That Moment When You Finally Get Free Of A Months-long Derealization Episode And Realize That Everything

that moment when you finally get free of a months-long derealization episode and realize that everything around you is real and strange and beautiful and its own in some odd way and that everyone you pass, every scraggly, black, bird you see, every structure natural or not, exists and is beautiful in its existence. small nothings are everything. the world is beautiful. awful, yes, but so wonderful at the same time. kiss a dog on the tip of their nose right where their fur is the softest, coo at a bird as you pass by, wave at a stranger, cry over that damn two-headed calf poem every time it crosses your mind and then cry again for a different reason at the hilarious show you just watched.

live.

yall i need fashion help

i've fallen down the rdr2 pipeline (arthur morgan is literally perfect (/j) and such a well-written character, btw, but that's a rant for another day)

ANYWAY

how to dress like a cowboy and wear a cowboy hat in a gay way and not in a "i voted for trump" way???? is it possible????

also, as a trans guy, what workouts would yall recommend to try to get an arthur morgan-like physique? i understand that i defo won't get exactly like him since im not on t or anything, but i want to try somewhat.

Jay’s been through it

CW: Sexual assault Implications brief discussion of sexual predators + lotta swearing

(Please let me know if I missed any content warnings and Check if you are ok to hear this theory before reading. This type content has potential to help or hurt you depending on who you are as is the nature of problematic themes. Safety over curiosity.)

This is cannon compliment. Uhh kids show?! Yeah I know shouldn’t really have these themes but they’re there hear me out. Spoilers for season 6/8 I guess.

I’m bothered by this scene and how It connect to certain events so I’ll cautiously share

Sons of Garmadon Episode 7:

Here is the clip

Kelo asks “Where’s the green Ninja”

WHAT THE FUCK! Dude the double take I had when first watching this.

So he looked at Kelo’s… lower half and basically said ‘Cole shut up that man’s crotch is too close’. And not in Jay joking tone, he’s like dead serious and stressed. (The scene just cuts away after)

Jay you ok? Why is it implied some guy might have tried something?! Why else would he say that?! Who the FUCK touched my boi? What even is this scene?!

The fact it’s Jay that said it out of everyone is bad because it’s been implied to him before.

So let’s talk about the darkest Ninjago theory that’s been quietly circulating for a while in fan content. For simplicity I’ll call it captains quarters theory, If you’re unfamiliar I’ll explain.

Basically some speculation happened because of a certain villain that displayed subtle ongoing predatory behavior. And a part when Jay was his prisoner that caused people to worry what happened before the scene started.

As some of you have caught on It’s the scene where Cole rescues Jay from Misfortunes Keep.

He didn’t find Jay in his cell where he should have.

Cole found him beaten as ninjago has ever depicted except when literally dying.

Alone

no explanation given.

In the corner of Captains Quarters.

Nadakhan’s room.

Dude :(

And his concern afterwards.

And thinking he didn’t deserve saving.

“Thank you for trying to save me,-

It’s Just a lot.

Doing awful things to make Jay wish it all away is terrifyingly in Nadakhan’s character. Not just the sadistic torture part.

Nadakhan has many behaviors similar to a sexual predator. I’ll go over it briefly but see my last post for a detailed analysis.

He Seeks out vulnerable people for victims. The Ninja are teens and he waits till or makes them emotionally vulnerable. The way he talks about gifting his wishes and giving his victims anything they desire can be read as grooming behavior. His secrecy in getting all the ninja alone and doesn’t even talk to his crew about his plans. Manipulative and Controlling obviously.

And the most glaring issues he’s WAY tooo fucking touchy all the time. Like watch his body language during Skybound and see how uncomfortable it is

“Too slow junkyard boy”

Not to mention how explicitly he doesn’t care about consent….

And “If you don’t come willingly Nya, I will take you regardless” followed by a forced marriage.

Side note he doesn’t refers to Jay with his name and the things he calls him…uggh “What lies is our little canary whistling now, hmm?”

So… It’s cannon compliant that something was attempted or happened to Jay. Bruh wtf.

Well if you feel like you resonate with this or it may help there a few great fanworks that explore this I can recommend if interested. Mmm comfort angst.

(Note don’t bother anyone for enjoying Nadakhan as a character. It’s fiction and it hurts no one)

i redesigned the lightfury

did this movie come out *checks notes* 4 years ago? (also, 4 years???? wtf???)

yes

did i still make an (admittedly shitty) doodle of a lightfury redesign anyway?

also yes.

i heard somewhere that the lightfury was intended to be an underwater dragon, and regardless of if its true or not i decided to fuckin run with it. specifically the idea of the lightfury being a deep sea dragon.

extra things about my lightfury redesign:

super sharp teeth, like those wicked teeth that a lot of underwater fish have

<- like this bad boy, but even more

most of the more sharp/long teeth are retractable, but it always has at least one row of shark-like teeth

✨glowy dragon✨

glows to attract prey, as a mating behavior, and as a way to ward off threats

can create glowy patterns with their scales, which is how they differentiate between hunting glowing, mating glowing, and danger glowing

lots of frills and fins, some retractable, some not

not naturally wary of humans due to the lack of natural predators and almost no contact with humans

not great at flying above water due to fairly weak body, but incredible at swimming and one of the most dangerous water dragons

<- a handful of references i found on pinterest.

How trauma do you Skybound?

Was bored and the fixation was fixating again.

I’d throw most fics that didn’t change anything like on canon dot. When the Lights Go Down 𝘱𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘰𝘮 𝘱𝘢𝘪𝘯 Nightmares

Picked generally popular ones and my bookmarks but tell me if I should add any.

Updated

skybound Thoughts

sooo uh, im thinking about doing a rewrite of ninjago skybound.

im currently rewatching it because of this, and in case i never get around to actually writing anything, im gonna word-vomit onto this hellsite (affectionate) cuz im having Thoughts.

quick tangent though, skybound seems very similar to danny phantom (at least in how the fandom treats it) in the sense that, when you actually watch it, it's pretty tame and honestly kinda shit. but then you dig deeper. and you see the Implications and Possibilities, and suddenly it has you by the throat with all the ways this could have gone if it wasn't a kids show.

like, in skybound you get genuine torture and creepy implications on nadakhan's part (seriously, get away from jay and nya you fucking creep), and while it's never really explored since, y'know, kids show, it makes nadakhan one of the best and most terrifying villains i personally have watched in ninjago.

anyway, here are a couple of things i've been toying with in terms of a possible rewrite:

one thing im thinking about taking from various other fics i've seen (i think its mainly shown in bending but never breaking, which is an absolutely amazing fic and you should go read it but MIND THE TAGS AND TRIGGER WARNINGS PLEASE) is jay learning to use the electricity in his body, though obviously not painlessly

bonus points for his elemental power getting royally fucked up once/if the vengestone is removed, but in the sense of suddenly he is completely overwhelmed and his power is so much stronger and its a danger to both himself and others

queerplatonic jaya: i think in this season especially, nya felt very aroace coded (i might just be projecting as i myself am aroace, but that's the vibe i got) and so for a skybound rewrite nya and jay would have a serious conversation about how nya doesn't feel that way for anyone, even if she *does* really like jay

just general angst and torture

id rewrite jays obsession with nya, specifically his first wish (if i dont just jump right into him being on misfortunes keep)

i think id like to do something more with delara than just her being some dead girlfriend. i.e.: i'd make her fucking unhinged and the kind of person that would fall in love with and support nadakhan.

i really liked @cotidianoseeder's idea for canary!jay, so possibly something in that direction

i also really like it when people keep serpentine aspects in jays character, so some of that as well

fuck it, make him inhuman, y'know?

i'd age everyone up i think (i dunno how old they are in skybound, but a 17 minimum would be in my rewrite)

OH! i'd put bruiseshipping as a romantic relationship cuz i love them

nya would make the final wish, since a big part of her character would be forging her own story and taking control of her own life

zanes falcon would survive cuz i love that fucking bird

echo would be taken off the island post-rewind

what do y'all think??? i keep having more ideas, i might post them