[ CME SPOILERS ]

[ CME SPOILERS ]

... so! me and my buddy friend pal lover @prettyboy-reiid (who you should follow) were talking about krystall's death. and they were like "god we never DID get an answer for what killed her, did we?", and i said "WE HAVEN'T!!!", like a fool.

i hadn't done my research!

and so, after scouring tons of blogs, i finally found an interview with erica messer that tells us (almost) exactly what happened.

i found it hiding in a LOOPER article, titled "Criminal Minds : Evolution Exec Relates Rossi's Grief To Everyone's Post-COVID Lives" .

it says...

"In her interview, Erica Messer confirmed that Krystall Richards' death was the result of a cancer battle exacerbated by the COVID-19 pandemic."

... if david rossi had a nickel for everybody he cared about that died from cancer, he would have TWO nickels!... which isn't a lot! but it's HEARTBREAKING that is happened twice <3

and if you think that was awful, here's some more fuel to throw on that emotional fire!

"For David Rossi and Krystall Richards, COVID-19 prevented doctors from detecting her cancer early enough to intervene. "You couldn't really go to the doctor unless it was an emergency situation," Erica Messer recalled of the early days of the pandemic. "One of [Richards'] yearly exams got put off and when she finally got to the doctor, they found cancer and it was advanced and it was too little, too late." Her death traumatizes Rossi, who chooses to dissolve into his work rather than take time to heal."

... that is! that is so awful. that is soooooo awful. oh that's the worst. imagine that, mh? imagine the "she's already late stage 3, the best we can do is provide hospice care". imagine the parallels to carolynn. imagine "no one lives forever, david", like it's coming straight out of carolynn's mouth and NOT the woman he was sure he'd have forever with.

now penelope's "ever since krystall's diagnosis..." makes sense, huh? </3

the aquarium said you are NOTHING compared to an eel

hello everyone! im going to make your day worse on purpose.

criminal minds : evolution spoilers <3

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i think rossi's initial environment when facing grief ABSOLUTELY plays a part into how he deals with it.

most of the grief we've seen him go through can barely be called grief. because he doesn't grieve. he doesn't ALLOW himself to. he's at work, he's busy, he's always got something occupying his thoughts. hell, the first (and maybe the ONLY) time we really see him actively sob is when carolynn died, and i'm 99% sure he comes back into work the next day😭. i know hotch says "you don't have to be here.", but he sorta does ! he does this repression-thing until the grieving window fades out. it never fully goes away, though!

... and for krystall, he was retired and happy! he was at HOME. KRYSTALL was the thing that he focused on, not the job. he's always needed something to fill his day. and when krystall was ripped away? he scrambled to get back into the rhythm of work, but ended up burying himself in it.

he isn't letting himself grieve here, either! it's even more unstable.

and!...

and my other running theory actually sort of ties in with this character analysis.!

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do you think. the negative effects of not properly grieving... *counts on fingers* like 4 or 5 personal deaths, in the past decade or so....... just slam into him like an actual train, with krystall's death❤️?

yes, he lost the woman he was ready to spend the rest of his life with and fate has essentially resigned him to dying alone- but God!!!??? you're telling me that man DOESN'T think he's pretty much cursed with all the funerals he's attended?? that every relationship he has, platonic or not, is probably gonna end horribly? "is this how it's gonna go? all my friends dying off?"???????????

you think that david rossi DOESN'T keep track of how old his son would be each year on his birth (and death) date???

you believe that he DOESN'T fear almost every single day that someone else he loves will die, someone far younger and with much more life to live?? and since the only family he probably has LEFT is the team, it'll be one of them?🤨🤨🤨

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okay my rant is over <3! idk what the original idea was behind this post but i had to get the demons out or something

Need more of Hotch and Derek teaming up to put a leash on Spencer cause that shit was glorious lmao

seems like a good time to talk about this

Okay but

that scene in cm where hotch pulls Rossi into the other room bc Rossi was being unprofessional and when hotch closed the door behind him he kissed rossi