Just Finished Reading Loveless By @chronicintrovert And I HAD To Draw Sunil

Just finished reading Loveless by @chronicintrovert and i HAD to draw Sunil

im not going to be on tumblr tomorrow (still might check dms), for my own safety and wellbeing. but before i log off, i want to say a couple things

9/11 was a tragedy. everyone knows and sees that. just because i am muslim does not mean that i am going to justify 9/11. whatever bin laden’s motivation was, he did a disgusting thing and killed thousands of innocent people

just because 9/11 was an attack by someone who calls themselves muslims doesnt make all muslims terrorists. i cannot believe this is a sentence i have to type, but here i am. muslims - true muslims - do not condone violence. against anyone. i can go into all the details and the what-ifs and everything, but i dont have the energy for that. just know that violence is strictly frowned upon (note: this does not include self-defense. if somebody is attacking you and you are unable to get away, then fight back. again, there’s no debate on that).

check up on any muslims you know. your friends, neighbours, coworkers, acquaintances, even people you don’t like all that much. we are incredibly stressed out, especially if we live in a western country. just a quick text to see if they’re okay tomorrow will mean a lot

do not think that because you don’t live in america, you’re exempt from this. any western country has this problem, even if you live in a relatively okay area. i do. my friend (who lives in the same area as me) went to walmart and had a hijab on. she was nearly run over (intentionally, the guy was glaring at her and her mother the entire time) while trying to get to the store. she only realized when she got home that it was 9/11. i live in a safe area of canada. this should not be happening. but it is.

if you are in any way, shape, or form, islamophobic, get the hell off my blog

Okay I’m sorry to have to do this one more time but hopefully this is the last time, because its like, final payment time. The prosthetic joint for my surgery is all done, all my pre-op exams and scans are done, literally all that’s left now is the surgery itself, but because of the pandemic and privatized health care seizing upon the pandemic as an excuse to do everything ass-backwards that they can get away with, and because even four years into this everyone and their mother is still trying to term this jaw joint replacement surgery a non-essential procedure (despite the chronic pain, migraines, vertigo, occasional vision whiteouts and other assorted nerve wtf-ery that stems from having a jaw only attached on one side of your face and flopping around all willy-nilly, lmao but sure nonessential, let’s go with that) AHEM, anyway….basically, they’re not letting me schedule the surgery until I’ve….paid for it. Which is…yeah. 

But long story short, my insurance is paying for my hospital fees since its happening at Cedars-Sinai which is in-network for me, as is the anesthesiologist, the post-recovery physical therapy, etc….all that’s left to pay is the fees for the actual surgery itself, the surgeons’ professional charges for the procedure basically. Which came to a whopping $21K out of pocket. I’ve covered as much of it as I possibly can via credit cards, personal loans, and every cent I’ve been able to save over the past four years that hasn’t been needed for eating, maintaining insurance and keeping a roof over my head, and so now I’m literally only $450 short. 

Anything anyone can do to help me get closer to that is nothing short of life-changing for me at the moment, lol, sorry to be melodramatic about it, but like. Yeah. Getting to this point has been the entirety of my existence for the past four years, I THOUGHT I was already to this point last summer only for that doctor to turn out to be shady, and like…yeah. I’m still working as best I’m able, open to commissions, literally anything and everything to try and make that amount myself still, but again cuz of the pandemic and how packed hospitals are, and the fact that I need it to be this SPECIFIC hospital in order to make the most of my insurance there and not be hit with several thousand more in facility fees…. even once I pay them in full, the surgery itself will still be about six weeks out. Once its on the books, I can at least finally relax somewhat and just focus on making it through until that happens, but that’s enough of a lag time that I’m just really really really trying to get it scheduled as soon as humanly possible. So I’m really hoping this is the absolute last time I’ll have to do this, I’ve gotten as close to it as I can right now and I’m still working to make the rest of it myself, but any and all help closing this final gap is incredibly appreciated and can change things for me so much, and hopefully, finally SOON. 

(I mean, relatively speaking. But like its been four years, six weeks is a drop in the bucket compared to that. I’m just really trying to not have it be MORE than six weeks. Especially since 2020 has made it its personal mission to level up in crisis-mode every couple of weeks anyway, and who knows what curveballs are still coming, y’know?) 

Anyway, thanks again, and for everyone who has already helped me get here, and please just know all of it has and continues to make a huge difference.

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Quick rant about African homophobia but the fact that white people will really say "ooh X country hates gay people, they're so backward and barbaric" is incredibly insulting.

As far as Africa is concerned, homophobia can't be disconnected from Christian colonizers. The erasure of queer history can be tied to them and has led to some of the most radical shifts toward homosexuality I've ever seen.

Take Uganda, everyone's favourite homphobic punching bag. Few would believe that Uganda had a gay king. If you've only heard of Kabaka Mwanga through European writings you would believe that he was gay (which the Europeans claimed he gained from the barbaric Arabs) However, some modern Ugandan scholars believe he was bi as he slept with his wives and male pages. The missionaries used this narrative to claim he was possessed by demons leading him to burn Christian martyrs.

While the killing of the martyrs was obviously wrong, the British used his sexuality to undermine his power and colonize Uganda. ( This was around the same time Oscar Wilde was put on trial ) This is just one example of the British weaponising homophobia as they spread it throughout Uganda.

Other examples include the erasure of lesbian marriage in certain tribes and the condemning of male wives and female husbands (given my lack of resources on them, I can't say they were trans but they certainly didn't fit the mold that colonialism forced on them) The fact is that modern homophobia in Africa can be traced back to colonialism and Christianity.

While this does not mean Africa was a woke™ haven, it does show how insidious remarks about it's homophobia can be. With the knowledge that these attitudes have been stoked throughout the past two centuries, it becomes easier to divorce African identity and homophobia. This goes against the stereotype that non-white communities are socially regressive, often having sexist/homophobic structures.

This doesn't absolve any Africans of their homophobia but rather seeks to explain some of it and add nuance to the discussion of LGBT rights in Africa.

TLDR: Colonization erased queer history in Africa. this doesn't absolve Africa of its homophobia but it's necessary to understand the role of colonization in it

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