There Is Something Deeply Frustrating About Having The Kind Of Complex Emotional Traumas That Mean Even

There is something deeply frustrating about having the kind of complex emotional traumas that mean even one minor incident can result in a brand new trigger. This one negative interaction now means this entire person is a trigger, and it wouldn't even be remembered after a few days by someone who doesn't have the preceding years of bullshit, but it's a major and deeply unfortunate shift for the new person.

Like. Imagine if your brain interpreted every red flag as a "panic the second you see this," and also interpreted every orange, yellow, and maybe even offsides as a red flag, because missing a yellow out of the peripheral had previously resulted in an actual red. Multiple times.

(Do I actually know what a red, yellow, or orange flag even is anymore, in this metaphor? No. I am physically incapable of understanding when someone is minorly annoyed and got over it after a few minutes vs. when someone is holding a grudge the way I unwillingly hold anxiety.)

And now wrap all that up in the fact that the negative interactions that cause the new triggers are common and unpreventable because they're built from undiagnosed-but-almost-definitely-autism interactions that cannot feasibly be avoided without cutting one's self off from human interaction entirely.

So you have years of emotional trauma, a brain that develops new triggers at the drop of a hat by immediately sorting people or signs as falling under an existing trigger as soon as a minor negative emotion is displayed, and a personality that the cannot prevent the incidents that cause said negative emotions.

ARCANE // ACT 1 →  ACT 3 

Jayce calling Viktor his partner.

Alive, Armand has religion, and when he loses that he gets education and wealth. Lestat is denied the church by his father, has no education and no wealth.

Armand is ripped from his homeland. Lestat is repeatedly dragged back to his homestead.

Armand is purchased from the brothel on the verge of death and thinks Marius is the beautiful Christ himself. Marius takes him to his home full of other boys, peers and comrades to him. Lestat is ripped from the bed he shares with Nicki at the height of his life, repulsed by Magnus’ appearance, and recognizes him almost immediately as a vampire. Magnus takes him to a home full of corpses that look just like him.

Armand fights through his entire death to become a vampire, quite literally crawling across the floor to receive the blood from Marius. Lestat won’t even ask for it as he’s about to die, refusing Magnus until the very end.

Armand watches Marius burn and is tortured by the Children of Darkness until he accepts their teachings, and lives by and enforces their rules in their communities with no wealth and no joy. Lestat watches Magnus burn and is left with no knowledge, no guidance, no community, and nothing but wealth and can’t even stick to the rules he makes for himself.

Lestat makes fledglings like they’re going out of style, two within like the first six months. Armand makes one. After like five hundred years.

Etc, etc, I’m sure there’s more

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As a bisexual person I'm keenly aware of how such stereotypes are inevitably harmful to us, but unfortunately when I see bisexuals in fiction who are Evil and stylish and fuck like champions I can't help but go "oh work" for a sec. It's a difficult conundrum

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