When I Lost You Pt. 1

When I Lost You pt. 1

Sindri X Fem! Reader

What if SIndri actually had a wife and child? A wife that Sindri had believed to be dead for years because of Odin. Then Asriel, their child, starts having visions of his mother, but he’s unsure on how to approach his father about it. 

The Night He Lost You

CRACK!

POP!

The fireplace warmed the small log house. The log house that was home to no other then you, Sindri and your newborn son, Asreil. It had taken a lot to convince Sindri to have a child and when he had finally said yes needless to say you were shocked. Oh and the look on Faye’s face when you told her you were going to have a baby. Faye was your older sister, she was the only reason you were ever able to meet Sindri. 

“How’s he doing?” Sindri sat down next to you. You sat in front of the firepalce desperate to keep warm. You looked down at Asreil with a soft smile. Asriel was asleep in your arms. 

“He’s fast asleep,” you hummed, as you sightly leaned into Sindri. Sindri wrapped an arm around your shoulders pulling you close. He played with your hair slightly combing his fingers through your hair. 

Everything was calm, tranquil, peaceful... until...

A chill ran down your spine. 

“Take Asreil,” You said as you handed over Asriel. 

“What’s wrong? What’s going on?” Sindri asked. You stood up slowly.

“The protection stave,” you said. 

“The protection stave?” Sindri pressed as he also stood up. 

“It’s broken,” you said. 

“B-Broken!” Sindri stuttered. 

“WAH!” Asreil started crying. 

“No, no, no shhhh, Papa’s sorry for yelling,” Sindri cooed rocking Asreil in his arms. 

BAM! 

BAM!

BAM!

Asreil started crying even louder. 

You grabbed your sword and headed to the front door.

“Hunny wait,” Sindri said. You looked back at him.

“It’s going to be okay,” you said.

“HEY! IT”S RUDE TO KEEP GUESTS WAITING!” 

BAM!

BAM!

BAM!

That was Baldur’s voice, and he said guests? Who else could be here with him? He couldn’t have brought Odin could he? 

Knowing this would not end well you turned back to Sindri and Asriel. You came down to his height. (Since you were at least a foot taller) 

“Run,” you said. Sindri’s eyes widened in fear as he shook his head no. 

“No... no, I’m not leaving you,” he said. 

“Please... it is the only way... for you, for our son to live. If Baldur is here there will be no mercy,” you said. You gently held his face.

“I don’t want to leave you, I love you,” Sindri whispered. 

BAM! 

BAM!

BAM!

“You got ten seconds to open this door!” Baldur and yelled. 

“Sindri please,” you begged. Your eyes pleaded with your husband to run. 

“TEN!” Baldur started counting.

The weight of the situation now started to fall on Sindri. He looked down at Asriel and back at you. 

“NINE!” 

Your heart sank knowing you would have to leave your family behind.

“Eight!” 

“I love you,” you kissed his forehead. 

“Seven!” 

You stood up and turned back to the door. 

“Six!” 

Holding back tears, Sindri disappeared with his son and ran. 

“Five!” 

You let out an annoyed sigh you walked to the door. You slammed it open. Immediately you were punched square in the chest by Baldur. Your back slammed against your dinning table. You let out a ragged breath, using the table to keep yourself up. 

“So you finally open up, so good to see you again Y/n,” Odin stepped into your home. 

“What the fuck do you want?” you asked. 

“I have a proposal,” Odin snickered. 

“No,” you shot it down immediately. 

“You won’t even hear me out?” Odin asked innocently. 

“Whatever you have to offer I don’t want it,” you said. 

“Alright, I guess were done here,” Odin sighed.

“I guess we are,” you agreed. 

“Keep it clean,” Odin leaned close to Baldur. Baldur smirked while cracking his knuckles then his neck. 

---

Asriel jumped awake. He’d been having the same dream the last week. A beautiful women chained up with a needle like plant in the back of her neck. 

Knock! Knock! Knock!

“Asriel? Breakfast is ready!” His father, Sindri, called. 

“I’ll be down in a minute,” Asriel groaned as he rolled over in bed. Asriel yawned as he sat up. Questions filled Asriel’s head. 

Who is this women? 

Why does he keep having dreams of her? 

Why was she chained up? 

Asriel let out a heavy sigh as he pulled his bedroom door open and headed downstairs. 

“Well good mornin’ sunshine!” Uncle Brok chuckled as Asriel sat down at the table. 

“Mmm,” Asriel hummed still tired. 

“Are you alright? You still look very tired,” Freya commented. All eyes were on Asriel now. 

Asriel debated on whether or not he should talk about the women he had been seeing in his dream. He decided against it and breakfast resumed as usual. 

Asriel couldn’t help but just sit there and poke at his food.

“Asriel, are you alright?” His father now asked. 

“Yeah, I’m... I’m fine... I just need some fresh air,” Asriel sighed as he stood up,” if you need me I’ll be outside.” 

The young teen pushed open the large door into the courtyard. He approached the center of it and just sat down. He drew circles, with his finger, on the wooden boards.

“Hey.”

Asriel jumped and looked over to see his cousin, Atreus.

“Mind if I join ya?” Atreus asked.

“Yeah, uh, sure, take a seat,” Asriel said as he went back to drawing circles on the ground. There was a silence between the two.

“Your dad’s really worried about you,” Atreus finally spoke. Asriel glanced back up at Atreus.

“I know, it’s just… I don’t know… I don’t want him thinking I’m crazy,” Asriel sighed.

“Why would he think that?” Atreus questioned.

“I keep having this dream…,” Asriel admitted.

“About?” Atreus pressed.

“You can’t tell my dad okay?” Asriel didn’t want his dad more worried about him.

“I won’t,” Atreus agreed now growing even more concerned.

“It’s about this women… she’s chained up and has a needle like plant in the back of her neck,” Asriel admitted.

“Huh? And you don’t know who she is?” Atreus asked.

“Not a clue,” Asriel sighed.

“Could it be your mom?” Atreus offered an answer. Asriel froze not sure what to say…

He never did have a chance to meet her, but then again his dad never liked talking about her either. His dad would always say it was in the past, and leave it at that.

“I don’t think so,” Asriel now replied.

“Maybe you could ask your dad,” Atreus suggested.

“No…no I can’t, he… he doesn’t like talking about what happened,” Asriel said.

“But what if it is her? What if you could get her back?” Atreus threw the questions at his cousin, whom started to become more overwhelmed. Asriel stood up, Atreus quickly stood up as well.

“Yeah and what do you suggest I say? Hey dad I keep seeing this weird women in my dreams! Maybe it could be mom? I know you don’t like talking about her!” Asriel snapped, bitterness on each of his words. Atreus had a look of guilt and Asriel quickly realized what he had done.

“I’m-,” Atreus started.

“No, I should be apologizing to you, that was out of line and uncalled for,” Asriel apologized. “I think I just need to think on it. Thanks for listening to me Atreus.”

“Yeah, it’s what I’m here for,” Atreus beamed. The two headed back.

“Asriel!” Sindri called to his soon. Sindri stepped away from the quencher and greeted the two boys.

“Hey dad, don’t worry about me, I’m alright,” Asriel said.

“I just wanted to say, if you ever need to talk, I’m here for you,” Sindri said.

“I know dad,” Ariel smiled.

“Okay,” Sindri smiled back. Despite his smile Sindri’s anxiety was not put to ease.

Was his son okay?

What was bugging him?

Is it because he’s a bad father?

“The boy ‘ill come to ya when he’s ready,” Brok cut Sindri out of his thoughts.

“Brok… did… did I mess up somewhere…?” Sindri asked.

“I- er- I can’t tell you that,” Brok stuttered now starting to feel uneasy. Brok was a brute, never that good with emotions. Sindri sighed, as he headed back to the quench picking back up where he left off. The thought of his son in distress still plagued his mind.

It wasn’t until lunch time Sindri had seen Asriel again. Kratos, Mimir and Atreus were just getting back from one of there adventures. Asriel pulled himself down the stairs, he had just woken up from a nap, bad idea. He still saw the women but only this time he heard her screams of agony and pain.

“Dad,” Asriel’s voice cracked, he stood at the bottom of the stairs.

“Yes? What is it? Is everything okay?” Sindri rushed over to his son.

“Can I talk to you in my room? Please?” Asriel asked.

“Of course, let’s go,” Sindri agreed. The two headed back up to Asriel’s room. Sindri had to stop himself from commenting on how messy it was. He knew now was not the time.

“I know it’s messy,” Asriel said, he knew that his father wanted to comment on it.

“That’s…,” Sindri shuddered,” that’s not what matters right now, what’s going on?”

“I think you should sit down for this,” Asriel said as he pat the spot next to him on the bed.

“I think I’ll be alright,” Sindri replied. Asriel took a deep breath.

“I’ve been having these dreams of… a women… and… and I don’t know who… who she is… but if… if it’s mom… then she needs our help…,” Asriel said. Asriel was right, Sindri should have sat down. A pit in Sindri’s stomach grew. He suddenly felt sick.

What was he supposed to say? Feel? If his wife was alive this whole time would she be mad that he never tried to save her? That he assumed her dead after that night?

“No… no… your mom… she’s…,” Sindri couldn’t even say it. Instead he just left the room. He didn’t know where his feet were taking him. Memories of that awful night filling his head

“Dad! Wait!” Asriel quickly followed after his father. Sindri didn’t listen, he just kept walking until he was out the door. 

“Woah hey! What’s going on?” Atreus got up. 

“I told him about the women and I don’t know, started freaking out? Panicking?” Asriel started panicking a little himself. 

“Okay, okay, calm down, breathe,” Atreus said. 

“Women? Who are you talking about?” Freya now questioned, alarmed by the situation. 

“I... I don’t know who she is... and when I mentioned it may be my mom... that happened...,” Asriel explained. 

“What does the women in your dream she look like?” Kratos now asked. 

“Uh, long (h/c) hair, (S/c) skin, I can never really get any specific details,” Asriel explained.

“It’s her,” Kratos said, he seemed confident in his answer,” I met your mother only a few times, but that seems to match her... from what I remember.” 

“It sounds like her,” Brok confirmed,” and I think I may know where your father ran off to.” 

“You do?” Asriel asked. 

“Yeah, come with me kid, we’ll find him,” Brok said,” and gear up, we’re headed to Midgard.” 

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Bonus:

When I Lost You pt 2

Sindri X Fem! Reader

What if SIndri actually had a wife and child? A wife that Sindri had believed to be dead for years because of Odin. Then Asriel, their child, starts having visions of his mother, but he’s unsure on how to approach his father about it.

Sindri sat in the middle of what remained of his old home. The cold of Midgard felt like nothing compared to the stabbing feeling in his chest. His gloves were even off. He played with the two wedding bands that he wore, one his the other hers. He had crafted both of them just before the wedding. One of the few fond memories he had left.

How long had it been since he was here?

It’s had to be at least ten years. With Asriel now fifteen.

“Dad?”

Sindri jumped slightly but didn’t turn towards his son.

“You shouldn’t be here,” Sindri said, he wasn’t angry, just pained.

“Uncle Brok said you were going to be here,” Asriel said as he sat down next to his dad. Sindri didn’t say anything and just continued to play with the rings. “What happened? What is this place?”

Sindri knew that this conversation was long overdue. He would have to tell Asriel what happened that night.

“This was…. This was our… home,” Sindri started,” your mother and I… we-we lived here… this… this is where you were supposed to grow up… but… but then the protection stave broke…B-Baldur… Odin… they…”

“I understand,” Asriel set his hand on his father’s shaking one. Sindri looked at Asriel for the first time in this whole interaction.

“If she’s… if she’s still alive she’s… she’s going to hate me… for not coming to her sooner…,” Sindri whispered.

“I don’t think that’s true,” Asriel said, he squeezed his dad’s hand. “We’re going to figure this out… together.”

Sindri used his free hand to wipe away his tears.

“Yes, together,” Sindri agreed. Asriel stood up pulling his dad with him.

The two headed back to the portal door. Brock had waited patiently for the two.

“Get it out of yer system?” Brok asked.

“Yeah, let’s get this all figured out,” Sindri nodded as they headed back home.

Back home the others had been waiting in anticipation.

“Is everything alright?” Freya asked as soon as she saw Asriel, Sindri and Brok.

“Yeah, we’re okay,” Asriel said as he sat down at the table. Sindri and Brok followed his lead.

“So Asriel now that things have calmed down the women that you believe is your mother, do you know where she is?” Freya asked. “Maybe it isn’t too late.”

“No, all I really know is that there’s a needle like plant stabbing the back of her neck,” Asriel said. Freya’s eyes widened, she quickly stood up and walked to her little study area. She grabbed a book flipping through its pages

“Is this what you’re seeing?” Freya offered the book to Asriel. Asriel examined the plant. With a grim expression Asriel gave a soft nod.

“It is,” he said.

“Then this is not good, these plants are only native to Muspelhiem,” Freya said as she closed the book.

“Wh-what are they exactly?” Sindri now asked.

“Nightmare thistle. When stung by it, as the name implies, invokes nightmares, but continuously being stung… that… that would cause an unimaginable Hell,” Freya explained.

“Oh god... my dearest Y/n,” Sindri muttered to himself.

“I think I know where she is,” Mimir now said. Kratos grabbed Mimir so that now everyone could see him. 

“You do?!” Asriel and Sindri asked in unison. 

“Aye,” Mimir nodded,” Odin has only ever kept one other prisoner there.” 

“Then it’s decided, Freya and I will go investigate,” Kratos said. 

“Please before you go, I would like to update your things,” Sindri said. 

“Hm,” Kratos grunted in agreement. 

---

“No! NO! AHHHHH!” 

You watched again as both Sindri and Asriel were killed in front of you. You were helpless. No way to move, no way to stop it. 

Your vision faded away as the scene ‘reset’. 

“Please... please... stop...,” you cried. 

“You did this to them, you killed them Y/n. Tell me was it worth it?” Odin asked. 

“No... no... no...,” you shook your head. 

“All you had to do was give me what I wanted,” Odin said. He looked at Baldur once more and nodded. Once again you watched as Baldur killed Sindri and Asriel in front of you. 

“Ahhhh!” you screamed. 

This time the scene didn’t ‘reset’. Instead you heard the quite hushing of a women. 

“Shhh, its okay. Your safe now,” she whispered. Your vision focused back in. You were met with a pair of brown eyes. They were soft and caring.

There was a sharp pain in the back of your neck. 

“Wh-where...? Who...? My... Sin... As...,” you tried saying but your voice still very weak. 

“I can carry her,” A deep male voiced offered. You head snapped up only to see Kratos.

“Kra-,” you mumbled.

“Shh, shh, don’t speak, there will be plenty of time for that later,” the woman now said. 

Where was Faye? 

Why wasn’t she here? 

Why was this woman here instead?

Knowing you wouldn’t get answers now you let Kratos pick you up. 

“Let’s get back quickly,” the woman said. 

“Hm,” Kratos grunted in agreement. 

Through most of the walk you were phasing in and out of consciousness. That was until you were in front of a giant tree that looked like it was a home as well. 

“Kratos... I think I’m... good t-to walk on my own,” you spoke softly. Kratos let out a grunt as he gently set you down. He made sure you were steady before letting you go. 

“How do you feel?” the woman asked as the three of you approached the set of double doors. 

“Everything feels... weird... I...who are you...? Where is... my sister?” you asked.

“My name is Freya,” the woman responded.

“Freya...? Like... the goddess?” you questioned. 

“Yes, but I am not here to cause any harm...,” Frey said. You nodded, feeling what she said was true. 

“And Faye... Faye passed away a few years ago,” Kratos said. Your heart shattered... how much have you missed?

“Was it... Odin...? I swear to the gods...,” you said.

“It was not, it was all natural causes,” Kratos said. 

“I see...,” you mumbled.

“We should head inside, I’m sure the others are quite anxious to see you,” Freya said. You nodded softly. Kratos pushed open the doors open

Your bare feet were cold against the smooth tile floor.

“So did ya- Well I’ll be damned.” 

You looked over to see Brok, he had a look of astonishment and relief in his eyes.

“Tell me, did you find her?”

You knew that voice. You pushed your way through Freya and Kratos. Sindri stood there in front. Your legs grew weak as you fell to your knees. 

Sindri stepped towards you in shock. 

“Is it really you?” he whispered cupping your face in his hands. Tears fell from both of your eyes. You took in a deep breath and set your hands on top of his. 

“Yes,” you croaked. Sindri wrapped his arms around your neck, he pulled you close holding you tightly. You held him just as tightly. 

“I never thought this day would happen,” Sindri cried. “I thought you were dead. I’m sorry, I’m so sorry.” 

“Shh, shh, it’s alright, you didn’t know,” you whispered. You pulled away and looked Sindri in the eyes. Sindri sniffled and set your forehead on his. He rubbed circles on your cheek. 

“Mom?” 

Your heart dropped as you pulled away from Sindri...

“Asriel?” you whispered. Asriel nodded as he stepped towards his mother. 

“You recognize me?” Asriel asked. You couldn’t help but let out a chuckle. 

“Of course I do,” you said as you out stretched your arms to him. Asriel choked up a sob and ran into your arms. “You’ve gotten so big. Tell me how old are you now?” 

“Fifteen,” Asriel said. 

Fifteen years? You’ve been gone fifteen year? 

You sniffled as you pulled away. You held Asriel’s face taking in every detail you saw. He had Sindri’s eyes no doubt, but then again his eyes were the same colors as yours. 

“My beautiful baby boy,” you whispered, “I am so sorry, I promise I am not going anywhere this time.”

“It’s not your fault mom. Dad told me... You did it to protect us,” Asriel said. You shook your head yes, holding back a sob. You looked back over at Sindri.

“You did a good job,” you said.

“I tried,” Sindir sniffled as he hugged both of you tightly. He was happy to have his wife back. 

“Come, I’m sure you have much to tell me,” you said as you pulled away from the two. You stood up slowly. 

“Sorry to interrupt but take this Y/n, it’ll help with the after affects of the nightmare thistle,” Freya offered you a cup with a dark blue liquid. 

“Thank you Freya,” you hummed as you took the cup from her. 

“Uh, hi, I’m Atreus.” 

You looked over to see a boy the same age as Asriel. 

“Atreus, hello, I haven’t seen you since you were a baby,” you smiled. Asriel gently grabbed your hand and brought you over to the table were Atreus was. 

“Huh? You mean-?” Atreus started. 

“Yes, your mother was so excited for me to meet you, of course at the time I was still pregnant with Asriel,” you said as you and Asriel sat down. Asriel held your hand tightly, you knew he wasn’t letting go any time soon.

You talked for hours with Asriel, Astreus, Sindri and sometimes the others would join in. 

Asriel had started leaning against you. You could tell he was starting to get tired. 

“Come on, lets get you to bed,” you hummed. 

“But... I wanna keep talking...,” Asriel mummbled.

“We will have plenty of time to talk after you rest,” you said. 

“Can you... tuck me.. in?” Asriel asked. 

“Of course,” you hummed. 

Asriel brought you to his room. 

“I see you don’t take after your father’s cleanliness,” you laughed softly. 

“Yeah... I don’t let him in here,” Asriel chuckled. Asriel pulled the covers back as he almost instantly flopped into bed. You smiled softly as you pulled the blanket over him. 

“Sleep well my baby boy,” you whispered and planted a gentle kiss on his forehead. “I love you.” 

“I love you too mom,” Asriel hummed. You smiled as you stepped out of his room. You headed back downstairs. Sindri was the only one left. He was sitting at the table. 

“Are you okay my dear?” you asked as you sat down next to him. He looked at you with tears in his eyes. 

“I’m... just so happy you’re okay,” he whispered,” that you’re here. that you’re alive. And... I’m so... so sorry... I didn’t... we didn’t. I’m sorry we couldn’t get to you sooner.” 

“Do not apologize, I didn’t even know where I was,” you said as you gently grabbed his hands. “It’s going to be okay, we’re going to be okay.” 

“I know,” Sindri hummed,” I’m tired, are you tired?” 

“Very, lets get to bed, and tomorrow we can have a fresh start,” you said. 

“Yes, a fresh start,” Sindri agreed.