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hang on sorry lemme just

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alright i’m good now

To even begin what I use to eat when I was little just kills me now...

Here is part two of self deprecating memes! Because you know what better way is there to cope?

The constant battle in my head

between

wanting to die so I could stop bothering everyone

and

not wanting to die because then why did i put them through all of my sh*t

I'm so pathetic I wanna throw up

I want all of these thoughts to end

I don’t deserve to die.

Not because I deserve to live.

But because I don’t deserve the sweet release of death.

Okay so I wrote something while my last mental breakdown and I wanted to show you. So here it is and take care!

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I know you dont want to loose youre little sister.

All these night appart,

the number grew more and more.

Like my desire to evermore,

Se your smile and stop the frown.

Even though sometimes I feel like a clown.

Until I go to slumber,

Where I fulfil my desire.

Where I stopped feeling

The strange emotions that I can’t deceiver

Where I stopped hurting

By the reality that bring me to oblivion

Where I feel liberated

From the rotten world we created

When I wake up the numbness comes back.

Like a mountain on my back.

But don’t worry,

For I am inspired by your audacity.

Your strong head is something that I admire.

For I can’t start my fire.

My anxiety causes a war in me.

Where my army has be

And is no more.

For my demons heretofore,

We’re just pixie dust from tinker bell.

However now, they are an alarm bell.

Forgive me sister,

For I know I’m a bother

With my self destructive ways

And my long silences.

Dear sister you need to know

I’m just not myself.

But I don’t know who myself is anymore.

When I'm ready to explain to someone why I can't do a certain thing because of my mental illness but then I remember how it ended up the last time I did

Me:*jokes about mental illness/depression/suicide...*

Someone: you shouldn't joke about these things, some people are actually suffering from them!!!

Me:

I love to sleep, but I actually hate it... you know?

I'm always sleepy when I shouldn't, and I'm wide awake when I'm in my bed. I don't have to deal with problems when I'm sleeping, but if I sleep too much, I'll have more problems. And I always wake up TIRED. Like, b**ch I've been tired the WHOLE DAY and I SLEEP AND... WOKE UP TIRED... AGAIN...? give me a break...

I am young, but I feel more like a 2000 year old vampire whose rethinking all the bad moments in his life.

My wife, Charlie, left me 400 years ago and then passed away from gorging herself on fine cheeses with her new husband Rodrick.

I don’t crave blood anymore, all I crave is vengance

i really fucking hate how the media has romantized depression, and all mental illness so much. like it makes people think being depressed is the cool, trendy thing to do. it doesnt show how some days you cant get out of bed and how you cant always even take care of yourself or basic hygiene or how it literally affects everything you do on a day-to-day basis. i wish that the media would stop showing depression as just being sad and show it for what it really is, cause its absolute hell and i wouldn't wish it on anyone.

thank you for listening to my rant

all i want is to sleep eight hours at a normal time. but clealy thats too much to ask for

my mental health has never been worse.

what if i just end it all? it would be easier than this.

so, it turns out moving away as an escape doesnt do shit when the thing youre trying to escape from is yourself.

i was getting better.

i was getting better.

i was wrong.

i was wrong.

i was wrong.

"if you are not recovering you are dying"

Well can we speed this shit up pls?

Mental Stuff

I am living with ADHD, PTSD, Anxiety, and Depression. People think it’s easy. It’s not. I am here to share what it has been like so far for me and to help others to the best of my ability.

And happy pride to my dad. He ain't gay but he passes the vibe check 🫰

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