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Were you ever scared of releasing fanfics that are really personal to your life and explicitly saying it?

I think it's cool and I appreciate it but I could never be able to press that post button

YES!!! ALWAYS!!!

ahem...sorry about that i got a bit carried away 😭 but hi anon!! 🥰 simply to answer your question: yes. every. single. time.

and it's not a 'were' because i still am very scared. every time i write about something relating to something close to my heart, there are three main things:

mentions of anxiety and depression

am i going to be alright after this? as in! what will people think of me after? with every story i post under my 'especially to you' series, comes a real part of me that you will learn about. just because i post it on the internet, doesn't mean i'm invincible to the internet!!

will people understand? my series is centred around real-life struggles, mainly ones that i recognise are due to my anxiety and depression. my diagnosis has heavily changed my perspective on life especially when i'm aware of the before and after shift.

will people be interested and will they understand? will people be open-minded in how i approach my struggles written in my stories? will people be triggered? or will people be heard and healed? these are however factors i can't control but i always hope for the latter and will always try my best to avoid the former by using the genre/warnings/notes sections in my stories.

majority of readers (well, the ones i asked) prefer something that isn't close to their lives. most people (again, the ones i asked) read because they want to escape reality which is not what most of my writings are about. that being said, i genuinely respect all reasons for writing and reading.

i write because it has mentally benefited me and i choose to write about human struggles because i grew up in an environment where you should never think you're struggling and always be thankful for what you have.

but being thankful doesn't mean you're not allowed to struggle and a lot of people tend to overlook that

i write these topics because in my personal opinon, i don't think that's the right mindset to have. i don't think struggling means you're not thankful for what you have. it just means that you're facing a new challenge in life that you may not be prepared for 🫂

(also, i can never press the post button either!! most of my stories are scheduled!! even if it's a minute from when i post it, or an hour or days, most of it is scheduled!!)

...omg i need to stop writing essays for my ask answers

💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome 💌

peony 😭🫂

hii izzy! i just wanna let u know that ur soul is one of the purest things i've ever seen <33 🫂

and hi anon! 🫂 i just wanted to let you know that this made me melt a bit and you're so sweet for sending this in 😭💖

*coughs* *clears my throat* um..okay. *looks away* can I imagine Chanhee doing this 🧍‍♀️ *mumbles as I walk away*

...yeah........

can i call you izz? cuz you got that rizz

ELLIE?! 😭 FOR A SECOND I THOUGHT THIS WAS SANA?! 😭😭

but uhm...🫢 if it's you...then ig so 🤭🥰

(you can call me mine too if you want 🤫)

Hello! Just hopping in to say that I love your banners (and your stories). Have a good day!

hi anon!! 😁 thank you so much for reading and loving my editting 🥰 have a good day!! 💕

hey!!! its sweetiechenle !! tmblr wont let me send you a message :( but it was so cute im excited to read your other things :) have a good week 🫶🏻 p.s write chenle hehe

omg hi!! 🥰 i saw your reblog of my haechan story earlier today! 🤗 i'm glad to hear that you found it cute, thank you for reading!! 🤭 i was stressed from studying and decided to go back and watch some old nct clips (cause...nostalgia) and the way haechan was rearranging my bias list after that (SJFHKSDFJH) 🤣

i literally just had a thought a few days ago as i was looking at my masterlist (which is probably like...90% sunwoo) and i was like "...i should write for more members" 😂😭 and then haechan decided to climb up my bias list and well 😎

def going to try my best to write for the other members soon! had a look at my wips (particularly ones i abandoned) and found some that could fit members with the dreamies compared to the ones i assigned originally 😁

thank you so much for sending this ask in!! have a great week! 💗

note. yes i turned off my messages features because i was getting some messages that made me a bit nervous/cautious 🥹 but you're always welcome here!! 🫂

Send to 10 other bloggers you think are wonderful. Keep this going to make someone smile ☆♥

peony!! 🥹🫂 hope you've been doing well!!

Send to 10 other bloggers you think are wonderful. Keep this going to make someone smile 💙

love you dora 🫂

Send to 10 other bloggers you think are wonderful. Keep this going to make someone smile 💙

smiling but also smiling more because of the story you tagged me in 🥰

hi izzy!!! will u be doing a 100 followers event or the sort when you reach a milestone where people can request a trope with an idol or smth?

hey anon! thanks for sending this in 🥰 to be truly honest, i don't think i'll be holding those kinds of events anytime soon 🥹 and it's not because i don't like receiving requests or of the kind but because i have a lot of buzzing ideas that i do want to write about and would like to prioritise those first!

i did have a look at my wips a few weeks ago and found some that i could combine and 'save' some that i dropped but i think it'll become super overwhelming for me if i add any more 😭 plus, i don't want to potentially receive a request and take ages to write it 🫂 it would be in my head all day and would make me feel really guilty that in a way, i didn't keep my words of what i was planning to do 🥹

but thank you for asking this and i hope you understand! have a nice day/night!! 💞

(note. i'm so sorry i'm responding two months later 😭)

look i am very appreciative that you write vrry realistic topics but at the same time did you know it could be received very badly

you writing about realistic in real life things and dont seperate from in real life topics and using idols feeds the parasocial relationship that a lot of fans have and that's rly rly rly bad influence you know that right? as long as you know

i'll still read your works but i hope you know and maybe seperate irl to fics to make everyone more comfortable. not hating but something to think about lmaooooooooo

when i decided to start writing again but posting on a different platform that is, in my opinion, more interactive, i didn't expect to be getting something like this. with how tumblr works, it's quite hard to find posts that you didn't for example, link to your pinned post/masterlist/navigation but thankfully, i think i have addressed something similar to this here.

when i decided to pick up writing again after longer than two years of not writing anymore, in a site where everything is more interactive etc. i was mentally prepared to be criticised and/or judged with the quality of my writing: "you're not good at writing, stop writing"; "you're not using proper structuring"; "your plot makes zero sense"

but i must say that, i wasn't prepared to be faced with an ask like this (or the one that was linked) at all. and i just want to be transparent because i will still be true to myself and those who have decided to read my stories that it took me around a month to be able to answer the previous ask. i was beyond shaken up; i thought about quitting.

but this ask, in my opinion, is more serious.

i asked advice on how i should answer this ask and what i should do in general. i received support (even a template answer) on how i should respond to this ask and if my friends read this, i just want to say thank you for helping me out. i decided to approach this ask in my own way, taking your advice on board as well.

anon, i am very appreciative that you took the time to read my works. because of that, you decided to send in this ask. when i read this the first time, i was more apologetic over any other emotion that my writing has caused you to feel this way but after slow thinking and reflecting, i think the only thing that i can apologise for is that you found my page. i'm sorry that the algorithm led you here and that as i'm reading your ask, there is implication that you continued to read more than one of my stories. however, please understand that this is my art and i will not be changing my art for anyone else. i would like to further defend myself by saying that writing is an escape for me to reflect on my daily life. yes, i have made mistakes with the lack of warnings in the past but that is something i will continue to work on and be mindful of. if you're asking me to stop writing about realistic topics, then please understand that you're indirectly asking me to quit writing in general. i'm very sorry that i cannot give you this. if you feel like my writing is influencing you badly, please feel free to block me and tell anyone that you know that might be uncomfortable about my writing. i hope you'll be able to find stories that will suit you. warmest and kind regards, izzy

hi izzy,

I hope you don't mind me doing this on anon but I just wanted to say in response to the two anons who seemed to have a problem with your work that there is absolutely nothing wrong in the nature of the topics that you're choosing to write about. You're neither approaching it insensitively nor are you forcing your content upon anyone and that's actually quite important because anyone who chooses to engage with it is therefore doing so of their own free will like those anons seem to have done.

You've even addressed the issue of content warnings too to make sure that people know what they'll be getting into so honestly, there's not much more you can do beyond that if they choose to continue reading. But you, having taken those actions, would already know that.

I've not read through all of your works (which is a damn shame) but even I have to acknowledge the importance of the topics that you address in your personal series. Not all fiction (fan made or not) exists to perpetuate typical notions of romance. And actually, it's so important to have media (whether it be in the form of books or whatnot) that addresses mental health and other such topics in order to circulate and normalise those discussions. It's so easy for people to say they advocate for mental health, etc. but when someone does something that could positively impact the field, they're quick to reject it because it's uncomfortable for them. Life isn't always comfortable for everyone and THAT'S the reality of it.

And the notes about how writing isn't meant to reflect reality, etc. is absolute nonsense. The whole point of writing is that authors put to paper the words they wish to read or the stories they want to share. It's not an exclusive field. And you're doing just that. Sure, your work may not give everyone the escape they want but you never claimed it did. Plus, not everyone engages in reading to escape. Some people read to be comforted, to relax, or simply because they want to. And your work is so important for the former.

Most importantly, it helped you! Writing is your outlet and no one should be allowed to take that from you simply because it doesn't meet their standards of what writing should or shouldn't be. It would be a shame for anyone to lose literary integrity simply because people don't understand how impactful your words can be to the people that read it and those that need it (and that includes yourself).

I really hope they don't discourage you from writing not now and not ever because honestly, from what I have read so far, it's important for you but also for others that you're able to put the work you want out there.

Anyways, I wish you all the best for the future and sorry for my messy rant!

hi anon 🥹 i'm sorry i'm responding this encouragement of yours pretty late 😭 i wanted to make sure i wrote a really nice reply back with all the points you made here, making sure that i convey my gratefulness to you for this 💝

i remember reading this for the first time and my first reaction was to panic first because well...as you mentioned in your ask, i haven't had the best times with anon asks 🥹 in saying that! anons like you and others have come to my inbox to send my encouragements and i'm really glad for you all 🫂

thank you for supporting in the topic that i write about, i really appreciate this ❤️‍🩹 mental health is still such an interesting topic when being talked about in public. in a closed off space, for example, between friends or between a professional, it just stays there but open the door just a little bit, and somewhere in the crowd, you'll see someone glaring at you for talking about it. i grew up knowing nothing about it and so moving to a culture where it's heavily emphasised is something that i'll always be thankful for. being able to talk about it has helped me so much and that's why i choose to write these and i don't see myself stopping to write about these. but of course, content warnings!! thank you for acknowledging that i'm doing all i can for this 🫂

i see the way topics of mental health have developed in my life and for me, it's touching that most people are now able to talk about it without being judged and i genuinely think it should be like that going forward. i do understand how these topics can be uncomfortable but that's why i think setting boundaries are key. for writing, i do this through warnings, for friendships and conversations, i ask about how in-depth i can talk about each topic.

concealing it, ignoring it and/or stopping to talk about these topics will only make it worse. and this goes with anything that should be talked about more.

when i first started writing, i knew that i wanted to talk about these kinds of things but i was too scared to jump into it straight away. that's why it was really hard for me to release cupid's mistake because the main idea of that story is a part of me that not even everyone in real life knows about me. it has always been a goal for me to connect with my readers a bit further by explaining the background of the story and how it relates to me. i think this step further is important for telling people that they're not alone if they're facing similar issues; because that's how the people around me has helped me in my mental health journey.

i thought about why i was scared at first but i decided to go for it and i told myself: if people judge me because of this, then they don't have to read it!! it's similar in real life where if people judge me over this, then they don't have to be around me or be my friend. it's as simple as that to me. i can see why readers who don't write think that stories could lean towards being written not based on reality but you're correct anon, it's not an exclusive field and everyone reads for different reasons 🥹🫂 just the same as how writers will write for different reasons. for me, it has always been to talk about these topics and provide comfort. but yes, not all my writings are centred around that because i still love other genres too!!

writing has helped me in ways that i never thought of and for me, it's a healthy hobby that i hope will continue to be 💜 i'm even thinking of taking a unit on creative writing next semester but we shall see about that!! 🥰 if i do, hopefully i can make the quality of my writing better!! 🫶

thank you so much for supporting my work, anon 💝 genuinely, this gave me so much comfort and it's not messy at all by the way! i think this response is messier 😭🤣😭 i have no idea who you are, if we're mutuals, or if we have ever interacted before but if someday you're ever ready to reveal yourself, i just want to give you the biggest hug but for now, here you go: 🫂🫂🫂🫂 thank you for making me feel welcomed and loved in this community 💕

all the best to you too!! have an awesome rest of the day/night!! ☀️🌙

This might be sudden but

What would you feel like if a mutual of yours was lying about their age?

Just a random thought

hi anon 👋

to be honest, i don't see a point in lying about age at all, under any circumstances for any reason. mutuals or non-mutuals. especially when it's about social media, or in this case i'm going to assume tumblr.

in this world (not just the online world but also the physical one), age is used as a 'benchmark' to make sure that everyone is well protected in what they do.

my first reaction to anyone who would lie their age to me is that i would be very uncomfortable. again, this is because i believe that there is absolutely no need to lie about your age for anything. i know of people who lie about their age and i have never understood it. even if it's just for something 'harmless' like getting a student discount (though people usually ask for your student id) or a kids discount because when it works once, you're rewarded with saving money and get away with it, you're going to do it next time.

for me lying about something about something that is almost like a protective factor in our world in my opinion and perspective is unnecessary under any circumstances.

and to you anon, i'm not sure whether you're my mutual or not, or if you're lying about your age to your other mutuals, or if you're just asking for a random opinion but this is my answer to you. if you are my mutual and you've lied about your age, i guess depending on what we've talked about and such, i would be very alarmed but all in all, very uncomfortable. i'm not sure if lying about your age was seen to be something fun or a joke at first but if you do think like that, and you haven't been able to say the truth (on the assumption that we are mutuals and you're lying), then i do think that even though being honest now would be very hard, i think it's best to give me some space because i do think our age can be a protective factor especially when on the internet.

Can I ask how you got your 'to reader' and 'from izzy' trademark? 😭 I'm trying to find unique ones like yours but my brain is saying no 😭

Hi anon! 🤭

Honestly I remember thinking about my username just like it only happened yesterday 🥰

I was stuck too and I actually searched for inspiration on the internet but nothing really stood out for me ☹️ but then I asked myself what kind of stories I wanted to write etc. and because my a lot of stories are very much my experiences in life (that's what I planned for from the very start!), the personal exchange of information felt like writing a letter to the world.

Kind of like a "Hi everyone, this is my story..." feeling and so thinking of letters and stories, that's how I came up with the 'to: reader' and 'from: izzy' idea 🥰

Are you a writer too? If so, good luck and I hope I can read your stories soon!! 💞

'show you the stars' was amazing. I will be rereading it over and over again.

Hi anon!! 🥰

Thanks so much for the feedback! I'm glad that you thought of it in that way 🤭 That fic is quite special to me to be honest and I'm glad that it's receiving a lot of love 🫶

Have a great rest of the day/night!!

✍️ Fic authors self rec!

When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to other writers you know. Let's spread some self-love! 💛

i got two of these so i'll do a (somewhat) mid year and an end of year one!! thanks for sending this in ally 😘

cupid's mistake | the boyz kim sunwoo ; my favourite baby. i love you with all my heart. if you were a person, i wouldn't hesitate to give you the biggest, tightest hug ever because you deserve it. thank you for letting me talk about me and always comforting me in times of doubt. i love you to the moon and back, from the beginning of time till the end of time. my comfort fic, my favourite masterpiece. thank you, thank you, thank you.

show me the stars | the boyz kim sunwoo ; i love this man. that's it. go read to find out more!! i really let my fingers type without a second thought and well...yeah!!

that's him, that's just who he is | the boyz choi chanhee | new ; money has always been a big topic to me. this is a personal preference but i don't want to take out a student loan for university. but i also see people travelling and having fun, and i do wish that was me too. it's something that i have to think about further.

[03:21] | the boyz kim sunwoo ; the start of by far, the biggest academic challenge i would be going through. i am so thankful to be in this degree but i am very nervous about my unit results this sem. i remember turning my laptop back on to write and publish this!!

yesterday's petal | nct na jaemin ; i remember how i felt as i was writing this. i was so incredibly lonely and i just couldn't speak up to anyone. i tried to write the sudden feeling of loneliness in here and finished within around an hour which i was surprised. to me, it was a sign that i was really struggling

hello, i am your new reader and love your fics. can i req tbz please?

hi!! thank you so much for reading and loving my fics, and reaching out like this!! 🥰 just got back from a study session and this was a really nice ask to see after all the chaos that happened in twenty minutes 🤣

i can try your request!! i haven't been able to write for all the members because i haven't generated ideas that i was confident in but i can most definitely try my best for it! 😁 was there a trope or a member? if you don't mind giving me multiple options, that would be awesome!!

hi izzy! please do take all the time you need to take a break 🩷 here for you! hugs w consent 🩷

ahhhh sun 🥹 i felt comfortable enough today to log in (but the app is still uninstalled for now on my phone) and this is a sweet way to come back, thank you so much 💕 much hugs back with consent!! 🫂

miss you && love u sm izzy ♥︎

i miss and love you more mwah 😘