This Time When I'm Just Lying In Bed With My Music And Do Nothing Is Back

This time when I'm just lying in bed with my music and do nothing is back

Not because I want to do nothing

No

I just don't have a motivation to do so

I feel sick

I feel bad

I feel sad

I don't feel like myself

I feel crazy

I loved the look on my psychologist's face when I told her all those shit about my life

She was so shocked and in disbelief

Just like my previous one

Nvm I failed

But examinator was kind and we went right....

I will have another part of the driving exam today....

Please beg, pray, manifest so:

- we will go right

- examinator will be kind

- it will be easy

- I will pass it

Even though I don't like touch I would let someone hug me because I don't want them to feel bad or pushed away

The life of a people pleaser

Fuck this

I can't even pass the stupid driving exam

Why am I so stupid?

Why?

I can't do anything properly

God, I promised I'll be there for you yet everything is against that:

I fell asleep

My parents took my phone

God, let me be and do my work