Selfshiptober, Day Three !
selfshiptober, day three !
embrace | blood
this is gonna be pretty short but...
this is gonna be
sort of personal(?) in a way... yeah.
tw for mentions of house fire, death and murder
and also, little warning ahead for a bit of angst (with comfort as well)
...
i still remember being so alone.
so lost.
so broken.
my parents already broke my porcelain heart after sebastian placed it all back together.
i was treated like a joke by my mom, treated like a mistake by my dad.
they made me feel like i was worth... nothing.
and he treated me like i was everything in his entire universe.
it felt... oddly comforting, getting love and affection after being separated for years.
it was... amazing seeing sebastian again, yes.
but yet, i wonder what would had happened if... i never killed them.
if i never killed my parents.
if i never burned down the house i grew up on.
i wouldn't be here.
i wouldn't be here with sebastian...
i wouldn't...
...
"hey, are you doing alright?" sebastian asked.
i was sitting on the floor, laying my back on his tail.
i wasn't feeling well, i was on one of those days that i felt shitty and completely lost.
i wouldn't say anything, staying completely silent.
sebastian was obviously worried and wanted me to say something, he never liked getting the silence treatment from me.
he loudly sighed.
"leaf... please talk to me." he said, soundly more worried than he already was.
and suddenly, i would burst out crying.
he immediately picked me up and held me close to him.
"hey hey... you can cry, it's okay..." he said, reassuring me.
"theyre still there, theyre still in the back of my mind." i spoke, i was referring to my dead parents.
he ran his fingers thru my hair and kissed my forehead, still reassuring me.
"its okay sunshine, you wont have to deal with them anymore...."
"i promise, you're here with me now."
"you're safe with me, leaf."
"and ill make sure that you always be, my love." ♡
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drawing sebastian at school is like therapy 2 me
and a way to distract myself from reality /hj
dont ask why i did this (art credit in alt text)
hi! i decided to come back from my hiatus now, it only ended up being a tiny break to get my mind off stuff, ive been doing better and im ready to be back on posting!
i have a lot of stuff to post, including the writing for selfshipping october thingy that im excited to post :3
