Still Not Off My Soapbox Yet Because People Also Expect People Who Were Abused In Childhood To Have Kids

still not off my soapbox yet because people also expect people who were abused in childhood to have kids too. as someone who went through childhood abuse, i do not think i would be a fit parent. some people just know what’s right for themselves and we need to stop disrespecting people and their choices. there are 8 BILLION people on the earth, i think it’ll be fine if a few people choose not to have children.

it's silly because i'm adamantly against having kids myself, i don't want them and i never have, yet i feel immensely guilty when people tell me i would be a good mom, because no i won't! i don't have the patience, i don't want the responsibility, it's just not for me. idk, a part of me feels like i'd be wasting my life by not raising a new one. agh.

fun fact about me; i have chronic knee pain!

i’ve been trying to become a more consistent mobility aid user bc like, i have a cane, but my parents wouldn’t let me use it ever because “i don’t complain” (i stopped because they don’t care or just say “im sorry”) or “i don’t really need it” (atleast 3 days a week im in such bad pain that moving is a chore)

sometimes it feels like i’m faking being disabled even though my entire life i’ve been nothing but disabled. i dunno what to do abt it :p. i’ve also thought about forearm crutches since i cant really use two canes but that’ll be harder to convince my parents. if anyone reading this has any advice please share because i know that not using mobility aids is only hurting myself further.

and i did!!!

i think i wanna change my url again guys 😕

Begging on my knees for you all to realise how perfect and amazing Trina is, she’s the queen of her game and I will hear nothing other than praise for this wonderful woman for EXISTING!!!!! She’s a chubby middle aged divorced wife who has just enough spunk to knock you out of your seats and stomp on your head and just enough tragedy to hold you like you’re okay after WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT?? DO YOU NOT WANT A CHUBBY MIDDLE AGED WOMAN YOU COWARDS??

I feel a little hypocritical saying it when I haven't gone all the way with this method yet, but I highly suggest everyone at the very least learn how to buy/use DIY HRT so they're prepared in case official means are no longer acccessible to them. it is obviously not ideal compared to official means to accessing HRT, and we need to defend trans healthcare. do not interpret this as me advocating for "giving up". but when the healthcare system fails us, DIY is an option that everyone has, and it's important to me that people understand that they have options. spending an afternoon reading up on how you'd go about DIY is free and affirming even if you don't need/want to DIY right now.

christian borle is stronger than me bc if i was out there performing falsettos with andrew rannells every day i would fall in love immediately