BACK 2 U! ASAP!!

BACK 2 U! ㅡ ASAP!!

synopsis- Australia 2017; summer, the glistening sea and an uneventful breakup. you wouldn't think the dream of becoming an idol would come true, yet here you are standing in a ginormous practice room ready to meet your members boyfriend. you would be happy for her, if only the boy she loved wasn't your high-school sweetheart- Jake Sim.

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“Listen Heeseung I—”

“No, I think you need to listen.” Heeseung’s eyes held so many emotions that it scared you. He absolutely hates your guts for keeping something as big as this from him, doesn’t he?

“I’m not upset.”

What?

“I know you’re probably overthinking about how much I will hate you after finding this out but really, I’m not mad.” Heeseung sighs, digging his hands into the warm pockets of his sweater, “whatever happened back then, I don’t blame you for now. It takes two to make a child, doesn’t it? I just wished you would’ve told me instead of doing this all by yourself.”

You look down, biting the inside of your cheek. You’re grateful that Heeseung’s not mad—but why did this seem to hurt you more? Why does Lee Heeseung being so understanding feel like a stab to the chest?

“I was so scared Hee,” you say, voice cracking, “I mean, we were barely finishing high school and our graduation was in a few weeks… I was just scared. I remember how you would always talk about how much you wanted to become a singer after graduation and I felt like if I told you I was pregnant, I would ruin your dreams. All I cared about then was you and the baby, Heeseung. I was scared you’d tell me to… well you know… abort it.”

“Y/N,” Heeseung places one of his hands in yours, “you know I would never do that. It’s your body, and it’s your choice. The Lee Heeseung back then would’ve agreed with me right now as well.”

Looking into the eyes of Heeseung made you let out a quiet sob, your hands quickly coming up to cover your jaw and face.

“Shhh, it’s okay.” Heeseung pulls you into his arms, his embrace felt like a cup of warm milk and cookies.

“I always thought about what would’ve happened if I had told you,” you mumble into his sweater, “I never wanted Won to grow up without a father, but as his mother, I wanted to do what was best for him. I figured it’d hurt less not knowing your reaction than knowing it was a negative one.”

Lee Heeseung usually never cries, but for the 2nd time this morning, his tears fall down endlessly.

“I would’ve dropped everything for you and Jungwon,” Heeseung whispers, “I would’ve done anything for the two of you. I still would do anything for the two of you.”

You pull away, wiping your remaining tears. Lee Heeseung thinks you look absolutely beautiful despite your wet cheeks and tired face.

“I always wanted a kid too, you know?” Heeseung says softly, “I always told myself during high school that I was going to become a singer, get this gigantic house, marry you and have children with you. I guess it’s because my father wasn’t around much that I wanted to become the father he never was. I wanted to provide nothing but love for my children, and I was never going to be like that man. I would never lay a hand on them, nor would I neglect them in any way.”

You remember Heeseung talking about his father a lot back in high school. He told you how he made a promise to himself that he would never become his father, and despite how much he hated his father, deep inside, he still misses him from time to time.

A loud cry from upstairs makes the two of you quickly run up the stairs. It seems like Heeseung got his parent instincts quickly.

“What’s wrong baby?” You ask your crying son as you pick him up.

“Wonie h-hit head.” Jungwon cries as he points to the wall where he had hit his head, “Wonie hurts.”

You frown at your baby’s pain, quickly checking his head for any injuries. Thankfully, it was nothing.

Heeseung feels his heart swell up as he watches you with Jungwon, a sudden feeling of pride filled his body.

“Hi Wonie,” Heeseung says. “It’s Appa, do you remember me from a few days ago?”

Jungwon tilts his head, “appa? Wonie r-remember.”

Heeseung swore his cheeks almost hurts from how wide his smile was. “Oh! You do remember? Well I’m back again Wonie, aren’t you happy to see your appa?”

Jungwon slowly nods, his tiny brain still processing everything Heeseung was saying. I mean, could you blame him? His uncle had him thinking he was his father just a few days ago!

You pass Jungwon into Heeseung’s arms, your son giggling in joy after Heeseung blows raspberries into his belly.

“Appa is so happy to see you!” Heeseung grins, “is Wonie happy to see Appa?”

“Wonie… Wonie is happy.” Jungwon smiles, his cute dimple making you shriek internally.

You melt at the sight in front of you, and you’re unbelievably overwhelmed with joy that you can’t stop smiling. The secret that you kept inside of you for so long has been let go off—like a huge weight off of your shoulders.

Maybe Park Sunghoon did do you a favor after all.

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SYNOPSIS. back then, you and lee heeseung were the perfect high school sweethearts, sharing kisses under the stars and going to homecoming and prom together. however, that soon turned bitter when you find out you’re pregnant. you break up with heeseung after graduation, leaving him alone with questions filling his head. it just so happens that 4 years later, you and heeseung get paired up as partners at your university when you find out heeseung has a new girlfriend, but his feelings for you have never been stronger than ever.

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a taste of something new — 35. long night

a/n: hehe. that's all i have to say. the last part of this chapter was part of a completely different chapter but i had to discard it so i recycled the important part and turned it into this mess. enjoy!

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warnings: language, mentions of sex (?), someone is a little drunk, everyone is dumb and blind and i'm sorry but we're doing the idiots to lovers arc now, poorly proofread

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08:24 PM

Stupid.

That's what he is. The most utterly, disgustingly stupid person on the whole fucking planet. 

What was he even thinking when he agreed to do this? What does he think is gonna happen when you come back? Will he really be able to "go back to normal", whatever normal is in this situation?

He looks at his phone that's just sitting there beside him on that couch. Deep down he hopes he'll hear another ding, one that brings better news than the information that you're leaving for the night and you'll be back on the next day. 

This is so dumb. 

If he could at least do something else to keep his mind busy, but his options are extremely limited. If he starts playing any online games, his friends will immediately know he's not with you when he's supposed to be out of town, seeing nicer places with his loving girlfriend as a way to celebrate your two-month anniversary a few days early. And for that exact same reason, he also can't call Yeonjun to complain about the current events. He just has to suck it up and sit there in front of his television, watching whatever the hell Netflix suggests, but even that feels like an impossible task, because he keeps seeing you.

You're there, you're everywhere in that stupid movie. You're in the daisies used for decoration in the room, you're in the main character's cat's clinginess, you're in the coffee the protagonists share, you're in the heated make-out session they have at some point for no stupid reason other than their own hormones acting up.

It wouldn't be so bad to be away from you if he didn't know what you're up to. 

You're about to go somewhere and find someone else to hook up with, because he's not actually your boyfriend and you wouldn't want to use him and break his heart, and while you deserve some props for at least having the decency to think like that, it's still annoying how the thought of you touching someone else irks him to his bones.

With a frown that you'd most definitely make fun of, he decides to stop the movie and switch to Haikyuu, because he'd rather rewatch anime boys playing volleyball for the millionth time than have intrusive thoughts poking his mind.

09:48 PM

Odi is playing on his lap when the notification sound coming from Soobin's phone nearly makes him accidentally push the hedgehog to the floor. Nearly. 

He reaches for it hurriedly, his mind racing at the possibility of what it might be, but it turns out to just be a discount coupon from the local delivery app. 

The phone is tossed at the nearest cushion, and the sudden movement is enough to startle poor Odi and make him hiss.

"Sorry, little dude," Soobin says, petting the animal's head softly to calm it down. "Your mom is just giving me a headache." The hedgehog doesn't look interested at all in whatever drama his owner has going on, but that doesn't stop the man from complaining anyway. It's not like he can talk to anyone else. "Maybe I should just tell Yeonjun about this. I'm sure he won't tell the others, and at least I'll be able to talk to someone." A tired sigh escapes from his lips. "Or I can just keep talking to you, right?"

The television is long forgotten, though there's still an episode of the anime playing on the screen. Nothing can hold his attention for too long, so he concludes he should probably give up on the idea of watching something. 

After turning off the TV and returning Odi to his playpen, Soobin goes to his bedroom and grabs a pen and the old notebook he uses for his lyrics.

Going through the pages, he finds multiple unfinished works. There's that Christmas song he told you about on your date at the botanical garden, another song without a title, and the first draft for Maze In The Mirror, which he discarded after coming up with better lyrics for it. Maybe he should write something about being a wimp, right? That's all that he is, apparently.

10:29 PM

Somehow, he finds the right flow to write something and manages to keep his mind busy. The lyrics sound a bit too emo for his liking, and that makes him feel like he's overreacting, but at least he could find a distraction that works better than what the television had to offer.

Of course, that doesn't stop his heart from racing all over again when his phone buzzes on the desk, just for his face to drop in disappointment when he sees the contact name on the screen. However, he still decides to reply, for some odd reason. 

Unfortunately, regret hits him as soon as he understands what the texts are about. He ends up contacting you anyway, just to be safe.

"Have fun," he mocks himself and rolls his eyes. "Yeah, have some fucking fun out there while I–" 

Another buzz, another rush, but it turns out to just be a tweet from Beomgyu about the date he just had with Yeji, because of course Choi Beomgyu would turn out to be better than him at this. Of course Beomgyu would get the girl he likes, because he actually knows how to charm people without having to fake it in exchange for money.

Soobin should just take a long shower and try to force himself to sleep, right? This night is gonna be way too long if he doesn't. So he puts his stuff away and goes to the bathroom to do just that, once again doing his best to keep his mind clear.

11:38 PM

He's comfortable in bed, ready to sleep, but he can't quite get to the falling asleep part when his mind seems to be working at a million miles per hour.

"Fuck it," he mutters, grabbing his phone. He opens his chat with Yeonjun, ready to come clean about everything just so he can ask for some advice, but a new notification grabs all of his attention.

Hell, he's so weak.

Yep. Weak and stupid.

He shouldn't really do all of that, but what else would he do? Let you roam around by yourself when you're clearly under the influence of alcohol? If anything happens to you, he'll hate himself for it. More than that, he doesn't want anything to happen, regardless of whose fault it would be, because he cares about you.

Thankfully he sleeps in clothes that are good enough for going outside at nearly midnight, so all he has to do after he leaves his bed is put on a black hoodie that kind of matches his gray sweatpants, put his sneakers on at the entrance, grab his keys and leave.

And while his feet take him to the station, his mind keeps wondering why is it that all it takes is you needing something, anything, for him to go back to being a soft idiot just to make sure you're okay.

12:13 AM

After bringing you to his apartment, he orders the fast-food you wanted so bad while you go shower and change into more comfortable clothes — his own, of course, because you obviously didn't have a change of clothes in your bag. 

It's actually a relief that you're getting cleaned up, because he could smell someone else's cologne on you as soon as he picked you up, and the thought of you getting close enough to some other guy to the point where his perfume would stick to you could quite literally drive him insane, and not in a good way.

These thoughts don't haunt him for too long, though. When he comes back from the door with the food that has just arrived and sees you all curled up on the couch, the only thing in his mind is how adorable you look in his shirt, and he has to fight the smile that tries to creep up to his lips.

"Got your burger," he announces without any hint of emotion in his voice, walking over to where you are.

"Did you get fries too?" Your expectant eyes look up at him, and your hands reach for the paper bag he's carrying. "I'm really, really, reeeeeally craving some fries right now."

"That's something you should've said before I ordered everything," he counters, earning a frown and a pout from you.

"Well, you can't order burgers without fries!" While whining for no reason, you open the bag and start taking the food out. "But I guess this is better than eating by myself. I think I'd choose you over fries anyway, if I had to. Fries won't look at me and complain about how the coffee of a random cafe is not as good as the one they make just because they want to be complimented about how much of a great barista they are or whatever."

He just keeps his arms folded and watches while you go on your little rant, finding some amusement in how you're so focused on frowning and mumbling that you're not even paying attention to the stuff you just put on the coffee table.

"And fries won't take me to a stupid cat cafe or play with my sister, too," you go on. "Fries aren't very good friends, if you think about it. They just get eaten and disappear. I mean, yeah, you're annoying sometimes, and I think we're kinda mad at each other, but at least you're not a fry. I think you're a good friend." 

"Should I send these back, then?" His head nods at the fries you somehow didn't even see, and as soon as realization dawns on you, your eyes widen.

"Oh my God, you're the best." Hurriedly, you grab a few of those for yourself and shove them in your mouth. "Ohhh, these are so good!"

He covers his lips with the back of his hand and pretends to cough just to hide his smile. Of course he wouldn't leave you without your precious fries.

"Yeah, I guess so. Anyway, I'm gonna get us some soda, be right back. You can pick the movie tonight," he says, although it's probably a bad idea to leave you in control of anything while you're not sober, but… well. It's better than thinking about you in someone else's arms.

12:47 AM

It's impossible to stay mad at you when you're like that. You keep commenting excitedly about the scenes of that movie you've watched a million times, pointing out your favorite moments, and eating like a child. Any resentment that Soobin could be carrying up until that moment gets dissolved by your presence. 

It's nice to feel like things are going back to normal, even if it's not exactly what his heart desires.

You don't last very long, though. One moment you're watching the explosions on the screen, the next you're fast asleep on Soobin's shoulder. His body tenses up as soon as he feels your head plopping down on him, and he's too scared to move an inch and risk waking you up. 

After a moment, he finally reaches his hand to fix your hair, sighing at the sight of you so comfortably using his body as your personal pillow. You drive him crazy sometimes, but maybe he should appreciate the madness that comes along with you. It's different, it's challenging, but it's just as beautiful as you. Maybe he shouldn't complain.

"Y/N," he tries calling you, his voice barely above a whisper, but you don't respond.

With the utmost care, he gets up and collects you in his arms, carrying you all the way to his bedroom, despite struggling a little bit with it. He tucks you in his bed and makes sure you're comfortable and warm, and he may or may not be lingering there for a little longer just to watch you sleep so peacefully. He runs a hand through your hair and smiles to himself when you let out a soft sigh, but when he notices he might be acting like a weirdo, he decides to stop and get away from you.

Just a few hours ago he was mad that you weren't with him, he can't be so stupid to the point of acting like a lovesick teenager right now. Where's his pride? Where's his dignity?

"Babe…" Your drowsy voice calls out just as he's about to leave the bedroom. He halts for a second, but ultimately decides you're probably just dreaming. "Babyyy…" You whine, as if you want attention.

He sighs and stops by the door. You couldn't possibly be calling him by pet names right now, in your sleep, but he decides to try answering anyway.

"Yeah?" 

"Can you get me… another blanket? Hm… I'm still cold…" You drag out your words, and he's 100% sure you're not completely awake, though it's obvious now that you're not totally asleep either.

"Of course," he says softly, ignoring how his heart is racing at the fact you just called him baby for the second time in the same night, and for no reason at all. He keeps telling himself it's probably just the force of habit seeping into your sleepy, not totally sober brain. You call him like that all the time in front of other people, after all.

Still, he does what you asked and adds another layer on top of you to make sure you feel warmer.

"Is that better?" He asks and you sigh contentedly.

"Yeah, much better… Thank you, my baby."

Fuck, his heart is not strong enough for this at all. His ears and cheeks are burning red at this point, and he's thankful you're not truly awake, or else you'd be taking the piss out of him right now, or maybe even making things awkward.

"It's okay. Sleep well… baby." He can feel adrenaline and anxiety dancing together in his chest as soon as the last word falls from his own lips in a whisper, but the corners of your mouth quirk up so prettily that he feels like the embarrassment and the near heart attack are worth it. 

He catches himself thinking that if you really were his girl, he'd gladly peck your lips right now to kiss you goodnight. He'd make sure you know just how precious you are to him, how his life gained colors he didn't even know existed when you barged into it. He'd explain to you why he got so cold over these past few weeks, he'd make you understand that it was just because you make him panic and not know what to do around you, and how that made his walls go up once again.

But he can't think too much about it, so all he does is lean closer and kiss your forehead, then he stands up again to leave you alone.

However, you whine once more, and he bites his lips to stifle the laugh that attempts to escape. He kneels beside the bed and reaches for your hair, stroking it gently. Maybe this will help you relax and sleep better. 

"Just sleep, Y/N… You had a long night," he says as softly as he can. Sure, the long night probably involved making out with strangers, but it was still a long night.

And for a moment you do relax, your body loosens up, your lips part, your breathing is regular and calm. He stays there with you for a few minutes, caressing your hair and watching you with adoring eyes. 

You're so beautiful, he thinks to himself as he traces his index finger between your eyes and down to the tip of your nose. It's a shame you'd never see him in the same way, but he knew what he was getting into when he agreed to help the girl who couldn't stay in a relationship for too long. All of this is his own fault, and he knows it very well.

When you look like you're actually in deep sleep, he moves his hand away, but you whimper and reach for it as soon as it's gone.

"No, Soobin… Baby, please…" You mumble.

Now, Soobin has never been the strongest man around. Once again, he's weak, and you make him even weaker. It's a tragedy, but right now he feels like he likes the mess you make out of his heart, especially when you look so peaceful. And the fact that you just said his name and called him baby just makes his mind race as much as his heartbeat, because maybe that little nickname is something you actually associate with him.

"Do you want me to cuddle with you?" He offers in a whisper, and you hum a positive response. "Okay. I'll just turn the lights off, is that okay? Can you wait for a second?"

"Yeah."

And so he goes against his better judgment and does as promised. After turning off the lights, he finds his way back to his bed and lies with you, bringing you to his chest. He wraps an arm around you and rubs circles on your back very slowly, allowing your soft breathing to become his lullaby, as the rhythm of his heart is enough to keep you in your slumber.

Everything's so quiet and it feels too intimate, and he can only hope you won't remember any of this in the morning. It'd just make everything worse again, and if he has to go back to pretending like nothing's happening to keep you close, maybe that's what he should do after tonight.

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pairing: idol!lee heeseung x non-idol!f!reader

summary: when your boyfriend of almost eight years cheats on you your senior year of university, you decide that you’re done with anything and everything to do with love. that is, until you meet a guy who sings love songs for a living.

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a taste of something new — 33. conflicted

a/n: ..........hi. i'm sorry. i've been struggling to write stuff :( but i tried to put something nice together, so hopefully you'll enjoy it <3

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Since the kissing incident, your interactions with Soobin have been slightly awkward. Not like it was when you first started pretending to go out with him, because at least back then you weren't afraid to loosen up and try to get him to do the same, but more like you don't actually know how to talk to him without thinking about his hands on you and how his lips felt against yours. 

It's wrong, you know it, and you hate yourself for it.

You've even considered traveling to one of the neighboring towns on the weekend just to go to a party far away from everyone you know and find someone to hook up with, because you're absolutely sure that would be enough to fix all of your problems. You'd need Soobin's help with that, though, because he'd have to pretend you're just spending the night with him. And how are you supposed to bring that up? 

"Oh, hey, by the way, can you pretend I'm sleeping over at your place so I can go on a quick trip and sleep around to get over the urge to make out with you?"

Yeah, that's not gonna happen. 

To make matters worse, his younger friends decided today would be a good day to actually hang out with you, so you're gonna have to act all lovey-dovey for hours again when you barely even know how to act around Soobin. The last time you tried to put up an act in front of your friends — just two days ago, mind you — felt awkward enough to the point where you started thinking kissing him was a bad idea in the first place. You should've never brought that up.

But alas, you have to be a good actress if you wanna survive.

Soobin and Taehyun left to buy some stuff for the night, leaving you, Giselle — who so kindly tagged along with you — and Hueningkai chatting in your boyfriend's living room for a while. The youngest is super easy-going, so soon the three of you were immersed in a conversation about pets and stuffed animals, because he's not afraid to admit his love for his plushies, and you admire him for that. 

The sudden sound of rain outside the window catches your attention, though, because it was definitely unexpected and, well, the boys haven't come back yet. You even try texting Soobin, only to hear the notification sound of his phone coming from the other couch.

"I'm gonna kill him," you mutter, throwing imaginary darts at the abandoned phone, and you're about to ask Hueningkai to try texting Taehyun when he tries to reassure you.

"They'll probably wait it out, you shouldn't worry too much. Taehyun's smart."

Well, if he says so… You just sigh and nod, going back to the previous conversation, at least for now.

However, about ten minutes later the front door opens, startling the three of you, and as soon as you turn, you see Soobin's tall figure coming in, completely drenched.

"Soobin!" You're not sure whether you should feel worried or mad, but promptly get up to rush towards the entrance nonetheless. "What the fuck, why would you walk back home in this rain?"

"Was I supposed to wait for the next one?" He retorts, slightly annoyed, as you take the plastic bags from his hands, so you glare at him.

"No, baby," you add the pet name in a sweet tone, to remind him you're supposed to be a loving couple, "I'm just worried both of you might get sick. You could've waited until it stopped."

"Uhh… To be fair, I was the one who convinced him we should come back," Taehyun intervenes while taking off his wet shoes, trying to ease the tension. "Sorry, Y/N. It was a stupid idea, we were just feeling impatient."

"It's alright, I get it." What would you do, anyway? Tell Taehyun off? Never. So you sigh and give Soobin another pointed look before leaving the bags a few steps away from them. "Should I grab you some towels?" You offer, and your boyfriend sighs and nods.

"I'd appreciate it." Rather than passive-aggressive, he sounds tired now. "You know where to find them, right?"

"Yeah, yeah," you reply, ready to go grab them.

"Hey," he calls and reaches for you, holding your wrist and silently inviting you to come closer. You furrow your eyebrows, but still get close enough for him to lean down and kiss your forehead. "Sorry. I shouldn't snap at you. I'm just stressed out, there was a long line and people were being loud and annoying, and I didn't expect to get caught in the rain," he explains quietly while tucking your hair behind your ear.

And there he is, your actor-friend remembering to play his part, speaking softly while Taehyun's big eyes watch him discreetly. You can't be sure whether he means those words or not, because you can't be sure whether he's talking to you as your friend and partner in crime or as your "boyfriend", so you just play along.

"It's okay," you respond just as tenderly, "just let me get those towels now."

"Okay. Thank you." Without any kind of warning, he simply pecks your lips before letting you go, and you find yourself having to smile and act as if that's his regular behavior.

Fortunately, by the time you come back with a pair of towels in your hands, the hurricane that he caused in your heart just a moment ago has come down to a harmless breeze, so you're able to take the groceries to the kitchen with the help of Hueningkai while Soobin insists that Taehyun should take a warm shower first.

Soon you end up in the bedroom with Soobin, helping him pick some simple clothes from the wardrobe for himself and his friend. The problem is that your gaze keeps wandering towards him, especially his torso, due to how his wet white shirt keeps sticking to his skin. He doesn't have a toned body, you know damn well he hates exercising, but it's still a nice view, especially from the back. His shoulder blades look magnificent to your eyes. 

His damp hair being all messy and sticking to his forehead is another sight you wish you could keep in your mind for a long time every time he faces you, and you catch yourself thinking about how you miss running your fingers through his strands.

"Y/N?" His voice snaps you out of your daze, so you immediately look away and hum in response. "You can go back to the living room now if you want."

"I feel like I should help you, though," you reply. 

"There's not much to help with. And you're mostly just staring, anyway," he points out.

"Well, that's because I missed you," you blurt out in a quiet tone without even thinking, and you can see the sudden flush of red on his face before he turns away to pretend he's looking for something inside his wardrobe. "I mean, we've been, uh– You know, we haven't seen each other as often and I just, um, I guess I–"

"Yeah, I know," he cuts you off, moving a few pieces of clothing just to keep himself busy, probably. "Look, I know it's weird. It's just, um, I don't really–"

He's also interrupted, this time by his friend, who's calling out for him from the bathroom. He sighs and looks at you briefly, and you gesture for him to go there and hand Taehyun a change of clothes. Whatever he wants to say, it's not worth leaving his friend naked in the bathroom just so you can hear him say it. You can do this later, preferably when you're alone and nobody's wet and cold from the rain.

While Soobin takes a shower himself, the others help you in the kitchen, preparing the snacks for the movie night. The youngest ones have an interesting dynamic between them, with Hueningkai sounding way too naive sometimes, and Taehyun sounding like he could be the smart, cool uncle at a barbecue party. They're not as loud as Beomgyu and Yeonjun, although Kai's laughter can be nearly deafening sometimes, but it's clear that they're a lot better at dealing with people than Soobin is. Maybe, in the end, your fake boyfriend is the introvert they collectively decided to adopt. 

By the time he comes out of the shower, the snacks are all ready to be consumed, so he helps by bringing the stuff to the living room and setting everything down. He also brings some light blankets for everyone, since the rain has made the temperature go down, and obviously shares one with you to make you look like a cutesy couple. 

It's strange how everything feels so awkward and so natural at the same time. At first, when the movie's just starting, he's all stiff while keeping an arm around your shoulders, but all it takes is a few minutes for him to get a lot more relaxed, using his free hand to absentmindedly play with the bracelet he gave you when he "asked you to be his girlfriend", poking the little silver feather around.

You chuckle lightly when you notice it, and he automatically tightens his arm around you, bringing you closer to his body, though his eyes are still trained on the television. It makes you wonder whether his actions are totally conscious or not, but you're not about to verbalize your questions. Instead, you test the waters by moving your hand until you can interlock your fingers with his, and he reciprocates.

Okay, what's up with him? Is he enjoying it? Or is he playing his part? Will he go back to being cold when the movie ends? First he's rude, then he's awkward, then he's sweet.

You can't pay much attention to the story, not when your mind keeps drifting to Soobin's small actions. The way his fingers play with yours, how he automatically adjusts the blanket over you whenever you move and it slides down, how he keeps you close and even lets you rest on his shoulder without any sign of discomfort. He rarely looks at you, but still plays with your hair and caresses your shoulder with his thumb at some moments. 

Which version of Soobin is this? You're not sure, but when a particularly romantic scene happens and he squeezes your hand, you have to fight the urge to kiss him, though now would be the perfect moment to do that and look like you're in love.

As if he's reading your mind, he kisses your temple, earning a sigh from you. Right, the whole point of your making-out session was so you could kiss each other comfortably in front of your friends, so maybe you should do it now, right? This is totally not because you want it, but because you have to do it.

"Baby," you whisper, turning your face to look at him. 

He does the same, and he's so close you can feel his breath, which reminds you of the night when everything went to hell.

"Hm?" His eyes don't linger on yours for too long, drifting to some other spot of your face.

God, do you really wanna do this? 

Silently, you bring your index finger to his lips, tapping them very lightly, as a wordless question. You wouldn't kiss him without his permission, especially when everything is so awkward, but you also can't ask about it out loud in front of everyone else, so that's the best way to handle the situation right now. His gaze finds yours again for a quick moment as that familiar flush of red finds his face, and you're so sure he's gonna say no that you actually regret even thinking about it. Surprisingly, he nods a second after looking at your lips, and that simple movement is enough to get your heart playing tricks on you again.

For the love of God, you really need to get laid so you can stop simping over the smallest things.

Not wanting to give your brain enough time to even think about anything else, you cup his face and bring his mouth to yours, connecting your lips very sweetly. 

It's not as hungry and desperate as it was the last time, but rather something slow and perhaps a little hesitant. His lips are as soft as you remember, and his hand still feels the same when it touches your waist. It's almost ironic how calm it all is, but that's when you feel him tensing up once again, as if both of you are doing something wrong. And yes, maybe you are, but it's all part of something else, and you have to keep that in mind.

The sound of Taehyun clearing his throat is what makes you pull back. No making out, no running out of breath, no impulsive actions, just a little act to be seen by the people around you, something sweet to make them believe your love is strong and real. Soobin's eyes remain closed, though, so you gently run your fingers down his face.

"It's okay," you whisper and give him a few quick final pecks.

He nods once again. "Okay," he echoes, slowly opening his eyes. 

And as soon as his gaze meets yours, the rush of blood finds its way to his face once again, so he looks away, focusing on the TV. Still, he keeps an arm wrapped around you and makes sure you're leaning on his shoulder once again.

The rest of the movie flies by, and by the end of it, all five of you spend some time chatting about the most random stuff. From your jobs to your passions, to the boys' teamwork to make new music in hopes of one day getting a good contract somewhere, you all learn a little bit more about each other, and Soobin keeps you close through it all.

When the time to say goodbye comes, everyone's getting ready to leave, and Giselle pokes your arm when you grab your purse.

"Aren't you gonna feel cold? It's kinda chilly outside."

The conversation that's happening between the boys just a few meters away is cut short, but you don't pay much attention to that, or even to Soobin walking past you, since you're talking to your best friend.

"Nah," you shake your head, "I'm alright. It's not that cold, anyway."

"Are you sure?" She insists, making you chuckle.

"Yeah, don't worry. What's the worse that could happen?"

"I mean… You could get sick."

"Baby, for real, don't worry. I'll take a nice shower as soon as I get home and wear some warm clothes, it's fine," you promise.

Giselle twists her lips, not quite buying it. "I don't know, Y/N. Maybe you could just ask for–"

Her words are cut off by Soobin reappearing and putting a soft zip-up hoodie over your shoulders, which makes her stare at him for a moment. 

Your face turns to look at him as well. "Uh. Thank you… baby," you say, slightly confused, and all he does is press his lips to form an almost smile, putting his dimples on full display, before going back to his friends.

Weird.

After everyone says goodbye to everyone, Soobin walks the whole group to the door, and you end up having to give him a goodbye kiss. What a tragedy. It's sweet and incredibly short, and you kiss the tip of his nose as soon as his lips are away from yours, which gets him all flustered.

"You're adorable," you chuckle, while Taehyun watches it all and tries to hold back his disgust over the PDA moment.

"Um, text me when you get home, okay?" He asks, and you nod in response, aware of the fact that Giselle will probably be gushing over that small interaction as soon as the two of you hop inside a taxi. "See you tomorrow."

"See ya, baby." One more kiss, this time on his cheek, and you finally leave with your friend, sharing the elevator with Taehyun and Hueningkai.

Though you do your very best to keep your cool, Soobin's scent on the piece of clothing you're wearing gets to your brain, making you overthink about the past few hours, which only makes you feel more conflicted.

You need to talk to him and set things straight before you go insane, but that's something you'll have to leave for later. For now, all you can do is play the smitten girlfriend role in front of everyone else and hope that it's enough to keep this whole scheme up until you reach the final due date of your make-believe relationship.

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