Hi, I Didn't Really Have A Request. I Just Wanted To Know How You Were Doing. And That I Love Your Written

Hi, I didn't really have a request. I just wanted to know how you were doing. And that I love your written and how much effort you put into them. ❤

Awe that's so sweet I'm doing good thank you 😊 it means a lot to know people are enjoying my work.

How are u?

@oneaboveallovervoid

I don’t have enough room to explain this in a reply so I’m writting a full response.

This isn’t to attack you directly (its mostly a vent) but just to speak on why what you said isn’t true.

How can you say to use your imagination when almost all reader inserts say “your face turned red as a tomato” “your hair fell down your shoulders in waves” “he ran his fingers through your hair” “your beautiful (gem color) eyes” “your pale slender shoulders” “you ran your fingers through your silky hair”??? Your comment shows you don’t have to think about this. As a person of color, specifically an unambiguous black person (afro-caribbean and afro-latina), the things listed above immediately rule me out. I won’t blush and turn red. My skin is as brown as the soil that gives the world around me life. My hair doesnt fall down my shoulders in waves. Its defies gravity and ascends to the universe like a cloud. My eyes can’t be described as something as simple as a “beautiful gem color” either, we all know the person who writes that thinks of blue, green, and hazel color eyes. Not my deep dark brown eyes that almost look black, undauntingly taking in the racist world around me.

So how can I, an unapologetic black girl from New York City, use my imagination in reader inserts when I’m not even in the imagination of the writer?

Just fucking look at Lord of the ring! Not a single black person is in it. Technically the first black person I saw was in the hobbit… Specifically when they got to laketown and it was just 2 random extras that talked amongst the crowd, debating on whether or not the mountain should be reclaimed. And because they are there for about a minute with no major role they might as well not be there at all. It would make no difference either way. The only reason why they were put there is for publicly sake. Just think about that. Think about that for a second. Rewatch ALL of the movie and you’ll see everyone is either white or white passing. There is no represention in it. Poc are not included in fandoms or movies UNTIL THERE IS BACKLASH or UNTIL WE MAKE OUR OWN SPACE. And yet when we are put in its based on stereotypes.

This is why I write exclusively for brown and black people. Because if I don’t write for us who will? A random person that only has stereotypes to base their character off of? A person that would only write their character as the [insert any poc group here] best friend that’s sassy, has no dad, a tiger mom, constantly switches between languages mid-sentence(for example spanglish), and is over-critical over everything around them?

So to say that reader inserts shouldn’t be specified based on race shows that you’re used to seeing yourself in them. I don’t have that luxury. My brothers don’t have that luxury. My friends don’t have that luxury. My sisters don’t have that luxury.

We. Dont. Have. That. Luxury.

So once again. I write exclusively for those that are black and brown people. Because nobody else writes for us.

And yet despite of all this, I am aware of the language I use and do try to be vague. I’m not stopping anyone from reading my stories. I’m just allowing those who are used to not being seen to feel heard and appreciated.

So to anyone else that is upset that poc make their own spaces after being excluded from/forgotten by fandoms, mind your business or make the fandom more accessible. We wouldn’t have to write for each other if others wrote for us.

Signed,

Black and Brown writers.

Hi, I love your writing and your series on peaky blinders. Could you please write one on Thomas shelby, where Thomas's wife has been having pregnancy cramps and it becomes too painful. And finds out she's had a miscarriage, and her and Tommy try to find a way to get past it. Thank you, hope you have a good day or night 🥀

thats means a lot and im do my best make it good.

Time After Time

requested × @paisholotus

I sighed moving around the room stepping over broken glass to get over to John passed out on our bed, my eyes glanced down at him before moving towards lizzy sleepy form. I nodded to myself before walking out of the room towards the hallway bathroom, I looked at myself in the mirror surprised that I was so calm about this all. I don't know if I'm tired from it or I haven't registered what I just saw, either way that doesn't stop me from stomping back in the room and throwing a bucket of water on them.

"Oi, what the fuck." John shouted waking up looking around confused, lizzy gasped in surpised sitting up in bed drenched in water.

"Get out." I said calmly looking at lizzy, she looked over at John before crossing her arms and giving me a distasteful look.

"If he wants me to leave I leave." She said with a smug smile, I stepped closer making her smile drop and back up.

"Johnathan tell your whore to get out, before I throw her out this fucking window." I kept my eyes trained on her, she looked scared looking between me and John.

"Fuck off, Lizzy." He says tired not even casting a glance at her as he looked through his draws, she looked shocked at John.

"You heard him Elizabeth fuck off back to the gutters you belong." I said waving my hand shooing her away as she picked up her clothes and rushed passed me.

"Where the kids?" He asked litting a cigarette, I turned back to him with a blank look.

"With Mrs.Stone." I held the metal bucket in my hand still contemplating if I should throw it at his head or not, he hummed staring at me with a look of knowledgment something I barely see anymore.

"20 minutes." I said.

"What."

"I been gone for 20 minutes and all I asked was for you to look after the childern...just for a little bit..." i rest my free hand against my forehead feeling a headache coming on.

"They were running amuck I couldn't control them, you should known better to leave them alone with me." He snapped back, I laughed covering my face before looking back at him.

"I was gone for 20 fucking minutes." I launched the bucket at him causing to duck as the bucket crashed through the window.

"Are you out of your fucking mind?" He shouted.

"You could have called anyone...your sister, polly, hell even fucking arthur." He ducked again as I threw a book resting on the vanity desk at him.

"For fuck sake–"

"But, NO you decided to get high and fuck lizzy fucking stark rather than watch your childern." He slammed me against the wall holding my wrist stopping from hitting him again.

"You need to calm the fuck down." He grits through his teeth his face red.

"Calm down!?!? Calm the fuck down!?!? How am I supposed to calm down when our daughter almost got hit by fucking car." I shouted at him, he looked taken back.

"W–W–What? Is she okay is she hurt?" I snatched my wrist out of his grip shoving pass him putting some distance between us.

"She's fine. I got her in time before the driver could could stop." I gulped remembering the fear that course through my body as I saw her run into the street after her ball, It felt like my world was about to shattered when I heard a car horned I was so grateful that I got there in time.

I felt a pair of hands squeezed my shoulder, "Baby, I'm so sorry I–" shrugged his hands off me.

"No, not this time. You can't apologize your way out of this you made your bed now fucking lay in it." I walked past him hearing him following behind me downstairs.

"What are you doing?" He asked as I gathered my bag from the couch, before turning to him.

"I may not be able to divorce you, but I can sure as hell get us away from you." I hissed turning towards the door, he pulled my arm causing me stop.

"Your not going anywhere neither are my kids." He growled.

"Call lizzie. I bet she be very happy to hear from you again." I stepped towards the front door turning the knob only for John to slam it back.

"Please..." he whispered wrapping his arms around my waist keeping from leaving, he rest his head on my shoulder pleading from not to leave him alone.

"I can't–I can't be here alone you know I can't please...I can't be left alone you know how me head play tricks." He begged hugging me from behind tighter, I couldn't resist leaning my body back against his warm skin. He left kisses on my neck and shoulder.

"...please...don't leave me." He whispered again, I closed my eyes trying to decide if I should stay or leave. I sighed deeply unwrapping his arms from around me, my original plan to leave sudden got thrown out knowing if I left John alone I might not like what I see when I come back.

"Go take a bath and change the sheets. I go get the kids and start on dinner" I sighed rubbing my eyebrow with the back of my hand, he gave me a small smile leaning in to kiss but dodge his lips as they landed on my cheek. I patted his bare chest leaving to receive the kids from the neighbors, they hurried out the old lady's house saying goodbye.

I picked up my baby girl as she sleep on the couch, i planted kissed on her face making her stir. I said my thank you's and goodbyes before heading back next door to deal with my little monsters, I walked in to found the boys and the girls in the living room either drawing or playing with their wooden cars. I locked the door and slide the bolt that the childern couldn't reach before walking up stairs to lay my baby down, I stayed with her for a moment before I left out thr room with the door wide open.

I peaked in my room to see the glass on the floor was gone and my bed covered with towels as steam came out of the bathroom, I walked down the stairs hearing the television from the living room. I sighed in relief knowing that would keep them busy until they realize its too quiet and start rasing hell, I walked around the kitchen grabbing ingredients as music plays from the radio.

I was almost finished mushing the potatos in the when I heard heavy footsteps come down the stairs, I set the bowel of bread down on the table before grabbing the pot of green beans and started scooping them onto our plates. I looked up to see John in a under shirt with suspender keeping his trousers up, he smiled at me taking a seat at the head of the table.

"Can you cut the meatloaf and separate them." I asked setting the meatloaf in front of him, he nodded making me walk out towards the living room.

"Mama." They complain at once as I shut off the tv set.

"Dinner's ready. If yall behave I let you have one more hour of tv and that's it." The all got up nodding heading towards the kitchen, I went up stairs to check on my little girl to found her just waking up.

"Hi, pudding. You hungry?" She yawned nodding rubbing her eyes, she blinked a couple of times before looking at me with her brown doe eyes. I smiled at her playing with her curls before kissing her brown skin.

"Ew, mama." She giggles as I kissed her chubby cheeks.

"Ew? You don't like mommy's kisses anymore." She shook her head as I picked her up off her bed and carried her out the room.

"Oh, man. I guess I have to find someone else to give my special kisses to now." I said sighing looking away from her in thought.

"...hmmm maybe baba would like my special kisses." I shrugged walking into the kitchen I walked over to her brother and sisters giving them a kiss on the head. Her brows furrowed in anger and her nose scrunched up.

"No." Her daughter snapped covering my mouth to stop me from giving out kisses.

"...mine special kisses." I laughed before giving her a couple kisses before setting her down down next to me.

"Dad?" John's oldest looks over at him in question.

"Yea."

"I was wondering if I can get a new bike, since Katie wants my old one." John swallowed his food and looked at me before looking at him.

"Yeah, sure. I take you tomorrow." John's son smile before going back eating his food.

"Can Katie and I get new dresses." John smiled shrugging.

"Sure. Maybe new shoes as well." Both girls smiled at each other excited about going new stuff.

"How about you, darling. Do you want something." He asked our daughter.

" I want a new doll." She says excited.

"Your wish is mine command." He smirked clapping his hands togther, I wanted to badly to go across this table and punch him.

"How about you, mama bear. How about a new set of diamond earrings." I gave him a tight smile before shaking my head.

"No, thank you. I'm fine." I says looking back down at my plate missing John's small frown, the phone ringed making him get up and answer it. I tried hearing him talk on the phone as the childern talk amount each other, after about a couple minutes of talking to whoever it was he hunged up.

He took a seat back glancing up at me for a quick second before continuing eating his meal, we all finally finished our dinner when I gave the childern pound cake for dessert. Katie and her brother watched over the younger ones as me and John clean the dishes.

"I'm going to leave soon. Tommy called a family meeting." I looked over at him with looked concerned.

"At this hour?" He nodded.

"He said it's important."

"Okay, do you know how long you be." He shake his head.

"Okay, I'll fix you a plate just in case you get hungry again." I said cleaning the last dish and heading over to the stove to make John a plate.

"Thank you." He said placing it on the counter.

"My offer still stands about the jewelry." I glanced at him with a look.

"I'm good, Johnny." He sighed moving closer towards me as I bumped into the counter near the sink as he pushed his body up against me.

"I'm really am sorry for what happened today." He said squeezing my waist.

"I know you are." which is why I know you do it again because you know I forgive you for you infidelity.

I leaned up kissing the corner of his mouth, "I love you." I whispered.

"I love you, too." He planted a kiss on my head, he grabbed his plate as I walked him towards the door, he gave a quick kiss on my cheek before heading towards his car.

Back Again

Requested by × @shyjellyfish1

John sat lumped in his chair as Thomas talked, his eyes bore around the room not really paying attention to his brother. His mind wondered to a memory that he been frequently visiting lately, one of his special memories of his sweet beauty.

John pulled his lover over to the ferris wheel, he looked over to see (y/n) glancing up at the wheel.

"What's wrong? Scared of heights." He grinned making (y/n) glare at him.

"Shut up, Jonathan." John scrowl at the mention of his full name, she knows how much he hates to be called it making it easy to get under his skin.

"Don't be lashing out on me, because you too much of a pussy–" She slapped the back of his head.

"Shut up. I'm not scared and I'm not a pussy." He glared at her rubbing his head as they took another step, she suddenly felt nauseous noticing they were almost to the front.

"I-I'm just a bit timorous." she gulp feeling a lump in her throat, John raised his eyebrow confused.

" Timorous?" she smiled faintly looking at him.

"A feeling of nervousness, fear, or lack of confidence." He looked awed nodding in understanding.

"Right, right, right." He says, John smirked glancing at (y/n) noticing his girlfriend was a bit at ease. One of the reason, (y/n) loved about John he could make her feel better without even trying.

"Next!" (y/n) felt her blood run cold as she glanced up at the wheel, john gave the tickets to the operator whispering something to him before turning to her and reaching for her hand.

"Hey, it's going to be alright. I'm right here." He whispered bringing her hand to his lips, she nodded before he helped her onto the car.

He slide right next to her as the operator closed the small door and locked the latched, John squeezed her hand caress her hand with his thumb. (Y/N) jolted moving closer to John making him smirk, she held his arm as the ride creaked.

"What was that?" She asked scared, he chuckled kissing her forehead.

"It's fine it just the machine, babe." She nodded quickly burying her face in his chest, they were on the top when the ride jerk to the stop causing (y/n) to looking around and look over the car.

"What the fuck just happend? Did this thing just break down?" She said freaking out, John chuckled with arm around her.

"It's fine, babe–."

"The fuck it is." She said looking down at the crowd forming.

"Babe. It's fine." He tried assuring her, the ride jerked again causing her to cling to him.

"oh my god, oh my god, oh my god." She repeated.

John looked over the car to see a crowd, before glancing at his girl.

" (Y/N). Your fine." He said again, (y/n)'s eyes were closed.

"If you say it's fine one more time I'm going to punch you in the fucking throat." She said through clenched teeth, she could hear him chuckled rubbing her back pulling her closer.

"It's beautiful tonight." He moved a strand of curl behind her ear making her open her eyes, she looked up starry night sky before looking over at John.

"Yeah, it is." She smiled up at him, he looked down at her with a smirk before leaning towards her pressing lips to hers.

John couldn't resist exploring her mouth tasting cotton candy and beer they had earlier, his hand squeezed her hips as his other hand went under her dress.

"Ever fucked on a ferris wheel before?" He mumbled against her lips, she moaned feeling his hand gazed her inner thigh.

"No, and I'm not gonna start today. " He pulled back face all red with a frown, (y/n) smiled pulling him back by his collar.

"But, I could do you one better for now." She purred, her hand rubbing his member through his pants causing him to moan and lean his head back making her kiss his neck.

The ride jerked again causing her to pull away and John to look annoyed, the wheel started moving again making people on the ride cheer. (Y/N) sighed in relief before looking over at John who wore a irritated look, she glanced at his pants as he shifted in his seat.

The wheel stopped making the operator open the door to the car, (y/n) stood not before feeling John's crotch against her back as they look for another ride to get on.

"You owe me a little something when we get back to the house." He whispered in her ear before tickling waist making her giggled.

"John? JOHN?" John looked up looking around the room before his eyes landed on Tommy.

"Wha." He looked boredly at Tommy making Arthur shook his head, well Tommy looked irrited at him.

"I said how are the numbers coming along." John sighed before telling him the rates and the money flowing through

"Alright." He said moving along to other business making John roll his eyes, after the meeting john went for a drive. He didn't feel like like going to the garrison for a drink or home for that matte, he wanted to be alone with his thoughts.

He was in London when he parked his car couple of blocks away from her shop, he would walk by it looking through the window trying to get a glimpse of her even for a second. It been couple of years since (y/n) left for paris for school that was two years before the war, after John got drafted he went looking for her when she stopped sending letters. He looked everywhere around her school and apartment she was staying with her roommates, and couldn't find her he believed she was died.

Until the war was over, a year later he found out that she somehow made it back to london. John wanted to go to her but he was different and he could tell that she was the same girl....the same beautiful woman he fall in love with and he didn't want to ruin that by coming back into her life.

He walked to her Cafè looking through the window and to see her counting money behind the cashier register, he hesitated for minute before walking through the door.

"I'll be right with you." I said hearing the bell ring, I finished counting the money and sitting it back in the register.

"Welcome to Heaven on Earth. The greatest bakery in West–" I stopped looking at John, he took off his cap.

"Hello, my love." John says walking closer to me, I stared stunned at him.

We stood there staring at each other for a moment before he spoke up again, "I know I should have come sooner, but I didn't want to intrude and–" I rushed around the counter and jumped into John's arm burning my face in his neck.

"shut up, dummy." I muttered feeling his arms wrapped around my waist, he kissed along my cheek before kissing my lips.

"I missed you." He mumbled against my lips.

"I missed you, too." He pulled away leaning his head against mines breathing heavy.

"I'm sorry...I'm so fucking sorry." John shook his head making me grab his face.

"You don't have to apologize, john. I understand why you did it..." he buried his head in my neck.

"I moved on...I was married...I had kids...fuck..." I could feel him shaking against my shoulder as he cries.

"I wish it was you...I wish they were yours."

"Oh, John. It's not like it's the end of the world, we have can do all of it." He looked at me.

"You still want to be with me?" I laughed nodding my head.

"There's nobody I rather be with than you. " He smiled pulling me in for another kiss.

"I love you so much."

"I love you too, johnny."

The reader and sam have an argument and Sam says that he doesn't love her and that he alone dates her because of Emily the reader breaks down crying.

requested by x @ilovehobi101

Emily watched nervously as her soulmates argue in the living room, they had been at each other heads for the past two hours.

"When I tell you to do something, you do it," Sam shouted.

"I don't know if you notice, but I'm not one of your betas you could bark orders to like a dog." she hissed, he glared knowing how much they hate being referred to as dogs.

"Don't call us that." He growled, Emily noticed Sam started to breathe heavy making her intense up pulling (y/n) by the arm as she insert herself in between them.

"Stop it. Both of you." Her hand was on Sam's chest at arm's distance looking between the two.

"Stay out of this Emily."

"Don't talk to her like that." Sam turned his gaze back to (y/n).

"I can talk to MY girlfriend anyway I want to you know why, because she's My mate your just a tag-along that I let stay here because of Emily." (y/n) and emily looked taken back at sam.

"SAM." Emily hissed glaring at him, sam knew (y/n) biggest insecurity was feeling like a plus one in their relationship.

"Screw you." She sniffled rubbing the tears from her eyes as she rushed out their house and went for a walk in the woods, emily called out for (y/n) running to the door to see her girlfriend rushing into the woods.

"Let her go if we're lucky she find herself a new home." sam said still heated from the fight he just had with his lover, emily snapped her head to her mate and stalked towards him making him stepped back a little at her heated glare.

"Do you always have to a asshole." emily hissed. sam looked taken back at emily she usually be calm when things like this happened.

"Emily-"

"No, you better go fix this or your not just gonna be losing a girlfriend tonight." emily walked out of the living room as she slammed the door to their shared room. Sam sighed rubbing his head before walking to the back door and phasing tracking (y/n)'s scent.

(y/n) sat on the ground playing with a small flower in her hands, when she heard sounds coming from the woods. She was unfazed by the sounds as stared motionless at the flower, she finally looked up seeing sam walking towards her still shirtless making her look away staring on the grass underneath her.

"hey." she didn't say anything making him take a seat next to her, (y/n) shook a bit from wind blowing through the woods sam noticed scooting a bit closer to her.

"I'm sorry for what I said earlier, I didn't mean to take it that far." (y/n) felt his warm hand engulf hers making her look at him.

"I love you so much I'm sorry that I hurt you like that," (y/n) sighed,

"No matter how much I want to hate you, right now. I can't..." he moved a strand of hair out of her face before leaning in to his girlfriend, (y/n) grabbed sam's upper arm pulling him closer as they kissed.

"Let's go home." he mumbled against her lips, he gave her on more kiss on the lips before her up and walking next to back home.

Emily waited outside on the porch for her boyfriend and girlfriend, she grinned looking up to see her mate arm around their girlfriend's shoulder and (y/n) arm around his waist.

"Happy to see you two are in good graces, again." emily says making them nodded.

"Yeah, we're good.." (y/n) glanced at sam before looking emily with a smile.

"how about we go to bed, i want to show both my girls how much i love the." emily giggled when (y/n) kissed her neck pulling her into the house with sam following behind.