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tw: cheating

“leaving so soon?” unfamiliar yet familiar arm wrapped around your waist as you tried to escape from the unknown man’s bed. the more foreign the arms were, the more guilt spread around your chest; the shame of your wrongdoings. with unspoken words, you got up and left the man’s apartment. the strange route to your apartment gave you another slap of shame, just shame.

the door; unlocked. your heart started racing, million thoughts ran across your mind. he knows. how can he not? the thing was; you ran away for countless reasons; not because you were scared but because you were not bothered by every action that could possibly hurt your significant other. jaehyun was different, instead of letting you sprint away to your wonderland, he would talk about it. so unfamiliar gesture by someone you deserve no ounce of respect from.

“where were you?” billion dollar question, but was it worth winning and losing him, so you lied. “i was at my friend’s house.” you uttered softly with almost no hesitation. shameless. you shut your washroom’s door as you finally saw your reflection clearly, on the mirror in front of you. the shame arising making you look away from the mirror.

you lied. you lied. for what? at what cost? at the end, he will find out, he will know what you have been doing behind his back. he will look at you with disgust and agony. he will be in pain; caused by you, because of your wants; your unstability. you. you are the cause of what you have become now. but; jaehyun is delicate, he is gentle with what he has, cherishes what he loves; he cherishes you, loves you yet that is how you repay him.

so, you twisted the doorknob as your feet naturally brought you towards him. “i cheated, on you.” relieve was not the first thing you felt after the unspoken words left your lips. guilt, hurt and the urge to hug him. the man stood still facing you, his eyes glitched with pain, almost not believing it. “no, you are lying to me. you were with your friends.” he spoke with his raspy voice yet he did not move an inch. the jeopardy of your relationship was you, nobody else. just you.

“listen to me clearly. i went home with another man who i don’t even know anything about. i just came back from his house.” you spoke with no emotions; who are you to show your vulnerability when all you did was, hurt others? the sun shine upon through the window of your sitting room in your apartment, your eyes glanced at jaehyun’s silhouette on the floor of yours, eyes failing to glance his.

“do-” he whispered, barely audible - “do you not love me anymore? is it something i did?” he touched your cheeks, as your teary eyes met his. questions, nothing but questions flooded in your mind; how do you comfort the person you have hurt? how are you so worthy to be held by him even now? “i do. i do love you.” because you do, there is no denying, you do. there is no understanding on what you did; that is why he needs to go.

“but why-” the man was lost in his own words, forming words into sentences as he questioned you with his clouded mind, “you need to leave.” you stepped away from his palm, warmth leaving your cheeks. so familiar, yet so foreign, so distant. why do you destroy the love you recieve from your own hands; why are you the murderer of your own happiness?

“this is so fucking stupid, you lied to me then told me you cheated on me, said you love me. now you are asking me to leave?” this was his breaking point, the probability of this being a nightmare was low. “you want to stay with a woman who cheated on you?” you raised your voice, his actions were laughable, how can he stand few steps away from you and does not scream at you? how much are you able to hurt him?

“i am asking for an explanation, y/n. why did you do that?” his voice was laced with hurt and anger as he clenched and unclenched his fist, repeatedly. “i am not good with relationships neither am i convincing you that whatever i did was a mistake so you can easily forgive me. not being good in relationships is also not an excuse. i simply did not think about you when i did what i did, last night.” you wiped your tears away from your cheeks quickly, glancing at jaehyun, who was taking in what you said.

one step, two steps away from you.

the more he dragged his feets away from you, the need to step forward was desperate. you wanted to reach for his hands and hold it. ask for forgiveness, beg him to stay, anything. “i am leaving then. thank you for everything.” he smiled, sadly; tears escaping down his cheeks. so you reached out for his hands; for him to move back, once again. your palm itched, itched for his hands, you want to hold him, so much.

“yeah, that’s okay. please, know that you tried your best in this relationship. you were never the problem, please please, never blame yourself for anything. god, you gave so much love to me. you have so much love in yourself-” you smiled back at him, maybe another time, another time where you know yourself better then you can cross path with him and fall in love all over again. “so fall in love again, please be happy with someone who gives you love and happiness. i will always root for you.”

-

the sun still shines bright, it’s april again. the cherry blossom is overrated in your opinion. you personally like sitting on the rooftop of your workplace where you can observe the whole seoul.

for now, you fixed your borrowed dress as you were about to leave the venue, “you came?” the voice you yearned so much, jaehyun, he wore his black tuxedo; how perfect for a groom. he looks happy. “i would never miss your wedding.” you gave a soft smile, you stared at his eyes; happiness, warmth, still comforting. he just does not look happy, he looks in love. “i am so happy for you.”

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it’s revolution biTCHES

everyone is being upset that Simon didn't say it back when Willhelm told him "I love you"

but I think he didn't tell him so Simon would tell him back. I think we all know that he does. Willhem told him, because he wanted him to know. and I think it's a promise. with the way he looks at the camera, I think he is about the go batshit in season 2.

he told Simon "I love you" but what he meant is " I'll fight for this love. I'm sorry, that I didn't before, but I'm gonna prove myself worthy for your love"

and I'm gonna riot myself if Willhelm doesn't snap next season. I'm gonna tiot if they throw that promise out of the window.

Willhelm is pissed now, let him. let him fuck shit up like the rebel prince he wants to be.

I really love the progression of their love. Since the day they’ve met they’re so open with each other (even if their intention is to hurt and not actually create a bond) but they’re always very straightforward with how they want to do things. “Should we kiss?” “Can I wish for you to love me?” “Love me to the point you want to destroy the world for me” “I don’t think I can be happy once you disappear” etc. But there’s this one thing about Dong Kyung… she doesn’t let people see how much she’s suffering. I’ve said this earlier on, that she controls what emotions she is showing, and how she wants everyone to be ok because she hates being a burden to people. And we see that this whole episode Myul Mang just can’t with it anymore. She taught him how to read people (not only their minds) and he knows how to read her so well, he is always doing little things for her (helping at the subway, taking her to the beach, the dream, the parents) and those are all things she needs but can’t articulate. She is not used to asking for things, only to give them. It’s so obvious that her dying wish is to make people happy, buying presents for all of them, saying she loves them, caring for each one of them. Even tiny angry deity received a gift and words of comfort. She is the one dying, but she is the one making sure people are ok, not because the people in her life are not trying to, they are! but she won’t let them in. She pushes people away, she avoids contact, she tries to isolate herself in order to not make anyone hurt… BUT Myul Mang was so tired of this behavior in this episode. I feel like first he didn’t like her, so why care? And once he started caring (I’m weak for ‘my love began when I started pitying you trope) the first thing he thought of doing was comforting her. And now that they are in love he can’t just let her be her self-destructive self, he knows she needs to talk. To let it out. He didn’t need to hear she was sad, scared, that she wants to live, he knows that already. But he wanted her to say it, to acknowledge that out loud, for her own good. She spent her whole life stopping herself from crying until now. She would die and not shed a single tear if it weren’t for him. And god I love this because they actually make each other better (he is human because of her, she is living because of him). Anyways, I just love how communication is the foundation of their relationship and how much they know each other just because they pay attention.

ngl i just want my boys out from kingdom, i was expecting so many interactions but i’m still getting crumbs. i would rather want them to give me crumbs without competition. thank you

ByE 😭😭

looking right because you left

looking left because you didn’t treat me right

looking up because you let me down

*keeps his part in a heart shaped locket and wears it around my neck forever*

Not gonna lie, the god or the girl wasn’t wrong about the existence of myul mang in dong kyung’s life or just his existence in general. he did ruin or has taken many good things in her life which brings her to the way she is right now but what the god or the girl failed to grasp is even myul mang deserves to be love; his whole existence is something he does not like nor does he want. to put him in his place does not simply have to indicate that he has to see what miserableness he has caused. but dong kyung sees through all his acts, there is just a small lost boy in him that is waiting to be guided or loved, she loves that small purity in him. i think that’s the difference between the god and dong kyung.

it’s beautiful on how the show portray two point of views for myul mang but love burns hotter if it has more risks; and dong kyung risked it because she knew he would come (which pls that’s wrong. why does she do stuff like this) and that aside, i have mentioned how relatable the character dong kyung is for me because when you are sad or miserable in your own life, you tend to forget the people around you who is always there for you or is trying their best to make you feel better. so sometimes drowning yourself in your own sadness shouldn’t blind the love people have for you.

it’s a beautiful show, yes it’s cruel but it has it’s perk. + lol so much pain and it’s only episode 7

(210527) 킹덤 THE BOYZ ‘MONSTER’ (STORMBORN) | ERIC

and bang! angst

i honestly can’t wait to see our doom couple in love, like properly, openly in love, being a couple, teasing each other, bickering as they already do but as lovers, big bang 2.0 is going to have to wait, i deserve this

I watch kdramas because it fills the longing I have to be in love. To have a crush on someone where all the songs make sense. It fills that void if only for an episode where I’m not reminded that I miss what it feels like to like someone and to be liked in return.

sohn eric’s crime is that man isn’t mine and is hella attractive. i need out

no story could ever fit “love me to the point where you want to destroy the world for me” “become the first human to love me” as much as it fit doom at your service. it’s just different they won’t understand the vibe it’s different idk it makes me want to tear my heart out and cry. it’s like the glass heel finally fit cinderella kinda vibe?? anyway this show better give me a good cry i’m so exciteddddd

it’s the fucking “i can’t be loved” to “love me” “become the first human to love me” with that painful stare that was just crying for help. FOR ME i can’t do this here. yes this is where i shut down my internet, meditate and touch grass because i have to wait for 24 hours more FUCK BUT LITERALLY THEY WERE ARUGING THE WHOLE EPISODE LAST WEEK NOW ITS ALL IM GONNA OBSERVE YOU TILL IN MY EYES, YOU WILL BE ALL I WILL BE SEEING SHDKSJDK

I can tell pain is coming soon, it’s gonna happen. we gotta calm down we gotta hold on tight hskdjskdjd

i want to die die die AAH

this will be my breaking point as well as my favourite part. i love regrets AAAAAAH

I can’t wait for the time where myul mang and tak dong kyung loves each other (resulting in him being dong kyung’s most loved person) and the regrets that are gonna follow when they remember that contract lol

eric, lia, mark and giselle

If there was a kpop idol you’d want to befriend the most, who would it be? For me it’s yeri. I’ve never wanted to become besties with someone so much omg

“love me to the point you want to destroy the world for me” is that one line hits in different level i swear. i have always wanted a show like this, a slow burn of falling in love but pulling themselves back because it will be no good for each other anyway.

i’m sure my losing point will be when dong kyung is actually in the hospital and he will be tearing up while holding her hand or destructing the world as a coping mechanism. yes i am waiting for that to happen. doom at your service will be one tear jerking show and i am here for it

and juyeon having capricorn stellium? lord i’m blind this whole time

hyunjae scorpio venus???? holy shit how did i never think of that kehdksjdkd

hyunjae scorpio venus???? holy shit how did i never think of that kehdksjdkd

this screams so much pain shdksjdk

can this girl catch a break??? first she’s diagnosed with glioblastoma and finds out she’ll be dying in like 4 months, then finds out her trashy boyfriend is married and to add salt to the wound her convo with his pregnant wife goes viral with everyone hating on her for being a mistress (including her boss who shits on her for supposedly slacking off on work!!), only to come home to her idiot younger brother begging her for 500 dollars for crashing his car earlier (let’s not forget she still has to pay her hospital bills!), all on the day of her parents’ death anniversary??? i said i wanted park bo young in a mature fantasy romance i didn’t ask foR ALL THIS PAIN