Send This To The Twelve Nicest People You Know Or Who Seem To Have A Good Heart And If You Get Five

💌 Send this to the twelve nicest people you know or who seem to have a good heart and if you get five back you must be pretty awesome 💌

peony 😭🫂

i love you so bad

"Memories I hold to keep safe

And I love to love you, for God's sake

And I got the best friends in this place

And I'm holding on"

(note: you're the only one who understands the concept of the 'times i cried in 2024' log too)

eric's got nothing on you baby <33 how is jamovi going baby 🥺 i think of you every day, i hope you dont mind me being very annoying on whatsapp 🙏

no real process on jamovi because we haven't done much yet. our prof just finished analysing the data for our lab report so the sleepless nights and stressful days will start next monday 😭

no you're not!! to be honest i have the app on notifs off just because all the other chats and uhm...this person (will tell you when i come back) is very active, please don't be sad tho 😭 i'm looking forward to the day when i'll be able to read it

hyunjae!! my baby bear prince charming hyunbear!! 🥰

now i wouldn't go to uni orientations (i really only attended the very first one) but if hyunjae is there!!...say no more...

MOOT GAME: " make up a trope for your moots and their biases. doesn’t need to be romantic. can be crackfic/funny. ^ㅇ(๑>◡<๑)ㅇ^ "

hi anon-ie!! yayyyy ok this is so fun imma just *rubs hands* cook up some scenarios 😋 (tagging the ones i talk to on a daily basis!! 💗)

@sungbeam acedemic rivals - theres something about you just being rivals with changmin and it gets on your nerve whenever he outperforms you but then all that bickering slowly turn into romance and thats something i will be watching from afar with my popcorn.

@from-izzy strangers to lovers - you and hyunjae (as much as i wanna mention the other guy but i won't bcs im trying to be nice 🥰) would meet as strangers on your first day of uni orientation, seemingly also ends up as deskmate in class and boom hes the goofy funny guy, always trying to get you involve in activities when you're just shy and reluctant and then the both of you start falling for each other

@daisyvisions best friends to lovers - we all know how much you love this, esp with hyunjae when yall be doing things that are pretty much obvious that's more than just friends 😏 so by the time yall end up together its more of a meh we've already done this before but then it gets awkward cs you're both now labelled as bf/gf

@aimeecarreros / @momhwa-agenda enemies to lovers - bcs of what you told me yesterday....but juyeon who's always teasing and bullying you...but then it's bcs he actually likes you sm but bcs of his ego he refuses to believe nor accept reality...but then it eventually hits him and hes confronted by you with a revenge dress and he goes oh. 😌

@snowflakewhispers mutual pining - realistically you and jacob would be having feelings for each other but then you both have your doubts (even though you don't look like it when you have beef with me everyday 🙄 HOWEVER it'll be cute but then the rest of us at the side will be all frustrated (aka me, daisy, elena) be like HE ALSO LIKES YOU BACK WTF but you're just "IDK MAN I DONT THINK HE WOULD"

@kimsohn unrequited love (but with a happy ending) - sunwoo's been head over heels over you since day one but you're always just ignoring his advnaces be like "this dude is hella weird", this goes on until one day you eventually see the other side of him, he makes you blush and he gets a high and giddy be like "okay confirmed maya likes me now i've won in life"

@justalildumpling rich kid au - ok i know it sounds cliché but hear me out!! na jaemin aka the rich boy from uni and he gets all the girls and naturally you fall for him too cs hell hes a fine-looking man but then maybe one day you are forced to live with him and thats when you see his true colours which makes you go ew, but then bcs of your personality you'll be like "i will change this man" (which you do) and he realises that you're not like the other girls out there

@ethereal-engene coffeshop au - you just give me calm sunshine vibes so!! you and woozi in the coffee shop, woozi as the barista (WHEW WITH A WHITE SHIRT- 😮‍💨) either you both work tgt as coworkers and eventually become a couple, or you would often visit the store not just for the good coffee but also for the good looking barista 👀

@drunkdrazed childhood friends to lovers - you're literally the sweetest human being so it would only be appropriate for this trope!! either with ten / jacob, you would fit so well 🥺 love the way how yall know literally anything abt each other and when yall reach uni / work and thats when you both realised that you're falling for one another instead 🫶

@h0mebody-heaven soulmate au - you're so funny and another ball of energy!! i can't imagine a better soulmate for hendery than you! lmao i can imagine all the chaos, the jokes that you both are gonna pull, probably asks you to film plenty of questionable tiktoks but then you oblige bcs YOLO 🤭

@strayed-quokka established relationship - do i need to say more, husband sangyeon and you're the housewife. you can replay that scenario in your mind.

@sanaxo-o arranged marriage - chanhee the rich son of dior's ceo ✨ but imagined getting pampered by him??? what a life it'll be 😮‍💨

“Growth is painful. Change is painful.But nothing is as painful as staying stuck somewhere you don’t belong.”

— Mandy Hale

Were you ever scared of releasing fanfics that are really personal to your life and explicitly saying it?

I think it's cool and I appreciate it but I could never be able to press that post button

YES!!! ALWAYS!!!

ahem...sorry about that i got a bit carried away 😭 but hi anon!! 🥰 simply to answer your question: yes. every. single. time.

and it's not a 'were' because i still am very scared. every time i write about something relating to something close to my heart, there are three main things:

mentions of anxiety and depression

am i going to be alright after this? as in! what will people think of me after? with every story i post under my 'especially to you' series, comes a real part of me that you will learn about. just because i post it on the internet, doesn't mean i'm invincible to the internet!!

will people understand? my series is centred around real-life struggles, mainly ones that i recognise are due to my anxiety and depression. my diagnosis has heavily changed my perspective on life especially when i'm aware of the before and after shift.

will people be interested and will they understand? will people be open-minded in how i approach my struggles written in my stories? will people be triggered? or will people be heard and healed? these are however factors i can't control but i always hope for the latter and will always try my best to avoid the former by using the genre/warnings/notes sections in my stories.

majority of readers (well, the ones i asked) prefer something that isn't close to their lives. most people (again, the ones i asked) read because they want to escape reality which is not what most of my writings are about. that being said, i genuinely respect all reasons for writing and reading.

i write because it has mentally benefited me and i choose to write about human struggles because i grew up in an environment where you should never think you're struggling and always be thankful for what you have.

but being thankful doesn't mean you're not allowed to struggle and a lot of people tend to overlook that

i write these topics because in my personal opinon, i don't think that's the right mindset to have. i don't think struggling means you're not thankful for what you have. it just means that you're facing a new challenge in life that you may not be prepared for 🫂

(also, i can never press the post button either!! most of my stories are scheduled!! even if it's a minute from when i post it, or an hour or days, most of it is scheduled!!)

...omg i need to stop writing essays for my ask answers