Friend Or Family Member: Hey! Whats That Podcast You Like About Again?

Friend or family member: Hey! What’s that podcast you like about again?

Me: well, it’s simple,

thinking about mick mercury.

thinking about mick mercury watching his loved ones suffer again and again through the misery of old town. juno, sasha, probably his dad (I don't really remember the mick dad lore well), annie, benzaiten, hell. wilco., and staying flippant and silly and naive and a mess.

thinking about how we know he's not stupid, how even juno admits that.

do you think, at least partially, that some of that's a front? do you think he recognized that sasha and juno were the angry ones, and he internalized that he wasn't supposed to be?

do you think he realized that his friends were so prickly and angry that to get them to open up to him he had to be stupid? that juno wouldn't tell him what was wrong unless he got him to yell?

do you think, somewhere inside of mick, there's rage towards old town, towards mars, that he never expresses?

thinking about mick jumping in to save juno from the proctor's mannequins. how many times do you think he did that as a kid? was "stupid" enough to throw himself into a dangerous fight to protect the people he cared about?

thinking about mick watching the dark matters stream. thinking about him seeing juno pointing a gun at one of the members of his family, in the prison uniform mick helped him get into. thinking about how this time mick couldn't jump in. he couldn't stop what was happening.

and sasha wire, goading juno. trying to force him to shoot him.

thinking about mick mercury watching sasha wire force juno steel to aim a gun at someone he loved. thinking about how much mick must know about what happened to ben. thinking about how mick must know that sasha knows too.

thinking about that cup of oolong tea. do you think mick thought of it too? do you think he thought of juno trying to tell him something, looked at juno on the screen and sasha next to him, and thought of a cup of oolong tea going cold?

I'm thinking about mick mercury.

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The only live reaction from my listening to Juno Steel and the Monster's Reflection that actually matters.

I lied these also matter I am shedding soft emotional tears. Once again this detective found me at just the right time. It hit... So hard as someone recovering from depression and coming to terms with what hurt me as a kid.

peter nureyev with a cigarette habit (bows and walks off stage)

Relistening to the latest Juno’s Birthday special as a way to cope and just — I miss theeeeeeeeeemmmmm 😭😭😭 literally sobbing like Rita over here, I miss the crime familyyyyyyyy — and after the latest episode I *fEAR*—