is well protected in what they do.

my first reaction to anyone who would lie their age to me is that i would be very uncomfortable. again, this is because i believe that there is absolutely no need to lie about your age for anything. i know of people who lie about their age and i have never understood it. even if it's just for something 'harmless' like getting a student discount (though people usually ask for your student id) or a kids discount because when it works once, you're rewarded with saving money and get away with it, you're going to do it next time.

for me lying about something about something that is almost like a protective factor in our world in my opinion and perspective is unnecessary under any circumstances.

and to you anon, i'm not sure whether you're my mutual or not, or if you're lying about your age to your other mutuals, or if you're just asking for a random opinion but this is my answer to you. if you are my mutual and you've lied about your age, i guess depending on what we've talked about and such, i would be very alarmed but all in all, very uncomfortable. i'm not sure if lying about your age was seen to be something fun or a joke at first but if you do think like that, and you haven't been able to say the truth (on the assumption that we are mutuals and you're lying), then i do think that even though being honest now would be very hard, i think it's best to give me some space because i do think our age can be a protective factor especially when on the internet.

internally i was fangirling so hard fr...if only you saw me irl like...

i retained nothing from that seminar but that's okay because 1) the slides are out and 2) the raccoon is getting his acting debut

AT LEAST I WAS AWAKE FOR THE REST OF THE LECTURE HAH-

(i haven't watched la la land but if you make one i will watch the movie and read asap the things i do for this guy-)

@from-izzy are you okay girl?!?!? 😭😭