I Wish I Belonged Somewhere

I wish I belonged somewhere

I wish I belonged with someone

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palestine is in a complete and utter blackout with israel launching hundreds of its heaviest airstrikes so far across gaza. this is a mass slaughter and we won't even know the extent of the casualties until it's over; israel have cut off telecommunications so they can commit their atrocities in the dark. there is a genocide happening right in front of our eyes and every person who has ever defended israel's "right to defend itself" has the blood of palestinians on their hands. we cannot ignore what is one of the most devastating massacres in human history.

“Grief, I’ve learned, is really just love. It’s all the love you want to give, but cannot. All that unspent love gathers up in the corners of your eyes, the lump in your throat, and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go.”

― Jamie Anderson

𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐄 - 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐖𝐎

𝐏𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 - Lando Norris x Actress!Reader (Enemies to Lovers & Fake Dating AU) 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘 - Lando Norris really messed up on the first time meeting one of Hollywood's newest and hottest stars, Y/N L/N. But when his reputation gets too bad, she might be the only one who can save his career from being completely doomed. 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 - 2.8K | 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 - Swearing and suggestive comments 𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 - Surprise, early chapter on the table! Thank you so much for the incredible response on the first chapter, it meant a lot to me! This one is just full on banter and a little bit of hope for a future couple. Hope you enjoy it!

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𝐓𝐖𝐎 - 𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄 & 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐃

Even after an entire year knowing Y/N, Lando had never got the chance to see the personal side of her life. He didn’t know any of her friends, what were her hobbies, or what made her laugh. That’s why he got nervous when she invited him to her house to discuss a few agreements for their “role play”. This time without their agents or anyone on their team to intervene. 

They agreed on meeting earlier before their first outing as a couple. There were still a few days left until the Miami GP, and he was spending some of his time in England, where he not only discussed the strategies for the next race, but also planned the beginning of this whole fake dating thing. They agreed to have their first outing on the mall, where they could act casual and cute, while also being seen by a lot of people. 

“It will be fine”, Lando thought before knocking on the door right in front of him. She lived in an amazing house in Hampstead, with brown brick walls and a beautiful black fence at the entrance. From his point of view on the outside, it had everything to be an ordinary English house. But he was surprised by all the colours his eyes met when she opened the door, still wearing just her robe.

“Sorry, I’m late. Just finishing the hair, and I'll slip into my clothes really quick”, Y/N opened the door wider, inviting Lando to come in. “Make yourself at home, if you want water, there are bottles in the fridge”, she disappeared into the second floor of the house, leaving him all alone in the living room.

Lando would take this to the grave, but he found it adorable that her house was filled with photographs of her and the people she liked. He loved the books filling her shelves and the plants that brought life to the place. He also loved the colourful furniture and the amazing prints she had hanging on the wall. All of those things together made it feel like a real cosy house, not just a fancy place where a celebrity would live.

“Alright, I’m all done”, Y/N caught him looking at a magazine, where she starred on the cover, just sitting on top of her coffee table. Lando looked at her, who was standing by the stair, and arched his eyebrows.

“Hello to you too”, he leaned back into his seat, taking in the outfit she picked for a simple walk around the mall. Tailored trousers, comfy sneakers, a plain white shirt and a trench coat. Very Londoner and perfect for the terrible weather outside.

“Sorry, I've been a mess from the moment I woke up this morning”, Y/N tried going around the house, putting things out of place in order, while ignoring Lando’s bored staring. “I asked you here because we need to make some rules before starting this… whatever it is they are calling our acquaintance now”.

“Fake dating”, he recalled and she sighed, taking a seat next to him on the couch. Lando was annoyed that she didn't even say hello to him, but chose to ignore that detail. 

“That…”, she agreed with a nod. “So, unfortunately we're going to be spending a lot of time together, so you cannot be late to our encounters because I hate it”.

“You're literally late right now, Y/N”, Lando started, but she cut him in the middle.

“This was just an unfortunate eventful occasion, Norris. But I know for sure you're always late for social events”, she crossed her arms and smirked. “After all, our agent complains a lot about it”.

“You're making me regret this decision”, Lando had to take a deep breath and massage his temple in order not to lose it. “Anything else?”

“PDA is required to make it all work, but you're forbidden of kissing me without asking for permission first”, she stated, making him chuckle with the rule. “What is so funny?”

“Are you joking? What kind of relationship does one have to ask their partner if they can kiss them all the time?”, he asks. “This is a shitty rule”.

“Well, you’re not actually my partner, Norris. You can't just cross my boundaries like that”, she resisted, making Lando roll his eyes.

“As a fair warning, I'm not following this rule”, he said. 

“And you can't touch my ass under any circumstances”, she shouted.

“Oh my God, is there something I can do in this relationship?”, he asked. “No kissing without permission, no being late and no fun with your ass”.

“You can pamper me as long as you want”, she winked, making him giggle. “Like, I would really love a McLaren sports car, so maybe you can give me one”.

“Nice try”, he fake a smile. “Alright, I have rules too, okay?”

“Shoot me”.

“You can't be seen with anyone else while we're doing this bit”, he said, making her chuckle loudly. “Idiot”.

“That rule would be better applied to you, don you think?”

“Well, I've seen your agitated dating life, Y/N. You're not far behind me”, he smirked. “And I will not be the guy who got cheated on”.

“Same to you, dickhead”, she stated. “This cannot go wrong”.

“Agree”, he said before stating his final rule. “And most importantly, you can't fall in love with me”.

Y/N wanted to die with his words and the smirk stamped on his face. God, he is absolutely insufferable. But instead of bursting out the anger, she forced a smile.

“Don't worry about it darling. That shall be the easiest rule in this agreement”.

On their way to the mall, they set their stories straight of how they ended up together. They knew there would be questions, and keeping this fake relationship a secret from the people close to them was the key to make sure everything actually falls in order. So, for the people close to them and who knew about their feud, they would tell that all the anger was just sexual tension and, in time they fell for each other. But for the media and the public, they met on events they attended together and started going out after a while. It was an easy and very believable story. They would just have to make sure their acting was on point in order to make everyone believe them.

Lando started their pretend quite nicely by opening the car door for her and helping her out. Y/N was impressed with his action; no boy has ever opened a car door for her on a date before. It felt shitty to know that a fake boyfriend, someone she absolutely hated, was being better than any other guy she went out with recently. But God, it was annoying to have to walk around the mall with his arm thrown over her shoulder. She definitely wasn’t the clingy type, specially when having to stay too close with someone she despises.

“Your arm is weighting on my shoulders. It's annoying”, she muttered, making him fight every urge to roll his eyes.

“Couples hug, Y/N”.

“Couples also hold hands and don’t give each other stiff necks”, she grunted, making Lando reluctantly take his arm off her and wrap their fingers together.

“You're insufferable”, he forced a smile and Y/N chose to ignore it. If they kept provoking each other, everything would go so wrong.

“Where do you want to go first?”, she asked, ignoring his insult. But Lando was already distracted by a gaming store and all their cool headsets. “Lando, you have to at least pretend that you're on a date with me”.

He turned around and frowned at her. “Since when do you call me Lando?”

“Since we are pretending to be in love, idiot”, she had to fight the urge not to roll her eyes and force a sympathetic smile, so it would just look like friendly banter.

“I did nothing wrong”, he turned back to the headsets and smirked. “But where would you want to go, darling?”

“For ice cream, maybe?”, she shrugged. “We can get ice cream and walk around the stores looking cute”.

“God, you really are going to drag me everywhere with you, right?”

“That's what girlfriends do”, she smiled cynically and pulled him to the ice cream shop.

That was the first time that day they were recognized. A group of girls sitting in the corner of the shop widened their eyes at the sight, and the whispers started almost immediately when they dropped their gaze to their hands laced together.

Lando noticed it first; so when they stood in line, he pressed a kiss to the crown of her head, making her frown at him. Then, on the corner of her eye, she noticed the girls. Before Y/N could speak, he pressed a quick peck on her lips, taking her by surprise.

“I told you to ask for permission”, she complained, their faces still too close to each other.

“Shut the fuck up”, he kissed her again, this time taking a little bit longer. They heard the whispers getting more excited, so they went along with it. The kiss was only broken apart when they noticed that it was almost their turn to order. So Lando pulled her closer by the waist and hugged her, a hand resting on her hips.

“You've already broken two rules”, she whispered in his ear, tapping his hand on her hips.

“They are not on your ass”, he smirked before taking a step forward to make the order.

Hopefully, their little act was worthy. If they were lucky, the group of girls had a big phone in their hands and absolutely no respect for their privacy in order to take a photo. Soon, there would probably be a picture of them kissing all over the internet, meaning that their job was done.

With their ice cream in hand, they were off to walk around the mall. Y/N tried to maintain conversation with Lando, who seemed to be drifting off anywhere else besides their conversation. She would ask him a question and he would be spaced out for most of the time. Then she would give up and go back to look around the place, trying to find something to distract herself.

“I'm going to go see a couple of things in Louis Vuitton”, she pulled him by the hand, making Lando sigh. 

“You're just going to spend hours in there looking at bags”, he groaned, but she tugged at his jacket and pulled him inside the store.

“And you're going to be a good boyfriend and stay here for all of it”, she smiled cynically at him, getting too tired of him not cooperating with the act. It was for his career, for fuck’s sake! She was only there because he's a dickhead.

That was the second time they got recognized by more people. A couple was also shopping at the store and the boyfriend noticed Lando. He soon approached  them, asking for a picture with the driver. They posed for a picture, taken by the girlfriend, who frowned at Y/N once she lowered her phone.

“Aren’t you Y/N Y/L/N?”, the girl asked, making Y/N smile and nod. Then she tapped her boyfriend in the shoulder, making him look at his back. “From that show we were watching, darling”.

“Oh, yes! It's absolutely amazing, by the way”, the man said, making Y/N’s cheeks heat up at the affirmation.

“Thank you. I really appreciate it”, she smiled at them, dropping the bags she was looking at to make small conversation with the couple.

“Are you two together?”, the girl asked and Lando took a hold on Y/N’s hand, opening a smile on his face.

“Just recently got this pretty girl on my hook”, he joked, making the couple laugh.

“Nice, you make a cute couple”, the girl complimented before asking for a picture with Y/N. Then they said their goodbyes, moving onto looking at some more clothes at the store.

Lando approached Y/N, who was now back on looking at bags. He got close to her ear and laughed. “Mission accomplished”, he said.

“So we can leave soon, right?”, she asked, already tired of pretending this was an interesting date. “Come on, you’re not even trying to pretend you’re a good boyfriend. You haven't talked to me all day. If you’re gonna put up with an act, then at least pretend you’re interested in me”.

The words were like a bullet to his heart, but Lando took it. So this time, while she looked at bags, he at least pretended to be interested in her choices. Then, when she finally found one she liked, he promptly pulled his card to pay for it.

“My treat”, he said, taking her out of the way from the register, just to pay for her bag and a perfume for himself.

“Thank you, love”, she went along with the act and waited for him in the back. Lando had finally shifted his manner with the girl.

After they left the store, it was completely different from it was before. He carried her shopping bag and pointed out cute outfits for her to try on. Lando was even smiling, instead of looking bored as hell. A brand-new man. A good “boyfriend”.

As their day was coming to an end, Lando had a few shopping bags in his hands and they were growing tired of walking around. With their shift in the mood, it was actually pleasing to stay a while longer, to the point when they got hungry after their activity.

“We could drag out this date if you want it”, he suggested. “I know a place in Soho we can go to”.

“Yeah, that would be nice, I think”, she agreed, not thinking about how tired she felt. Y/N was starving to the point of not thinking straight.

So they walked together to the car and she decided to bring up his mood shift. “Thank you for trying to make this work. I appreciate that you listened to me”.

“Don’t get too excited. I still can’t stand you”. And just like that, he broke every hope Y/N had of Lando actually being a nice person. The mood immediately shifted again, and now she didn’t want to spend another couple of hours with him anymore.

So when they got back in the car, she told him she wanted to go home. “My head is about to burst, so I think I'll just order some pizza. Our stunt for the day is done, anyway”. And Lando obeyed without questioning.

Y/N said just a quick goodbye and a thank you before rushing into her house, all the shopping bags in hand and a few droplets of rain falling over her trench coat. After closing the door, she slid all the way to the floor and a few stubborn tears fell down. She didn’t know why she was crying but it had been a hard day. So many emotions, all of her energy being drained, all of that to have to listen to someone call you insufferable. 

“Calm the fuck down, Y/N. This isn’t forever”, she said to herself, before getting back to her feet.  Soon she would be free, and she could forget this so-called “relationship”

Recomposing herself, she managed to order some food, take a shower and get distracted by a comedy show while chilling in front of her TV. It was fine to the point where she forgot the day she just had. Until her phone lit up with two notifications from an unknown number. A winky emoji and a link to an Instagram page.

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f1gossippage Look like love’s in the air for Lando Norris! The McLaren driver was seen on a date with the HBO actress Y/N Y/L/N this afternoon. The couple was out shopping in London and shared a lot of cute moments with each other. A few people saw them kissing on the line to get ice cream and holding hands while walking. Lando even carried all of her shopping bags! How cute are them?

username1 OMG, worlds collide!!! I would never in a million years imagine my two favourites dating each other username2 The way she grabs his face... THEY ARE SO CUTE! username3 Looks like a certain someone finally decided to step out of the party life and become a man. ↪ username 4 With his history with girls, I don’t think this is actually a solid relationship.  username5 She’s so beautiful! Lando definitely has good taste

Y/N dropped her phone to her lap at the sight of the pictures. There was no backing out now that there were photos of them together. She was officially Lando Norris’ allegedly new girlfriend. May God help her.

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miss americana & the heartbreak prince masterlist

charles leclerc x female oc —what's the point of it all if you're not going to fall madly in into love?

—00. edits, graphics & other propaganda

playlist social media au teaser orange show speedway hey google, who is christyn elliott? like real people do do the girls back home touch you like I do?

—01. all american girl

"“Because.” He doesn’t really know why he can’t land on a message, why everything he types sounds entirely too casual or formal or nothing at all like what he would say to another human being. This isn’t a problem that he’s used to having. It’s the in-person flirting that fucks him up, not the texts and DMs and comments. She was just… he doesn’t know what she was. She was just. End of sentence."

—02. over the ocean call

"Chris has one student, Quinn, whose family can’t afford reduced lunch prices but also won’t request for Quinn to qualify for the free lunch. She thinks it’s an ego thing, that Quinn’s mom just isn’t able to accept that the family needs help. It’s a single parent household and the mom works two full-time jobs to try and make ends meet. After a newsletter was sent home in need of parent signatures at the beginning of the year and returned with Mama written in sloppy green crayon, Chris learned that Quinn was living a relatively self-sufficient life. As self-sufficient as a five-year-old can be." 

—03. i think i fell in love today

"If there wasn’t something weird in the air before, there certainly is now. A new weird. A good weird. An implication of something in the air, weird. It’s out there now, just hanging above them. I want to kiss you. You can kiss me. Now all that’s left is for one of them to make the move."

—04. every finger, every sigh

"She can feel eyes on her. Charles, she hopes. Charles, she can’t find in the chaos. When she does spot him, half-dead sparkler still in his hand, head drunkenly bobbing along to the beat, he’s looking right at her, grins a stupid grin and winks."

—05. monte carlo ave

He shakes his head. “You don’t understand.” She can’t possibly understand it because he doesn’t even properly understand it, the way he feels about her. The fear he feels about losing all the indecipherable feelings. It’s just good, everything about her, about being near her. It’s all so sweet and nice and good and he really, really doesn’t want to screw it up.

—06. quarter of the way

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—07. homegrown

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—08. it's so sweet

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—09. sweet nothing

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—10. i saw the end

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—11. the bees envy me

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—12. if i tremble

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—13. see the world

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—14. yours to keep

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—15. yours to lose

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—16. the view between villages

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—17. heaven in your eyes

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—epilogue. for the worms to eat

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