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"forgive me...memory is a rope round my neck"
“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”
― Jamie Anderson
i can't breathe when i think about it too much.
Mahmoud Darwish, Memory for Forgetfulness / unknown / F. Scott Fitzgerald, Benediction / Taylor Swift, exile / @/free-my-mindd / Zhenya Katava & Neus Bermejo / unknown / Blythe Baird, If My Body Could Speak / C.C.Aurel / Florence + The Machine, I'm Not Calling You A Liar
𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐄 - 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐖𝐎
𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 - Lando Norris x Actress!Reader (Enemies to Lovers & Fake Dating AU) 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 - Lando Norris really messed up on the first time meeting one of Hollywood's newest and hottest stars, Y/N L/N. But when his reputation gets too bad, she might be the only one who can save his career from being completely doomed. 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 - 2.8K | 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - Swearing and suggestive comments 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 - Surprise, early chapter on the table! Thank you so much for the incredible response on the first chapter, it meant a lot to me! This one is just full on banter and a little bit of hope for a future couple. Hope you enjoy it!
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𝐓𝐖𝐎 - 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄 & 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐃
Even after an entire year knowing Y/N, Lando had never got the chance to see the personal side of her life. He didn’t know any of her friends, what were her hobbies, or what made her laugh. That’s why he got nervous when she invited him to her house to discuss a few agreements for their “role play”. This time without their agents or anyone on their team to intervene.
They agreed on meeting earlier before their first outing as a couple. There were still a few days left until the Miami GP, and he was spending some of his time in England, where he not only discussed the strategies for the next race, but also planned the beginning of this whole fake dating thing. They agreed to have their first outing on the mall, where they could act casual and cute, while also being seen by a lot of people.
“It will be fine”, Lando thought before knocking on the door right in front of him. She lived in an amazing house in Hampstead, with brown brick walls and a beautiful black fence at the entrance. From his point of view on the outside, it had everything to be an ordinary English house. But he was surprised by all the colours his eyes met when she opened the door, still wearing just her robe.
“Sorry, I’m late. Just finishing the hair, and I'll slip into my clothes really quick”, Y/N opened the door wider, inviting Lando to come in. “Make yourself at home, if you want water, there are bottles in the fridge”, she disappeared into the second floor of the house, leaving him all alone in the living room.
Lando would take this to the grave, but he found it adorable that her house was filled with photographs of her and the people she liked. He loved the books filling her shelves and the plants that brought life to the place. He also loved the colourful furniture and the amazing prints she had hanging on the wall. All of those things together made it feel like a real cosy house, not just a fancy place where a celebrity would live.
“Alright, I’m all done”, Y/N caught him looking at a magazine, where she starred on the cover, just sitting on top of her coffee table. Lando looked at her, who was standing by the stair, and arched his eyebrows.
“Hello to you too”, he leaned back into his seat, taking in the outfit she picked for a simple walk around the mall. Tailored trousers, comfy sneakers, a plain white shirt and a trench coat. Very Londoner and perfect for the terrible weather outside.
“Sorry, I've been a mess from the moment I woke up this morning”, Y/N tried going around the house, putting things out of place in order, while ignoring Lando’s bored staring. “I asked you here because we need to make some rules before starting this… whatever it is they are calling our acquaintance now”.
“Fake dating”, he recalled and she sighed, taking a seat next to him on the couch. Lando was annoyed that she didn't even say hello to him, but chose to ignore that detail.
“That…”, she agreed with a nod. “So, unfortunately we're going to be spending a lot of time together, so you cannot be late to our encounters because I hate it”.
“You're literally late right now, Y/N”, Lando started, but she cut him in the middle.
“This was just an unfortunate eventful occasion, Norris. But I know for sure you're always late for social events”, she crossed her arms and smirked. “After all, our agent complains a lot about it”.
“You're making me regret this decision”, Lando had to take a deep breath and massage his temple in order not to lose it. “Anything else?”
“PDA is required to make it all work, but you're forbidden of kissing me without asking for permission first”, she stated, making him chuckle with the rule. “What is so funny?”
“Are you joking? What kind of relationship does one have to ask their partner if they can kiss them all the time?”, he asks. “This is a shitty rule”.
“Well, you’re not actually my partner, Norris. You can't just cross my boundaries like that”, she resisted, making Lando roll his eyes.
“As a fair warning, I'm not following this rule”, he said.
“And you can't touch my ass under any circumstances”, she shouted.
“Oh my God, is there something I can do in this relationship?”, he asked. “No kissing without permission, no being late and no fun with your ass”.
“You can pamper me as long as you want”, she winked, making him giggle. “Like, I would really love a McLaren sports car, so maybe you can give me one”.
“Nice try”, he fake a smile. “Alright, I have rules too, okay?”
“Shoot me”.
“You can't be seen with anyone else while we're doing this bit”, he said, making her chuckle loudly. “Idiot”.
“That rule would be better applied to you, don you think?”
“Well, I've seen your agitated dating life, Y/N. You're not far behind me”, he smirked. “And I will not be the guy who got cheated on”.
“Same to you, dickhead”, she stated. “This cannot go wrong”.
“Agree”, he said before stating his final rule. “And most importantly, you can't fall in love with me”.
Y/N wanted to die with his words and the smirk stamped on his face. God, he is absolutely insufferable. But instead of bursting out the anger, she forced a smile.
“Don't worry about it darling. That shall be the easiest rule in this agreement”.
On their way to the mall, they set their stories straight of how they ended up together. They knew there would be questions, and keeping this fake relationship a secret from the people close to them was the key to make sure everything actually falls in order. So, for the people close to them and who knew about their feud, they would tell that all the anger was just sexual tension and, in time they fell for each other. But for the media and the public, they met on events they attended together and started going out after a while. It was an easy and very believable story. They would just have to make sure their acting was on point in order to make everyone believe them.
Lando started their pretend quite nicely by opening the car door for her and helping her out. Y/N was impressed with his action; no boy has ever opened a car door for her on a date before. It felt shitty to know that a fake boyfriend, someone she absolutely hated, was being better than any other guy she went out with recently. But God, it was annoying to have to walk around the mall with his arm thrown over her shoulder. She definitely wasn’t the clingy type, specially when having to stay too close with someone she despises.
“Your arm is weighting on my shoulders. It's annoying”, she muttered, making him fight every urge to roll his eyes.
“Couples hug, Y/N”.
“Couples also hold hands and don’t give each other stiff necks”, she grunted, making Lando reluctantly take his arm off her and wrap their fingers together.
“You're insufferable”, he forced a smile and Y/N chose to ignore it. If they kept provoking each other, everything would go so wrong.
“Where do you want to go first?”, she asked, ignoring his insult. But Lando was already distracted by a gaming store and all their cool headsets. “Lando, you have to at least pretend that you're on a date with me”.
He turned around and frowned at her. “Since when do you call me Lando?”
“Since we are pretending to be in love, idiot”, she had to fight the urge not to roll her eyes and force a sympathetic smile, so it would just look like friendly banter.
“I did nothing wrong”, he turned back to the headsets and smirked. “But where would you want to go, darling?”
“For ice cream, maybe?”, she shrugged. “We can get ice cream and walk around the stores looking cute”.
“God, you really are going to drag me everywhere with you, right?”
“That's what girlfriends do”, she smiled cynically and pulled him to the ice cream shop.
That was the first time that day they were recognized. A group of girls sitting in the corner of the shop widened their eyes at the sight, and the whispers started almost immediately when they dropped their gaze to their hands laced together.
Lando noticed it first; so when they stood in line, he pressed a kiss to the crown of her head, making her frown at him. Then, on the corner of her eye, she noticed the girls. Before Y/N could speak, he pressed a quick peck on her lips, taking her by surprise.
“I told you to ask for permission”, she complained, their faces still too close to each other.
“Shut the fuck up”, he kissed her again, this time taking a little bit longer. They heard the whispers getting more excited, so they went along with it. The kiss was only broken apart when they noticed that it was almost their turn to order. So Lando pulled her closer by the waist and hugged her, a hand resting on her hips.
“You've already broken two rules”, she whispered in his ear, tapping his hand on her hips.
“They are not on your ass”, he smirked before taking a step forward to make the order.
Hopefully, their little act was worthy. If they were lucky, the group of girls had a big phone in their hands and absolutely no respect for their privacy in order to take a photo. Soon, there would probably be a picture of them kissing all over the internet, meaning that their job was done.
With their ice cream in hand, they were off to walk around the mall. Y/N tried to maintain conversation with Lando, who seemed to be drifting off anywhere else besides their conversation. She would ask him a question and he would be spaced out for most of the time. Then she would give up and go back to look around the place, trying to find something to distract herself.
“I'm going to go see a couple of things in Louis Vuitton”, she pulled him by the hand, making Lando sigh.
“You're just going to spend hours in there looking at bags”, he groaned, but she tugged at his jacket and pulled him inside the store.
“And you're going to be a good boyfriend and stay here for all of it”, she smiled cynically at him, getting too tired of him not cooperating with the act. It was for his career, for fuck’s sake! She was only there because he's a dickhead.
That was the second time they got recognized by more people. A couple was also shopping at the store and the boyfriend noticed Lando. He soon approached them, asking for a picture with the driver. They posed for a picture, taken by the girlfriend, who frowned at Y/N once she lowered her phone.
“Aren’t you Y/N Y/L/N?”, the girl asked, making Y/N smile and nod. Then she tapped her boyfriend in the shoulder, making him look at his back. “From that show we were watching, darling”.
“Oh, yes! It's absolutely amazing, by the way”, the man said, making Y/N’s cheeks heat up at the affirmation.
“Thank you. I really appreciate it”, she smiled at them, dropping the bags she was looking at to make small conversation with the couple.
“Are you two together?”, the girl asked and Lando took a hold on Y/N’s hand, opening a smile on his face.
“Just recently got this pretty girl on my hook”, he joked, making the couple laugh.
“Nice, you make a cute couple”, the girl complimented before asking for a picture with Y/N. Then they said their goodbyes, moving onto looking at some more clothes at the store.
Lando approached Y/N, who was now back on looking at bags. He got close to her ear and laughed. “Mission accomplished”, he said.
“So we can leave soon, right?”, she asked, already tired of pretending this was an interesting date. “Come on, you’re not even trying to pretend you’re a good boyfriend. You haven't talked to me all day. If you’re gonna put up with an act, then at least pretend you’re interested in me”.
The words were like a bullet to his heart, but Lando took it. So this time, while she looked at bags, he at least pretended to be interested in her choices. Then, when she finally found one she liked, he promptly pulled his card to pay for it.
“My treat”, he said, taking her out of the way from the register, just to pay for her bag and a perfume for himself.
“Thank you, love”, she went along with the act and waited for him in the back. Lando had finally shifted his manner with the girl.
After they left the store, it was completely different from it was before. He carried her shopping bag and pointed out cute outfits for her to try on. Lando was even smiling, instead of looking bored as hell. A brand-new man. A good “boyfriend”.
As their day was coming to an end, Lando had a few shopping bags in his hands and they were growing tired of walking around. With their shift in the mood, it was actually pleasing to stay a while longer, to the point when they got hungry after their activity.
“We could drag out this date if you want it”, he suggested. “I know a place in Soho we can go to”.
“Yeah, that would be nice, I think”, she agreed, not thinking about how tired she felt. Y/N was starving to the point of not thinking straight.
So they walked together to the car and she decided to bring up his mood shift. “Thank you for trying to make this work. I appreciate that you listened to me”.
“Don’t get too excited. I still can’t stand you”. And just like that, he broke every hope Y/N had of Lando actually being a nice person. The mood immediately shifted again, and now she didn’t want to spend another couple of hours with him anymore.
So when they got back in the car, she told him she wanted to go home. “My head is about to burst, so I think I'll just order some pizza. Our stunt for the day is done, anyway”. And Lando obeyed without questioning.
Y/N said just a quick goodbye and a thank you before rushing into her house, all the shopping bags in hand and a few droplets of rain falling over her trench coat. After closing the door, she slid all the way to the floor and a few stubborn tears fell down. She didn’t know why she was crying but it had been a hard day. So many emotions, all of her energy being drained, all of that to have to listen to someone call you insufferable.
“Calm the fuck down, Y/N. This isn’t forever”, she said to herself, before getting back to her feet. Soon she would be free, and she could forget this so-called “relationship”
Recomposing herself, she managed to order some food, take a shower and get distracted by a comedy show while chilling in front of her TV. It was fine to the point where she forgot the day she just had. Until her phone lit up with two notifications from an unknown number. A winky emoji and a link to an Instagram page.
f1gossippage
f1gossippage Look like love’s in the air for Lando Norris! The McLaren driver was seen on a date with the HBO actress Y/N Y/L/N this afternoon. The couple was out shopping in London and shared a lot of cute moments with each other. A few people saw them kissing on the line to get ice cream and holding hands while walking. Lando even carried all of her shopping bags! How cute are them?
username1 OMG, worlds collide!!! I would never in a million years imagine my two favourites dating each other username2 The way she grabs his face... THEY ARE SO CUTE! username3 Looks like a certain someone finally decided to step out of the party life and become a man. ↪ username 4 With his history with girls, I don’t think this is actually a solid relationship. username5 She’s so beautiful! Lando definitely has good taste
Y/N dropped her phone to her lap at the sight of the pictures. There was no backing out now that there were photos of them together. She was officially Lando Norris’ allegedly new girlfriend. May God help her.
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One day
She'd been friends with him for years now, you'd think eventually the silly infatuation with him would have gone away by now....but no he was still the only person that always made her feel like her 13 year old self, like sometimes her brain couldn't form thoughts when he was around because all she would do was blush.
13
She'd just gotten a phone and it seemed like finally everything was going right for her
One day after school she saw that he added her as a friend and her heart filled with childish hope and thus began their friendship
As a 13 year old girl who was friends with the boy she liked, she tended to see signs where they weren't any and eventually she convinced herself that maybe he liked her too ....
That wasn't the case but she didn't feel all to bad , I mean he hadn't made fun of her or treated her differently and weirdly that's what grew them closer as friends
14
She was entering high school and she had a new crush on another family friend and she didn't think of him all that often
He messaged her about his sister's wedding in a month "if they tell me to go sit next to my girlfriend, I'll come sit next to you" she rolled her eyes knowing that if it came down to it he'd do it just to piss her off. He took so much joy in irritating her
On the same day the other guy asked her out and she said yes
When he asked her what's new in her life she told him and he didn't speak to her til November except for the happy birthday message she got in June
Sometimes she thought maybe he's jealous or maybe he just doesn't want to talk to me
As soon as he knew they broke up he started speaking to her again
15
As the years went on their friendship grew and grew but for some reason it didn't feel like a normal friendship
She was friends with other boys but things just felt different with him. All her friends would tell her "he likes you and you are just blind" she considered it but she was scared to get her hopes up again
They would speak from when the woke up til they went to bed. He knew things about her that nobody else ever did.
She was the hopeless romantic type with her head always stuck in books and he hated books with a passion but whenever she'd read a new book he'd want to know all about it and eventually he started forcing her to read the books to him before bed
Before her birthday people would ask her to send pictures of herself so they could post her and she was complaining because 1 girl made her send 51 pictures of herself and for some reason he was upset because she only sent him 1 picture , so she sent all 51 pictures to him as well. He created an album in his gallery for her
Eventually he ditched the excuse and of it only being for her birthday and would just tell her the folder needed to be updated.... he continued to update the folder for 2 years
16
In the beginning of the year she lost some of her closest friends because they were being horrible and she broke up with the guy she was dating and she felt alone
He was there for her , he listened to her cry and overthink and feel bad about herself and he would always try and make her feel better even though according to him he hated seeing her like this and he hated that she'd pick people who would treat her horribly
And so they became closer than they ever had been before
He started telling her when he was upset and when he was feeling down which he never did before
She'd let him help her pick her outfits and her hair and get excited to tell him about her day and all her stories
And after November exams it changed even more he had been subtly flirting with her for years and then all of a sudden it wasn't so subtle
He'd confuse her and contradict himself
One day he'd tell her to give another guy a chance and the next he'd tell her to stop talking to the other guy because he could give her more butterflies then that guy ever could
And then at a get together the two of them stayed up while everyone else went to bed and spent the night talking and that's when he knew that he'd been blind for so many years and she's was always there
And the friendship officially became more after all the pining and waiting but it still felt like their friendship which forced them to realize that maybe they were never just friends maybe they were always more
And the two of them were so happy together so blissful but when you are that happy things always go wrong
First her grandmother was admitted into hospital and then he broke up with her out of nowhere for no reason
And then he on Valentines day he called her
He said he really needed to speak to her and they did but she didn't know that would be the last time she spoke to him ever again...
That Saturday her world came crashing down and she would never be able to see him again or speak to him
Who would argue with her for hours over nothing and make fun of her and be there for her
Who would listen to her stories about nothing and be interested in them
Who would she have left
She didn't realize how much he meant to her and how much he was in her life til she was sitting and crying while doing bio homework because he used to tease her for finding it hard
She didn't realize how many stories she had to tell and she couldn't tell them to him anymore
She felt empty and broken and alone and everyone was telling her at least you weren't together for years and at least it wasn't serious but she still felt it all the same
He meant the world to her, she didn't Just lose the guy she loved , she lost her best friend and she was never gonna get the happy ending she'd been dreaming about forever because if it wasn't with him she didn't want it to be with anyone else
She was used to being the younger one but as soon as she turned 17 she'd always be older
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Ik my writing isn't the best and I suck at it but I just wanted to get my life off my chest
this is genocide.
palestine is in a complete and utter blackout with israel launching hundreds of its heaviest airstrikes so far across gaza. this is a mass slaughter and we won't even know the extent of the casualties until it's over; israel have cut off telecommunications so they can commit their atrocities in the dark. there is a genocide happening right in front of our eyes and every person who has ever defended israel's "right to defend itself" has the blood of palestinians on their hands. we cannot ignore what is one of the most devastating massacres in human history.
What's the point of the un, the geneva conventions, international law, etc if we see a genocide happening in front of our eyes but nothing is done to stop it.
this body is not a home
jody chan sick (via @geryone) \ edward hopper interior, model reading (1925) \ olivia laing the lonely city (via @soracities) \ joan didion on self-respect (via @girlfictions) \ dion palinckx (2019) \ james tate selected poems (via @heartshop) \ @artofbrianluong \ olivia laing the lonely city (via @soracities) \ edvard munch self-portrait in hell
shout me a chai latte
IM TIRED
I'm tired of being afraid to take up too much space in a room
I'm tired of the fact that my parents have been fighting since I was 3
I'm tired of the fact that my mom takes her anger out on me after they fight but with her words
I'm tired because I stopped receiving attention at the age of 8 and the only way I got attention was if I got good grades
I'm tired because I feel dramatic because my parents still gave me a roof over my head and clothes and almost everything I wanted
I'm tired because I worked so hard in primary school and now I'm burnt out
I'm tired of being wasted potential
I'm tired of the fact that when I was younger I wished I would get sick so they'd pay attention to me
I'm tired because my mom told me it was her big regret that she gave birth to me
I'm tired because I got diagnosed with bpd and now I think that I was dramatic about everything
I'm tired because now that I have bpd my mom uses it as an excuse for everything
I'm tired because I struggled with binge eating then bulimia and it's a constant cycle between the 2
I'm tired because I've been on antidepressants since I was 11
I'm tired because my older sisters have no interest in me or my life and they never seem to want to spend time with me
I'm tired because I seem to be losing all my friends
I'm tired because I feel too much for my boyfriend and he's so patient with me
I'm tired because I cry everytime my best friend cancels plans with me because I feel like she wants to leave too
I'm tired because I'm only 16 and I won't ever feel good enough
Im tired because I need validation from people because I don't get it from my family
I'm tired of being called too much or not enough and I can never seem to find the right balance
I'm just tired of life I don't want to be here anymore
- on mothers
lady bird/ @death-born-aphrodite/ everything, everywhere, all at once/ rupi kaur/ unknown/ maia baia/ your best american girl- mitski/ lady bird/ unknown/ @inkskinned
I’ve never seen anything like the press conference from the Palestinian workers at Al-Ahli Baptist Hospital in Gaza. They’re literally addressing the world surrounded by bodies on the ground. One is holding the corpse of a baby. I hope these images haunt every Zionist till the day they die.
LETTER TO MY CHILDHOOD ME
franz wright // richey edwards // unknown // katie maria // little women (2019) // james baldwin // unknown // siickangel (?)
miss americana & the heartbreak prince masterlist
charles leclerc x female oc —what's the point of it all if you're not going to fall madly in into love?
—00. edits, graphics & other propaganda
playlist social media au teaser orange show speedway hey google, who is christyn elliott? like real people do do the girls back home touch you like I do?
—01. all american girl
"“Because.” He doesn’t really know why he can’t land on a message, why everything he types sounds entirely too casual or formal or nothing at all like what he would say to another human being. This isn’t a problem that he’s used to having. It’s the in-person flirting that fucks him up, not the texts and DMs and comments. She was just… he doesn’t know what she was. She was just. End of sentence."
—02. over the ocean call
"Chris has one student, Quinn, whose family can’t afford reduced lunch prices but also won’t request for Quinn to qualify for the free lunch. She thinks it’s an ego thing, that Quinn’s mom just isn’t able to accept that the family needs help. It’s a single parent household and the mom works two full-time jobs to try and make ends meet. After a newsletter was sent home in need of parent signatures at the beginning of the year and returned with Mama written in sloppy green crayon, Chris learned that Quinn was living a relatively self-sufficient life. As self-sufficient as a five-year-old can be."
—03. i think i fell in love today
"If there wasn’t something weird in the air before, there certainly is now. A new weird. A good weird. An implication of something in the air, weird. It’s out there now, just hanging above them. I want to kiss you. You can kiss me. Now all that’s left is for one of them to make the move."
—04. every finger, every sigh
"She can feel eyes on her. Charles, she hopes. Charles, she can’t find in the chaos. When she does spot him, half-dead sparkler still in his hand, head drunkenly bobbing along to the beat, he’s looking right at her, grins a stupid grin and winks."
—05. monte carlo ave
He shakes his head. “You don’t understand.” She can’t possibly understand it because he doesn’t even properly understand it, the way he feels about her. The fear he feels about losing all the indecipherable feelings. It’s just good, everything about her, about being near her. It’s all so sweet and nice and good and he really, really doesn’t want to screw it up.
—06. quarter of the way
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—07. homegrown
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—08. it's so sweet
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—09. sweet nothing
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—10. i saw the end
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—11. the bees envy me
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—12. if i tremble
coming soon
—13. see the world
coming soon
—14. yours to keep
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—15. yours to lose
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—16. the view between villages
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—17. heaven in your eyes
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—epilogue. for the worms to eat
coming soon
im so delusional because i havent given up on dair endgame
I don't know what to write because all of my requests were about xavier and we don't like him anymore
getting into the lower formula series was a mistake i am now in love with all of the drivers but also a lot of them are close in age to me so unlike f1 drivers i can't write them off as unattainable
if you’re like me and you only watch f1 for free, here are some free sites you can watch it live at:
sportshub.stream - this is my personal favorite
totalsportek.pro
sportsurge.club
thehomesport.net
weakstream.org
there are also free apps you can watch it in:
Live player
strym tv - you need a code to watch in this app so you just press the + sign on the upper left corner, choose “Import playlist from URL” and paste this url http: //movitv. pro just remove the spaces
all of these have ads and if you have access to VPN, you might want to use it but i’ve tried all these links and app last season and hadn’t gotten a virus.
No because, Bruce if he got to parent baby damian (also if he used public transport godbless)
Die for you
Paring:xavier thorpe x reader
Warning:tw mentions of bruises and swearing
Summary: y/n and xavier haves always hated each other, always competing in school and in art but what happens when a normie hurts his rival
For years the was a rivalry between xavier thorpe and y/n l/n. No one knew why or how the rivalry began but maybe it best not to
A screaming match took place in the quad, though no one even batted an eye at argument. See the students of nevermore all were used to this. Many screaming matches happened in the quad but only with the same 2 people
It would always end the same way too,with xavier and y/n storming off in the other direction and today was no different
Both going in opposite directions to avoid each other
Y/n needed to get as far away from xavier thorpe as possible. The boy was completely infuriating, with his stupid perfect face and his obnoxiously soft hair.... she hated everything about him
The girl entered the Weathervane Cafe and took the booth in farthest corner of the coffee shop after ordering her usual coffee and brownie
Mindlessly scrolling through tiktok when a hand slammed onto the table. She looked up to see 3 normie bullies
"Can I help you?" Y/n asked the boys in front of her, clearly unamused
"Yes actually" one of the boys grabbed her while the others helped drag her to their school to send a message to nevermore
Xavier could barely calm himself. He knew he couldn't carry on like this any longer. It hurt more than anything,pretending like he didn't care at all, as if it wasn't killing him. He made up his mind, he needed to find you
Xavier had been searching the school for you for hours almost giving up, when he saw a figure limping at the entrance of the school
It was her. The girl he'd just spent hours looking for except she had bruises all over her body and looked as if she'd fall over at any given moment.
Xavier ran towards her, stopping in front of her "who did this to you?"
Y/n scoffed,after hours of torture she didn't need more pain "it doesn't matter"
"of course it matters, someone hurt you" xavier sighed frustrated
"Why do you care if I'm hurt , it doesn't make a difference to your life " y/n tried to walk away but winced from pain
"BECAUSE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU." xavier yelled out finally having reached his tipping point
Y/n froze in her place "don't be mean , please I'll take any other games just not this. I'm begging you xavier "
The boy hesitated but stepped towards her "I'd never be that cruel. I'm tired of lying to myself and to you. I've been in love with you since you got to nevermore and I got scared so I decided to pretend that I hated you. It was easier that way."
The girl's eyes welled up with tears "we are such dumbasses , I pretend to hate you but I never could."
Xavier didn't say anything but interlocked their hands and took her to the nurse , staying by her side the whole time until she fell asleep
Then only did he go to town with ajax and hurt the people who hurt his girl and when she woke up he was by her side again
"Xavier did you mean what you said?" The girl looked at him with hope
"I meant every word. I love you y/n-
He was interrupted as the girl pressed her lips to his and pulled him into a passionate kiss
Hi guys I'd really love if you request <3