Is Fandom Merch Envy A Thing? If Not Amma Make It A Thing Cause Lookin For Stuff For These Two Is Just

is fandom merch envy a thing? if not amma make it a thing cause lookin for stuff for these two is just

bruh

minor life note: due to doctor/health nonsense I'm off both adhd and mood stabilizer meds. hopefully gonna get around to scheduling a psych soon, keeps not happening cause energy and executive dysfunction. for time being sorz if i'm a mess, if i ever seem concerning it's impulsivity + low swing and will be fine. 9/10 times its me being cranky from lying in bed dead tired with a headache for 6-8 hours yet not sleeping any [not joking, happened multiple times recently and it sucks]

Sabi based on the cover of Dispose by The Plot In You

This album fits her so well, the heavy and despairing atmosphere, distortion, lyrics about loss. RIGGED could straight up her theme, even has a heartbeat in the background. It's metalcore/post-hardcore but could say it feels more like a heavy post-rock sorta, and there's some softer songs on it [THE SOUND and DISPOSABLE FIX are alternative rock/ballad ithink]. also Landon's an incredible singer and worth trying for his voice alone

ALSO am seeing them [for Beartooth tour] in a few days anD GOD THE EXCITEMENT IS FUCKING EATING INSIDES. couldn't take off work that day tho so am gonna be dead af after lol

shoutout to anon for putting thought of what these two would look like if they swapped bodies/age in head. fyi, in my mind Tats is with Sabi in the 4'10 club, they did not get the nutrients they needed to grow. also sou's got great cardio because he's always running from his past

not being able to do things you were looking forward to cause body refuses to sleep or wake up for no reason sucks.

hesitant to see a psych cause they'd probs put me under watch [couldn't fault them, most of time is spent thinking about dying these days]. its hard to even just talk to people cause the feeling that i'm better off dead is so loud i end up shutting down.

have spent the past few days in bed either unconscious or tired enough to be. have a messed up Sou

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curious if I've ever accidentally made people think Debris was more popular than it is. Like, "Its brought up a good bit on tumblr", "That's because some fanboy never shuts up about it."