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after watching the first two episodes of doom at your service, i can officially say that i’m hooked. the drama works so well for me.
the drama is eerily poetical and beautifully sad.
myul mang’s character is so refreshing. asshole deity falling in love with human girl is something kdramas have given us a lot in the past, but this one feels different so far.
we see how myul mang resents his identity — he brings doom and destruction everywhere he goes, no matter what he does, yet this very identity is vital to humanity’s survival.
his existence is inherently cruel to others & to himself, which leads him to loathes both. he’s thinking of himself for the first time, he wants the world to end so he can be free — whether that means death or something else, we’re not sure yet.
and then you have dong kyung, who’s life has been nothing but unfair and cruel, who gets forced into a contract where she has to decide whether she’ll die and bring the end of the world, or live and have the person she loves the most die.
her character is really likeable to me because it is realistic and relatable. she’s human, she gets tired & has her selfish moments where she wishes fate would be as harsh on others as it has been on her. yet, myul mang decides to pick on her again.
he’s trapping her in the same horrible fate as his.
i really cannot wait to see how their love story is going to unfold, and how much more tragic this is going to get. it’s one of those dramas where you can’t help but enjoy feeling sad while watching. it’s beautiful because it’s doomed.
also, i’m really liking the music & the cinematography so far!!!!!
doom at your service is so oddly satisfyingly-sad? the way nothing goes the way she wants, she doesn’t know what she wants to do like a normal person? i just love the way dong-kyung’s character is portrayed in the show. seo in-guk is the only actor who can nail the perfect bad boy image? it’s the vibe with his eyes and his smirk, that man is crazy please. been waiting since the smile has left your eye and he did not disappoint.
as for theory, it’s just an opinion but i would want it to have a sad/open ending? i still do not know why i want it to be like that (but of course if it is a happy ending, i would not be upset). anyway i can not wait for next week. the preview was crazy jsjdksjd
youth of may: let’s not even talk about that. i already cried when heetae asked myunghee “when are you coming back?” shdkshdjs it’s the small meaningful sentences that just twitches and gets me in my heart. i saw some scenes of the latest episode and god it’s getting sadder and we are only in ep4. praying for my heart and soul
because these two shows are going to be the death of me.
i sleep one day early and there is nct hollywood i swear to god
// spoiler for vincenzo
lol i do not know what to say about han seo,, first i do not know what they thought of making hanseok kill hanseo ? that dude was so close to his happiness, he finally could breathe yet they decided to kill him from the hand of his own abuser, manipulator. i saw it coming and i’m sure everyone did but it just hurt me, he was so close fuck this. he really like was one of those characters who did not deserve to be killed off; but i guess that was the point of the writers to make us attached to him, root for him just to cut him off
vincenzo going on a murder spree was fun as well but i like how they did give some spotlight to their romance as well even tho vincenzo is pure revenge based show(?) i’m so glad to meet these beautiful characters who lived in the tenants of course, it was indeed an amazing family. but still hanseo really deserved better and i will always hold a grunge about his happiness. anyway, next show will be youth of may ahskahsjdj
// spoiler of vincenzo
i think i cried so much during vincenzo and his mother’s conversation where i felt the rage when they killed his mother; not only that but i really did not had it in me to even fangirl about him flickering his lighter, i just wanted him to kill off everyone who did that to his mum. but the last few minutes kept me on my toes, lol no kidding but those expressions from not only vincenzo; myunghee and hanseok aced their part as villains as well. but somehow the conversation with vincenzo’s mother and hanseok left an impact to me, he told some random stranger that yeah my father didn’t really love me, that pain was there but he seemed like he accepted it already (bloody murderer)
anyway, yeah this episode was so sad; drained the hell out of me. now i’ll dwell over it.
nct fics hit different,, i don’t know what they put in it but i’ll be depressed about it for days and come back to reading that fic again and again like ?? but mark college fic >>>>>>>>
hi hi i made a uquiz ! ☺️💗 enjoy deobis !
i assign you a breaking dawn song based on vibes !
what’s your assigned tbz bff and b-side?
answer some tbz themed questions and find your new bff and song HERE!
omg 😭😭😭😭
Kingdom stressed me out so much that I told my therapist about it and even showed them a performance. They are now a fan, rooting for the boyz. I still can’t believe that our conversations went from my dead dad to curly haired sunwoo 👁👄👁
eric bub 🥺
eric, don’t believe him, you are the puppy!
Sunwoo - Arena📸
when i read that it's gonna be the red wedding theme i was expecting some murder, but then i heard el tango de roxanne from moulin rouge which is so damn good and i realized that it is me who is being murdered here
tbz are just water signs, earth signs and their fun friend sunwoo
post-party.
“so, you want me to be in this call for how long?" your friend from the other line asked again, not understanding the use of you freaking out for the tenth time. the plan was simple; make your friend hear everything he was speaking, eat dinner, and bye-bye forever. they did say easier said than done; you felt like your heart is about to burst out from your chest, alongside with your hands trembling in nervousness and a slight flutter but you refuse to admit it to anybody.
the more you admit; the more feelings you will let in since you have been blocking all the invalid feelings the minute, he walked away without saying goodbye to you. who is he to twirl in your life again? after all the mess he created in your life, vice versa. "you heard me right." you said back, clearly.
the pathway was familiar for you, the small party you would have in the diner after breaking up then fucking with no feelings, and lastly, confessing feelings for someone else. the restaurant was most probably tired of both of your shit, and you do not blame it. you were tired too, but you were tired of the restless nights with no answers, tossing and turning in your bed after seeing him in your dreams and sneakily stalk his instagram from your friend's phone. you sighed understanding that you need inner peace of what happened happened, it is okay to put him in your past.
"you missed me that much?" you cracked a joke once again. jaehyun realized you have grown more carefree; you smile more and you glow. the y/n jaehyun knew evolved into the person he always wished you to be, yet he had a bitter taste in his mouth realizing how many hardships you had to go through to finally fuck the world to set yourself this free. "i left with any words, so did you. so our whatever we had kinda was left in the road." he initiated the conversation you wished you had years ago. you remember crying when he left you with no message, no letter or anything. he was just gone.
"you missed me that much?" you cracked a joke once again. jaehyun realized you have grown more carefree; you smile more and you glow. the y/n jaehyun knew evolved into the person he always wished you to be, yet he had a bitter taste in his mouth realizing how many hardships you had to go through to finally fuck the world to set yourself this free. "i left with any words, so did you. so our whatever we had kinda was left in the road." he initiated the conversation you wished you had years ago. you remember crying when he left you with no message, no letter or anything. he was just gone.
"you missed me that much?" you cracked a joke once again. jaehyun realized you have grown more carefree; you smile more and you glow. the y/n jaehyun knew evolved into the person he always wished you to be, yet he had a bitter taste in his mouth realizing how many hardships you had to go through to finally fuck the world to set yourself this free. "i left with any words, so did you. so our whatever we had kinda was left in the road." he initiated the conversation you wished you had years ago. you remember crying when he left you with no message, no letter or anything. he was just gone.
you acknowledged what he meant by 'left in the road.' even after having relationships with multiple people, he was stuck with you at all times; as if he never left you. the traffic he caused in your mind, all the new potential relationships you rejected with the reason being one day, jaehyun will come back to you. fuck jaehyun, fuck everything.
"here is your favourite dish. we missed you guys so much. enjoy." the manager served us our regulars from years ago. you and jaehyun smiled pleasingly. the heavenly fish filet curry with rice combo was the first dinner date with jaehyun, and it felt like just yesterday of you,- "you remember you nearly teared up at how good this was and i recorded you." jaehyun woke you up from the memory field-trip you were taking, so he remembers as well. "you remember?" your eyes widen surprisingly.
jaehyun shook his head, "you really think i would forget? y/n, i was fucking in love with you like crazy." he let out a smile, giving you a spoon for you to dig in. you froze still. ah, really, fuck jaehyun. taken back by his sudden outburst, you were left dumbfounded; what do you do with a piece of information like this? but this is why you are here in front of him. "aw man, really because felt like i was just your go-to girl most of the time." you smirked slightly, the unsettling feeling absorbed your chest as it started tighten thinking of how much he belittled you; even after knowing your feelings for him.
"i was young and stupid as i grew up, i felt the need to impress people around me to keep them. when we dated, we were so young but i knew for sure that i loved you. there was not one moment where i didn't." jaehyun choked out, "even after you broke up, i was mad at you, why did you do it? so i hated you or i tried. at the end, you came back and you stayed, no matter how shitty i fucking treated you and how much i used you." you inhaled loudly, as the tears blurred the image of jaehyun in front of you.
"i cried not knowing what the fuck did i do for you to treat me like garbage. you ran back to me when your girlfriend broke up. you would come back to me asking of doing this relationship with me again but the next moment, you would say you could not do this and leave again, making me feel like a fucking loser." you spilled out everything you could not do it before. in fear of losing him.
but you got nothing to lose anymore
"i kept you around because you made me feel better about myself. no matter what people would say to you, at the end of the day, you would be with me, assuring me that i was a lot better than what people say about me. i did not want to lose you in any way." jaehyun confessed, fist clenched on the table. as you stared up as your tears rolled down anyway. the burning sensation on your throat and the twisting curls on your heart hurt you. you wanted to go.
"but for me, i kept you because maybe one day you will come back to me. i know i did wrong, breaking up with you at the first place. perhaps, we would have recklessly gotten married or would have had kids. i always wanted t-" you clenched your jaw to prevent yourself to sob in front of him, "i have always loved you. even when you left without any words, i thought of you and wished you well. i hated you but i could not curse at your life anymore." you let out a sob.
"i still love you, jaehyun. i miss you, i miss you so much. you left me wounds but i learnt to be better for myself. after this talk, i wish you to stop staying mad at yourself, i want you to forgive yourself. let me go." through all the tears; where your cheeks are, most probably, red, you let out a smile.
he returned back, glassy eyes staring at you. "i am so sorry. i am so sorry. i wish i could take back things that i did. i wish i treated you better. you deserve someone who keeps you because they want to make you happy with them. i love you," jaehyun chuckled again with tears rolling down again. as his hand slide towards yours to hold onto it, for the last time. "i wish you nothing but happiness. i wish you have good days, but don't forget about me. keep me in your memories and i will keep you in mine. please know i will pray for your happiness." you tighten the embrace. his hands still felt home and safe but unknown.
he is not yours anymore.
maybe in another life, you two would be perfect for each other. in another life, you guys will find ways back to each other. "this time, i am really letting you go, jaehyun. thank you for loving me. please be happy as well." the food turned stone cold now, yet his hand was on yours, still warm.
letting his hand go, you smiled so did he. "thank you again." jaehyun stared at you with just adoration and sadness. he wished also, in another life, he will keep you safe with him; but for now, it is time to let go. "thank you." he nodded, and off i go.
putting your phone back on your ears, "it's okay, y/n. i am proud of you, baby. cry your heart out for the last time."
so you did.
side-note. break-ups are messy but what’s messier but braver is talking, no matter how long it takes. it’s good to let them know that you are ready to set them free from your mind and from your heart. the whole drabble is messy in a way because i picture when you talk to someone who you have hurt and who has hurt you, it is gonna be messy because you do not know where to start and where to end. it will be all over the place. but i hope the pain eases when you let it go, let it heal. so please be free, do not hurt yourself anymore and i will do the same.
happy reading till then. x
ooh Irene!! I love the theme <3 also yes Eric is stunning ☁️
AHHH hi hi pretty lady, thank you so much <33 i hope you are having the best best day today and if not, do share with me 🥺 and yes eric is stunning thank you (but so are you)
this is when you know you do not piss earth signs off. (ateez did amazing)
kingdom about to start in 5 days. i’ll die from being too anxious. save me
kingdom’s expert are all 44444444444. mnet could make this a fun show where all 6 groups have fun with different concepts, maybe rap battle, dance battle, give challenge to each other and vocalists from different groups singing their heart out together without this ranking. so fandoms together could actually enjoy without stressing about it, but no. they had to give 4444444444 and call it a day. i’m so raged but all six groups did so well. i’m proud of them all, they worked hard !
it’s gonna be two hours of the release of make your own king but dear god eric makes me want to slam my head on the wall so i can stop thinking about him and his video. why is he so annoyingly attractive? i’m raged raged furious fuck
holy cow, also imagine him saying that but she won’t understand so he just says it’s nothing hskfhskdjdkd yeah cries
what if the first time vincenzo tells cha young he loves her he says it in italian and then - even though she obviously knows - she asks him for a translation and he says “it doesn’t need translating” and then boom they kiss i want it thank you very much writers i will be collecting my pay check now
// spoiler of vincenzo
i think i cried so much during vincenzo and his mother’s conversation where i felt the rage when they killed his mother; not only that but i really did not had it in me to even fangirl about him flickering his lighter, i just wanted him to kill off everyone who did that to his mum. but the last few minutes kept me on my toes, lol no kidding but those expressions from not only vincenzo; myunghee and hanseok aced their part as villains as well. but somehow the conversation with vincenzo’s mother and hanseok left an impact to me, he told some random stranger that yeah my father didn’t really love me, that pain was there but he seemed like he accepted it already (bloody murderer)
anyway, yeah this episode was so sad; drained the hell out of me. now i’ll dwell over it.