From-izzy - To: Reader, From: Izzy

Were you ever scared of releasing fanfics that are really personal to your life and explicitly saying it?

I think it's cool and I appreciate it but I could never be able to press that post button

YES!!! ALWAYS!!!

ahem...sorry about that i got a bit carried away 😭 but hi anon!! 🥰 simply to answer your question: yes. every. single. time.

and it's not a 'were' because i still am very scared. every time i write about something relating to something close to my heart, there are three main things:

mentions of anxiety and depression

am i going to be alright after this? as in! what will people think of me after? with every story i post under my 'especially to you' series, comes a real part of me that you will learn about. just because i post it on the internet, doesn't mean i'm invincible to the internet!!

will people understand? my series is centred around real-life struggles, mainly ones that i recognise are due to my anxiety and depression. my diagnosis has heavily changed my perspective on life especially when i'm aware of the before and after shift.

will people be interested and will they understand? will people be open-minded in how i approach my struggles written in my stories? will people be triggered? or will people be heard and healed? these are however factors i can't control but i always hope for the latter and will always try my best to avoid the former by using the genre/warnings/notes sections in my stories.

majority of readers (well, the ones i asked) prefer something that isn't close to their lives. most people (again, the ones i asked) read because they want to escape reality which is not what most of my writings are about. that being said, i genuinely respect all reasons for writing and reading.

i write because it has mentally benefited me and i choose to write about human struggles because i grew up in an environment where you should never think you're struggling and always be thankful for what you have.

but being thankful doesn't mean you're not allowed to struggle and a lot of people tend to overlook that

i write these topics because in my personal opinon, i don't think that's the right mindset to have. i don't think struggling means you're not thankful for what you have. it just means that you're facing a new challenge in life that you may not be prepared for 🫂

(also, i can never press the post button either!! most of my stories are scheduled!! even if it's a minute from when i post it, or an hour or days, most of it is scheduled!!)

...omg i need to stop writing essays for my ask answers

thank you for including me 🥰

(...i have a lot of things to say but i won't)

tagging: @littleroaes @sanaxo-o @mosviqu @hcuyk @cloverdaisies @deobienthusiast @astrae4 @mars101

hii izzy! i just wanna let u know that ur soul is one of the purest things i've ever seen <33 🫂

and hi anon! 🫂 i just wanted to let you know that this made me melt a bit and you're so sweet for sending this in 😭💖

Hihi, just came from Cupid’s Mistake—your writing is absolutely gorgeous, I really really loved it!! I hope it’s not too weird or anything but the note you made to yourself really resonated and I wanted to share a song, heh..

It’s called Fall In Love Again by P1Harmony, I’m not sure if you’ve heard of them/ the song? But either way, I hope you enjoy it if you give it a listen!!

Really really loved your writing, looking forward to reading some more <3

Much love!

hello again!! 🥰 sorry that i'm seeing and responding to this late 😭

it's so heart-warming to hear that you loved my story, thank you so much for taking the time to read and give me some feedback 💕 and also, no! i don't find this weird at all 🫂 infact, i'm really thankful that you took the time to understand why i wrote the story, so thank you so much for acknowledging it!

this is such a coincidence!! this song actually came on my recommendations a few days after i released 'cupid's mistake' and i think i shed a tear over how the lyrics really resonated with me. especially these ones!!

Yeah, I know he did you wrong but we're not all bad Don't hold back, baby, don't hold back And I promise you can fall in love again

i thought about the story as well when i was listening and when i was reading it, i played this song on loop 💓 love love love this song (and the piwon boys! i need to catch up on their content and songs! 😍)

thank you for loving my writing 💞 it's making me so excited to release this next one that's also very close to me, even though i'm a bit (a lot) nervous 🥹

“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale