Girls Kissing :)

girls kissing :)

i went to the doctors and the man treated me so differently than when i first went to get my contraceptive implant. like im not even sure i know that person. his face was different i didn’t recognize him. i felt so ashamed i just wanted to get away. he told me i needed to get an ultrasound, and at first i thought, it’s probably the one that is over the belly, but then i realized, he probably meant i needed to get the transvaginal ultrasound done. i got so nervous i couldn’t even look at him and then he said that if im sexually active ill have to go anyway.

i left immediately. i don’t want to sound ignorant but i genuinely don’t want anyone looking at my vagina, or putting anything inside my vagina. i don’t like how everyone seems to want to pressure people who feel uncomfortable with this by saying that it’s necessary and that they should just put up with it. why does it have to be so dehumanizing i don’t understand. why did he treat me so differently. i may be naive but im not stupid… i hate to be treated so condescendingly i hate to be treated as less than a person.

i still haven’t gone back. it’s genuinely terrifying to think about such an invasive procedure being necessary. why is medicine so barbaric when it comes to women

Cover of Jugend Magazine by Robert Engels (Oct. 1896)

nothing makes me believe in the movie being a sequel more than the "i understand now. why you sought me out and i didn't reject you. we were together in killing the prince" quote at the end. it feels like a direct acknowledgement of them having known each other before. it feels like utena remembering what anthy must have known all along

those eyes light a fire in my stomach

fall apart from the inside out

Destiel // Uptown Girl [Youtube]