Had To Take My Meds Today. I Had To Calm My Mind About My Racing Heart. Ever Since I Took The Pill, It

Had to take my meds today. I had to calm my mind about my racing heart. Ever since I took the pill, it seems like my heart rate is normal. This day was weird. I was able to go to uni, it's National Hungarian Poetry Day here and they put out my poem on the campus today, I received a lot of love and congratulations, that made me happy for a short moment. I had not an ounce of anxiety in my body, yet I felt constantly worried about my heart. It's shitty. It's hard to say anything optimistic at this point. I miss my family, I miss my mom especially, even though I know she sometimes can't deal with my emotions. I miss not fucking being afraid of my own heart... Today is really hard. And I'll let myself feel sad about that. I was fighting all week. I need to rest and recharge. So sorry I can't say anything positive today, except for the fact that I'm happy the meds could somehow calm me down.

- Reni

“The bravest thing I ever did was continuing my life when I wanted to die.”

— Juliette Lewis

You are not excluded from that love. You are deserving of what you pour into others. You are brave in any attempt you give yourself to be better.

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I think it's silly how many "get better" guides on this site are all "step 1: love yourself" and other things along those lines like I'm sorry but that's that's not step one, that's the final goal...