Gayhuckleberryinatrenchcoat - Happiness Isn’t In The Having, It’s In Just Being

I JUST FOUND CANNON ONCE AGAIN CONFIRMING DESTIEL!!!

Go to 10x1 8:57, the first Deanmon episode and see for yourself:

Crowley calls Dean „Jerk“, thus making him Sam in this scene.

Dean is himself, shown by him replying „bitch“.

AND THE WOMAN HE JUST SLEPT WITH uses the insult „jackass“, thus confirming she is CASTIEL in this situation since his go-to insult always includes „ass“.

In this essay I will

coda to 15x20, not because i liked it but because i hated it and it needed fixing. don’t mistake anything in here as justifying the choices made in the finale, i just needed to fix it up in order to write an actually happy ending

Dean doesn’t know how long he’s been driving - it feels simultaneously like ten minutes, ten hours, ten days. He’s not sure how time works in heaven.

Not sure how prayer works, either, or at least has forgotten since the last time he was here. Either way, it might be different now, with Jack in charge. Dean just has to hold on tight and pray and hope that just once more, he gets an answer.

He feels it before he lands and then Cas is there, in the corner of his eye, sitting in the shotgun seat.

Dean wants to pull over, pull Cas into his arms. Doesn’t. He’s got stuff he needs to say and it’s easier to get out like this, hands on the steering wheel and eyes on the road.

“So,” he says. “Got out of the empty?”

“Yes,” Cas answers and Dean can hear the smile on his lips, can picture it, tender and proud. “Jack has grown so much.”

Dean clears his throat, uncertain of how to continue. 

“I’m sorry you died,” Cas says as the silence grows too long.

“Yeah, me too. Sorry your big sacrifice was all for nothing.”

Cas puts his hand on Dean’s arm, tugging, and now Dean has to pull over. He’s not sure if cars can crash in heaven and he’s not eager to find out. He kills the engine and finally, reluctantly looks at Cas.

He looks… the same. Maybe a little more relaxed, a little less tense around the eyes. 

“It wasn’t for nothing,” Cas says. His hand is still on Dean’s arm, warm and heavy. “Dean, if you had died then who knows how things would have ended? Chuck might have won, Jack and Sam could be dead, and you wouldn’t have gotten the rest you deserve. It truly would all have been for nothing.”

His eyes soften, his grip relaxing. “Of course I wish it hadn’t come to you so soon. You had earned a long life, it shouldn’t have ended so quick. But I’m not sorry I saved you and I don’t regret what it cost me. And I don’t regret…” he takes a deep breath, for the first time looking hesitant. “I don’t regret telling you I loved you.”

Dean laughs. It’s weak, wavering. At some point he started crying, full-on weeping in a way he’d have been embarrassed to let anyone see before. He’s not embarrassed now.

“You’re kind of scooping my big speech here,” Dean admits. “I had a whole thing planned out.”

Cas looks him over. Dean has never seen this look on his face before, this mixture of fear and hope, and he hates and loves that he has this power. But he’s damn well not gonna misuse it, not anymore.

“You- you can’t just tell a guy you love him and then die on him without waiting for an answer.”

“I wasn’t aware you had an answer,” Cas says softly.

“Yeah, well.” Dean shrugs. “I didn’t really, not right then. But if I can’t nut up and tell the guy I’ve been in l-love with,” he blushes, ducking his eyes as he stumbles on the word, “for fucking years how I feel, even after we’re both dead, then when can I?”

He waits. Shoulder tense, stomach coiling, and how is it that even now, with everything on the table between them, he’s still so scared? 

He startles when Cas’ hand lands on his shoulder. Looks up, gaze catching Cas’, and his breath stutters at the wonder, at the overwhelming love and adoration in Cas’ eyes.

“Dean.” Cas raises his hand, brings it up to cup Dean’s cheek, and Dean leans into the touch without even meaning to.

Before he can lose his nerve, Dean leans in.

It’s like coming home.

Okay can someone message me when y‘all are done posting about teenage Dean being abused by his homophobic father asshole?!

It’s not like I don’t agree that this interpretation cannon is true, it just crushes me to even think about it for another second AND I CANNOT HANDLE MORE HEARTBREAK.

Signing off until y‘all are done, thanks and bye bitches💙💚

In 10x18 16:06, when Cas and Metatron are attacked by an angry angel, he says that he’s just an angry Cupid. He isn’t angry about what happened to heaven, hell no, he’s angry because can’t take watching that slow burn of Destiel anymore. He’s angry that they’re so obviously in love and too afraid to act on it. He is a Cupid, he sees when someone is in love, it’s crystal clear to him and to anyone ever seeing Dean and Cas interact. And the one thing a Cupid cannot stand is a love this strong, the greatest love of all times.. Just going no where, just being „wasted“ on those two idjits who just can’t see that their feelings are mutual. Who are too afraid to come clear on their feelings. So THAT‘S the true reason he’s attacking Cas.

READ THIS TO THE TUNE OF HALLELUJAH

Destiel - Hallelujah

[Verse 1]

I heard there were two Winchesters

Who hunted monsters, fought a war

When one of them got killed and went to hell (yeah)

It went like this: The angel Cas

Who gripped Dean tight and saved his ass

From perdition started questioning his god

[Verse 2]

He meant truly well but went too far

Became a god and started war

Dick dragged Cas and Dean to purgatory

There their love became so clear

But only Beandenny got back here

Cas was kidnapped and brainwashed by heaven

[Verse 3]

Brainwashed to kill his best friend Dean

But snapped out of it to save him

When his blue eyes met Dean’s green eyes he had to

He fell from heaven and lost his grace,

Kept fighting for some better days

He cared about all humans ’cause he loved one

[Verse 4]

Even demon Dean could never hurt his Cas

They’d die to save each other’s ass

But still think this is just a normal friendship

Hugs so tight and face-cradling-hands

It’s actually a great romance

Of a faithless man and his angel in a trenchcoat

[Verse 5]

No personal space but an adopted son

Dumbasses can’t see what’s going on

Think they can’t have the one thing that they want

Cas‘ love confession leaves Dean a mess

He gets him back and reciprocates:

You dumbass always had me... I love you Cas!

Hope you like this version!

(Feel free to add the hallelujah parts in between the verses)