Dont Ask Why I Did This (art Credit In Alt Text)

dont ask why i did this (art credit in alt text)

selfshiptober, day one !

confession | night

holy shit ive never posted stuff like this before so im a little embarrassed and nervous...

but anyways, im cringe and free!!

so enjoy this little piece of literature between me and my favorite fishie :3c

(note, english isnt my first language and ive might have written a couple spelling mistakes but yeah...)

i remember the day i confessed how much i love you.

how much you make me smile.

how much you make me giggle.

how much you make me happy.

it was very surprising for you, you were flushed and so shy about it... it was cute.

i still remember the entire confession... and it went like this...

it was an ordinary day, in the hadal blacksite obviously.

no expendables passing by... asides from sudden noises and such, but it was the usual.

i would be sitting on the floor, writing something on a piece of paper, he couldn't see what i was writing.

i was smiling and giggling a bit, he could obviously see i was happy about something.

meanwhile, sebastian would be in his corner, not doing much than just simply admiring me.

"hmmm? whatcha giggling for?" sebastian asked.

i looked at him and got up, walking towards him with the piece of paper.

i would hand it over to him, not saying a word.

"can you read it out loud for me?" i asked.

he chuckled and smiled.

"of course, a little reading doesn't hurt me after all." he answered, accepting my request.

he sarcastically coughed a couple times and started reading the first sentence on the paper.

"my dear sebastian, i wanted to write you this to confess how much i..." and before he could finish reading the sentence out loud, he suddenly stopped.

he looked at me and the paper, completely shocked.

his cheeks were turning red and looked extremely flushed.

meanwhile, i looked down at the floor.

i was shy and nervous, it was a sudden move from me but i didn't want to keep my feelings hidden for much longer.

there was silence for a couple of minutes and suddenly, he would speak up.

"you... you like me?" he asked, breaking the silence.

i looked up and slowly nodded my head.

"more than just that, i love you." i answered.

suddenly, he grabbed me by my waist, placing me close to him.

he smiled and said one single sentence.

"i love you more, my sunshine."

and he pressed his lips against mines.

and there was it, a kiss. ♡

tw su***de, death

one of my close friends might be dead after their possible attempt

me and my friends havent heard anything from him for almost two days

he might be dead

i dont know how to feel than just cry my eyes out

im so sorry donut

i wish me, bannish and step spent more time with you

i love you so much and im so fucking sorry...

im in a very happy and silly mood today so expect to see some wholesome writing tonight!! cant wait to write more for selfshipoctober today :3

life has been absolutely horrible for the past months but when i came across this video yesterday, i teared up a little.

it gave me hope that everything will be okay, no matter what happens...

wanted to share this andddd

i bought the sebastian plushie last week and im still so happy about it

unfortunately, i have to wait until january but i dont mind waiting lol

and i had to pay 10 bucks for the shipping. :sob: