Ho3smadd - In My Mind

LETTER TO MY CHILDHOOD ME

franz wright // richey edwards // unknown // katie maria // little women (2019) // james baldwin // unknown // siickangel (?)

this is genocide.

No because, Bruce if he got to parent baby damian (also if he used public transport godbless)

IM TIRED

I'm tired of being afraid to take up too much space in a room

I'm tired of the fact that my parents have been fighting since I was 3

I'm tired of the fact that my mom takes her anger out on me after they fight but with her words

I'm tired because I stopped receiving attention at the age of 8 and the only way I got attention was if I got good grades

I'm tired because I feel dramatic because my parents still gave me a roof over my head and clothes and almost everything I wanted

I'm tired because I worked so hard in primary school and now I'm burnt out

I'm tired of being wasted potential

I'm tired of the fact that when I was younger I wished I would get sick so they'd pay attention to me

I'm tired because my mom told me it was her big regret that she gave birth to me

I'm tired because I got diagnosed with bpd and now I think that I was dramatic about everything

I'm tired because now that I have bpd my mom uses it as an excuse for everything

I'm tired because I struggled with binge eating then bulimia and it's a constant cycle between the 2

I'm tired because I've been on antidepressants since I was 11

I'm tired because my older sisters have no interest in me or my life and they never seem to want to spend time with me

I'm tired because I seem to be losing all my friends

I'm tired because I feel too much for my boyfriend and he's so patient with me

I'm tired because I cry everytime my best friend cancels plans with me because I feel like she wants to leave too

I'm tired because I'm only 16 and I won't ever feel good enough

Im tired because I need validation from people because I don't get it from my family

I'm tired of being called too much or not enough and I can never seem to find the right balance

I'm just tired of life I don't want to be here anymore

Die for you

Paring:xavier thorpe x reader

Warning:tw mentions of bruises and swearing

Summary: y/n and xavier haves always hated each other, always competing in school and in art but what happens when a normie hurts his rival

For years the was a rivalry between xavier thorpe and y/n l/n. No one knew why or how the rivalry began but maybe it best not to

A screaming match took place in the quad, though no one even batted an eye at argument. See the students of nevermore all were used to this. Many screaming matches happened in the quad but only with the same 2 people

It would always end the same way too,with xavier and y/n storming off in the other direction and today was no different

Both going in opposite directions to avoid each other

Y/n needed to get as far away from xavier thorpe as possible. The boy was completely infuriating, with his stupid perfect face and his obnoxiously soft hair.... she hated everything about him

The girl entered the Weathervane Cafe and took the booth in farthest corner of the coffee shop after ordering her usual coffee and brownie

Mindlessly scrolling through tiktok when a hand slammed onto the table. She looked up to see 3 normie bullies

"Can I help you?" Y/n asked the boys in front of her, clearly unamused

"Yes actually" one of the boys grabbed her while the others helped drag her to their school to send a message to nevermore

Xavier could barely calm himself. He knew he couldn't carry on like this any longer. It hurt more than anything,pretending like he didn't care at all, as if it wasn't killing him. He made up his mind, he needed to find you

Xavier had been searching the school for you for hours almost giving up, when he saw a figure limping at the entrance of the school

It was her. The girl he'd just spent hours looking for except she had bruises all over her body and looked as if she'd fall over at any given moment.

Xavier ran towards her, stopping in front of her "who did this to you?"

Y/n scoffed,after hours of torture she didn't need more pain "it doesn't matter"

"of course it matters, someone hurt you" xavier sighed frustrated

"Why do you care if I'm hurt , it doesn't make a difference to your life " y/n tried to walk away but winced from pain

"BECAUSE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU." xavier yelled out finally having reached his tipping point

Y/n froze in her place "don't be mean , please I'll take any other games just not this. I'm begging you xavier "

The boy hesitated but stepped towards her "I'd never be that cruel. I'm tired of lying to myself and to you. I've been in love with you since you got to nevermore and I got scared so I decided to pretend that I hated you. It was easier that way."

The girl's eyes welled up with tears "we are such dumbasses , I pretend to hate you but I never could."

Xavier didn't say anything but interlocked their hands and took her to the nurse , staying by her side the whole time until she fell asleep

Then only did he go to town with ajax and hurt the people who hurt his girl and when she woke up he was by her side again

"Xavier did you mean what you said?" The girl looked at him with hope

"I meant every word. I love you y/n-

He was interrupted as the girl pressed her lips to his and pulled him into a passionate kiss

Hi guys I'd really love if you request <3