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Rayn ✘↑18 aro/ace non binary [any pronouns]Chronicically sleep deprived + headache + BPD

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Happy Valentines Day Or Markdown Chocolate/flowers/[redacted]-eve!

Happy Valentines day or Markdown chocolate/flowers/[redacted]-eve!

Uro went crazy with discount chocolate and made herself sick heh

fyi: scheduled this cause am still too depressed to talk to people, sorz.

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gingeredmink

1 year ago

have spent the past few days in bed either unconscious or tired enough to be. have a messed up Sou

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ynfg mikan Muzou soutarou blood gore ask to tag? yume nikki fangame

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gingeredmink

1 year ago

thanks for kind messages and stuff and just being patient with my depressed ass in general. sorry for not replying, i can put scrambled thoughts down but don't know how to talk to people right now. mind just sorta blanks out

trying to be better. trying ◠⸜⸝◠｡, in own defense it'd probs help if I could do this stupid dlmo test and get anywhere with sleep specialist instead of being a zombie due to sleep issues. guess here's some humor to sorta balance out the moping around

learned recently that an easy way to play punch harmonics is to go after the bassist.

also Marshall apparently makes fridges that look like this

bet there's been at least 1 instance of a guitarist being drunk or high and spending like 10 minutes trying to figure out why it's not working.

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wip doodle

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gingeredmink

1 year ago

⺣◡⺣ + 🝦_🝦

curious if I've ever accidentally made people think Debris was more popular than it is. Like, "Its brought up a good bit on tumblr", "That's because some fanboy never shuts up about it."

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doodle tatsuki soutarou debris mikan Muzou ynfg yume nikki fangame felt well enough to finish this and not much else body is a clump of dysfunctional organs swear to god hope goofy doodle brightens your day

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gingeredmink

1 year ago

even when it's free designs it's so hard to justify sharing art when your mind is trying its best to convince you that you're just subjecting people to it and negatively effecting everyone.

probs gonna log off for a while, not handling how physically painful this is too well

Thank you to everyone that's tried to reach out.

I'm so sorry for being like this and making people worry.

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not art rayns rambling again negative ask to tag? the amount of time thats just spent curled up in bed is laughable hate how people are nothing but kind to me but it still ends like this it feels like im taking advantage of people or dont care about others efforts i genuinely appreciate how much people try to help and it truly means a lot but im awful with words so it feels like any way i show that comes off as a lie or im faking even better is feeling like i just emotionally manipulated people into feeling bad for me due to being selfish or something the fact that id rather hurt myself than bother others in the slightest probs says a lot heh feeling like you honestly dont deserve to be happy for a second is its own special kind of hell heh wouldnt wish this shit on anyone

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gingeredmink

1 year ago

venting/me being depressed

one part about withdrawing is feeling like it'd be best to just quietly disappear. don't see why anyone would ever desire to talk to me, hardly have any value as a person. it's hard to see anything in future when you're thoroughly convinced you're going to die alone and deserve it. at this point am more just breathing than living, hope for body to not wake up again every time i go to bed.

am not at risk of doing anything btw, it's more that just waiting for it to be over sorta thing i guess.

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rayns venting again ask to tag? negative thoughts sorry if this is just me droning on and sorry for constantly being so negative nowadays

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