So....

So....

I got diagnosed with schizoid personality disorder!

That explains a lot

I'm so happy to have diagnosis

My self-control through the last few months wasn't working properly but now it's my time again

I'll be skinny

I'll be, I promise

My Spanish lesson mood

⚠️tw murder mention⚠️

You know what?

I feel like I want to kill someone

Not myself

But someone

I wanna brutally stab them

Push the knife deep enough to see the fear in their eyes

To hear them beg for mercy

To see them cry

I want to feel the power just once in my life

But don't worry

I'll just dress nicely and smile and pretend nothing is going on

fuck any parent who shames their kids for self harm or makes their kid feel bad because they self harmed

⚠️Tw self meanspo⚠️

Only a genius like me could fucked up this way

How it was possible for me to misread the date of an exam?

How?

You are fucking stupid! You can't do anything right. You're worthless piece of shit, that's what you are!

You have to try harder to even be near dogs' level of usefulness.

Oh wait...

You aren't able to do that! You can't try harder because you FUCKING DON'T KNOW HOW!

Don't know how you have friends...are they even your friends? You think you deserve friends?

YOU DON'T!

You're a burden, a mistake, a problem. Don't go around smiling and being kind because they're not buying that. They don't need you!

You're miserable and you're trying to make yourself even more miserable by seeing therapist. You want an explanation to yourself, something you could blame for what you are.

But nothing can explain that. You're the problem, nothing else

You'd be better dead

No one needs you

Just die and let people breath