I Finished The Tartaros Arc And I Have Feelings. Im Making These Feelings Other Peoples Problems.

I finished the Tartaros arc and I have feelings. I’m making these feelings other people’s problems.

Lucy never wanted to be alone or neglected. So as a kid she always summoned Aquarius to be her friend. Aquarius only convinced Lucy to summon the Celestial Spirit King by telling her that Lucy has friends to lean on. But in the end, Lucy was alone again. Natsu and Happy left and Makarov disbanded the guild.

Juvia effectively killed Grays father. She loves Gray so, so much and had to take away his only remaining family. But the most heartbreaking part for her is that she told him. She said that she doesn’t deserve to love him but yet still does. And he thanked her.

Gray met his dad. But he ended up leaving too. The hug will never not make me sob. Sometimes a father’s hug is all you need and Gray will never have another. He didn’t want to fight Silver, let alone kill him. But he had to for his new family, Fairy Tail.

Erza finally admitted to the Tower hurting her. She locks everything so far away that any raw emotions are confusing. I don’t think any of the Tower kids will ever heal.

Natsu. All he ever fought for was to see Igneel. He wanted to talk with him, show him that he learned to write, and cook, and is powerful. It is all Natsu wanted. But he never got it. Igneel was murdered in front of him and they never truly got to talk and ask questions and be a father son. Igneels parting words were to “Look to the future, where the power of life lies,” so Natsu did just that. Acnologia would probably attack again in the future, so Natsu left to become stronger and protect his remaining family.

Sorry for the rants, this arc is so heartbreaking and good. Don’t get me started on Believe in Myself.

I always read through Wayward Son as fast as possible because if I focus for even a second on Baz and Simon’s relationship I start crying. They feel as if they don’t deserve each other and can’t talk it out. Simon is too insecure to talk about any of it. It’s sad and too relatable and the traumatic things that they’ve gone through are mentioned so briefly it’s easier to ignore them. It’s such a good book, and one of my favorites of all time.

When someone you love offers a bid for connection, you say yes every time. When someone sends you an article, a video, a funny post, it’s a bid for connection. They are trying to connect with you. When someone shares details about their day, their life, their thoughts, or their feelings with you, that is a bid for connection. They want to connect with you on a deeper level. They are trying to pull you into their world. If you love them, you say yes every time. Yes, even if the article they send is not particularly interesting to you. Yes, even if it means listening to them ramble about a game you don’t care about and think is stupid. Yes yes yes. And let’s hope they always say yes to your bids, too.

I found it… I wrote an entire fanfiction based on this exchange, but at the time I couldn’t find it for the life of me. Randomly scrolling today, I found it.

Anyways, the fic is: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54709297 If you’re interested.

ok but this is so on brand for them 😂

Fuck it was disappointing. No Hermit and Weiss being a couple as they deserve. And Shikka was OFFSCREENED. OFF. SCREENED. THE MAIN SHIP. WE DONT EVEN SEE THEIR FUCKING CHILD. This and Noragami needed 5 more chapters and it would’ve been perfect.

Not me delusionally thinking that if I don’t read the final chapter of EDENS ZERO it will never happen…

School essays are difficult because they want me to write something boring about apologetics but all I want to do is write a 14 paragraph well worded essay about the Hero’s Journey and how Simon Snow follows it and takes divergences off it. The second would be taking a look at what happens after that journey ends for other heroes and those around them, focused on picking up the pieces of when the hero’s story ends, using Wayward Son as a main source. Finally, the third would be about allegory and it’s affect on the story of the Simon Snow Trilogy. Instead, I am fated to write a 3 page essay on if gods are all the same.