Me???? Tired???? Sleepy???? Yes Constantly

me???? tired???? sleepy???? yes constantly

HERE’S WHY EJ AND GINA ARE SOULMATES

a very long post under the cut mostly me being overanalytical and crying about portwell and their perfection. i may or may not make sense but in my defense it’s like 2am. enjoy!

after the musical video call 

ej: so you’re leaving? gina: maybe. i’ve never really stayed anywhere for more than four months. having to commit to another five it’s like learning a foreign language, you know? ej: not really. i only speak english. 

i’m not sure how canon these video chats are but it’s interesting how ej sees gina transfer money onto his account and immediately leaves his chat with ashlyn, carlos and seb to check up on her. not only that but he continues to keep the conversation about her even if he can’t relate to what she’s going through. notice the expression on his face after she hangs up. ej genuinely cares about gina. 

their scene in 2x08

gina can’t relate to having her life planned out for her because there’s constant change in her life. she says she’s “always one natural disaster away from landing in a new place.” and although the conversation began because of ej’s reluctance in attending duke, he asks her and shows interest in learning about her experience. it parallels to their video chat—they can’t claim to know what the other is going through because they have never gone through the same experience. however, they’re willing to listen and help each other as best as they can. the way gina sees ej shows that she genuinely cares about him, too.

while they may not share the same backgrounds, they do have some subtle similarities that aren’t brought up verbally to one another because portwell has a way showing, not telling which makes their dynamic so much more compelling.

for example:

although their dynamic began to develop in s2, it began in s1 when they were less developed versions of themselves. gina and ej 1.0—chaotic, self-serving and overly ambitious. nonetheless, they found solidarity in that even though they weren’t always on the same page but at the end of the season, we see that ej appreciates gina and although their plans failed, he wanted her to be part of the show and took action in making it happen.

moving onto s2, they’re the 2.0 version of themselves—working on being better people together. they were together during their darkest moments and now, they’re each other’s light. a bit like chidi and eleanor from the good place. “i was dropped into a cave and you were my flashlight.” they continue to be there for each other and understand the other’s needs. ex. gina letting ej tell her how he felt about duke and ej showing up at the airport to pick gina up and bringing her a granola bar without knowing that she’d been looking for one earlier that day.

there’s just something so magical and wonderful about this dynamic that if it weren’t about regular high school students i’d swear they were some type of cosmic soulmates brought together by the universe. whether you ship them romantically or platonically, they tell a good story.

theatre kids are another level of infuriating tbh

adhd meds are hilarious like the medical professionals really decided i need evil caffeine

im gonna start headcanoning my mutuals

Amazing Spideychelle art by @c-art-y 🥺