Hyunjin Ff Snippet ~WIP~

hyunjin ff snippet ~WIP~

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hwang hyunjin x reader

wc: 800+

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a/n: *important* here is a little bit of my hyunjin ff I'm working on. idk if I'm going to keep it in yet, won't really know till I finish it and read it fully. this part is basically a dream the reader is having, but hyunjin isn't in this part. in the next snippet I do hyunjin will be in it, I promise lol. so all the words ~ this like ~ is the dream and normal text is the reader's thoughts and the normal setting.

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"you ready for this?" the person said, peeking from behind me to make eye contact in the mirror. I met their eyes and it was marilyna. "yes." I felt myself say. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw the most gorgeous dress I've ever seen, but what caught me off guard was that it was a wedding dress. 'what is happening?' I said in my head. "okay, let me go get your father." she said, turning around to exit the room.

once I was alone I got a look around. a wedding powder/fitting room was the best way to explain it. white walls, multiple mirrors- big and small, two couches, a table, a big paintings on the walls, bouquet of flowers, a very beautiful room in general. I walked over to a book that seemed to magically appear on the table in front of me. it was a photo book. I tilted my head, I knew I didn't have one but it felt like it was mine. I opened the book and began to look at the photos, I was right. most were blurry faces or mixed faces to the point where I couldn't tell who it was. 'well that was a lost cause.' I closed the book, smelling the flowers that were in the middle of the table. that when I saw a photo that caught my eye.

it was a photo of me and someone else, a photo that i've never seen before, my eyes tried to focus the person beside me but failed. I could feel love and happiness spread through my body like I knew it was true, a loving feeling. I felt myself say to my lonesome, "I can't believe this is actually happening." I tried again to make them out but the door opened, making me jump. I turned around to see my dad, walking over to me before giving me a tight hug. "oh honey look at you, you look beautiful. my sweet baby." he said with a big smile, wiping away his tears as we pulled away. "dad, don't cry." I said as I felt myself tear up. I missed seeing him like this, like his old self. "you're get married, you're not my baby anymore." he said. "I'm still your little girl." I said as I felt tears going down my cheeks.

"now honey, you're gonna make her ruin her makeup. I worked so hard on it." marilyna said, pulling him away to dab my tears away. "okay okay, so are you ready to see him?" dad said. I suddenly felt myself get nervous but excited. "yes." I said in a shaky voice. he held out his arm for me to take and we head out the door. I looked back to see the photo but it was gone, a long with the photo book. as we kept walking, the space behind disappeared. thats weird, but again I knew I was dreaming, just couldn't control it. like most dreams.

I saw four bridesmaids with their dates, well they could also the groomsmen of the person I was marrying waiting behind a door. I saw a little girl I've never seen before holding a flower basket and a bouquet, I felt my heart swell. marilyna walked over to her and picked her up, giving her a kiss on the cheek. 'she doesn't have a daughter.' I said in my head. everyone there saw me commenting on how beautiful I looked and how he was so lucky. they said his name but it was like it was muted. marilyna came over with the little girl still in her arms. "here ya go sissy." I heard her say, handing me a bouquet of flowers. 'I don't have a sister. what the hell is going on!'

I heard a song start to play, but it wasn't your classic 'here comes the bride'. it was a song I've never heard before, I couldn't recognize it at all. I didn't really have time to dwell on it as the people in front of me began walking. I felt myself take a deep breath as my dad led me into the room full of people in their seats. it looked to be a small wedding with few friends and family. then I made eye contact with my mom. I felt myself tear up seeing her again. I can't believe she's actually here. I felt relieved, then I got a thought from myself. so she did get the invite, I heard.

we finally made it to the front of the room. my dad stood in front of me, giving me a kiss on my forehead before taking the flowers out of my hands. with one hand, he held mine and gave me away to my soon to be husband. I felt the warmth of their hand, I smiled loving the feeling. I went to look up to see who my soon to be husband was.

I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. I shot up from my sleeping position with wide eyes. that was probably one of the weirdest and most realistic dreams I've ever had.

Arrangement

Pairing: Sugar Daddy!Felix(maybe?) x Fem Reader

Summary: You needed some extra money as you tried to balance your work and college life. Felix wanted your company and would do anything to have it no matter the cost. (Slightly aged up Felix.)

Warnings: 18+ minors DNI due to adult content. Unprotected sex, oral(male receiving), fingering, overstimulation, and Felix has a slight asphyxiation kink(Not sorry).

Word Count: 8,600 and some change.

Author’s Note: Yet another early birthday gift for @lee--felix. I don’t have an explanation for this and I don’t think I need one. I just write whatever these days. Work of fiction. Doesn’t represent Felix or Stray Kids in any way.

Tag List: @lee--felix, @lex-thesimpzzz, @nymeriaaa, @hyuckilstan, @joti17, @lilacboba, @9900z (Message me if you’d like to be added. You’ll be notified when I post!)

You smiled to yourself seeing the familiar blonde walk into the bar. Lee Felix was your favorite customer to come in these days. Your usual boring Tuesday shift got better knowing he was here tonight. Felix was the ideal customer. Sweet, polite, and filthy rich. The man knew to tip well, and you were happy he was becoming a regular. What he would tip you in a night would outshine what you earned all week, even with your best customer service and flirty persona when customers wanted it.

Not to mention he seemed to want you to serve him. As soon as he found out you had a set of booths and tables, he was there. Politely declining other servers and asking for you. You didn’t mind. Felix was easy on the eyes and the low voice paired with an Australian accent made you melt. On nights where the bar was dead, he would ask you to keep him company. Gladly you accepted to keep distracted as time crept on. As long as customers were taken care of, staff and management didn’t care for the mingling. Usually earned more money for keeping customers longer, anyway.

Giving yourself a once over in the mirror by the bar, you made your way over to Felix to great him. “Ah, I see you’re back. How was Milan?”

A smile appeared on his face as he looked up from his phone. “Good. Flight was a bitch but just happy to be here and see you.”

“Well, hand over that card of yours and you can have me.” Felix chuckled at your comment and reached for his wallet. The card was now in your hand as you waited to see what he wanted to order. He seemed to be undecided how he wanted to start tonight. “Do you want me to surprise you with something?”

There was a cute pout on his face as he nodded. “Can you make it sweet?”

You loved his playfulness, giggling in response. “Of course. Whatever you want.”

You turned away to make your way back to the bar. Starting a tab with his card and keeping it secure behind the counter. You moved around to find the items you needed to make his drink. A few patrons at the counter started a conversation with the bartender next to you. You gave your two cents to the conversation but not letting it distract you. You wouldn’t make Felix wait.

When you return to his booth, you placed the cocktail down, and he cautiously examined it. You smiled as he smelled it and gave you a confused look. Felix took a sip, then making a sound of approval before downing another larger sip. You were happy he liked it. Felix wasn’t too picky with his alcohol preferences, so he was always open to trying new trendy drinks.

You plopped down in the booth across from him. “We’re calling it the pineapple upside down cake.”

“I love it. Why do you always know what I like?”

You gave a shrug. “You have a sweet tooth like I do, so I figured you’d like it.”

The conversation was standard to what usually happened when you sat to talk to him. He’d ask about how college was treating you and you’d return with questions about his modeling career. You had found out Felix was originally an idol for nearly a decade before becoming a full-time model. He shared all kinds of stories and you loved to listen. In return, Felix seemed to enjoy having someone around to talk to. You were happy you could provide that for him as you worked. Slow nights with him made up for the shitty busy nights where you didn’t get a minute to yourself.

Felix seemed different tonight, though. Something about him was off. He was almost anxious. You were noticing even with the alcohol he was tense. It was unusual for him to act like this and you wanted to help. As much as you enjoyed him as a customer, his well-being mattered more. Especially if you needed to cut him off early tonight.

Genuine concern was in your voice. “Felix, are you okay?”

“I knew you’d pick up on it. I have something to ask you. Well, an offer actually.” You looked at him confused, but Felix seemed to struggle with getting his thoughts out. He was always so calm and suave. Now, to see him like this was a little strange, but by the time you wanted to say something, he spoke up again. “What if I hired you for a job? It’s a weird job, but the money would be good.”

“That’s kinda vague and suspicious. Don’t tell me you’re in the mob or something.”

He laughed, “No, I’m not. I’m looking for companionship. You know, with my schedule, I can’t commit to a relationship, but it’s lonely. So I want to pay you for your time.”

A smile found its way onto your face. “Felix, are you asking if you want me to be sugar baby for you?”

Felix didn’t seem too keen on the word choice. “That’s one way one to put it.”

You laughed at him but quickly realizing he was serious. This was a genuine offer he was making you. If anyone could afford to pay for a sugar baby, it would be him. It almost sounded too good to be true. However, on the other hand, you could quit working at the bar or at the very least go part time and actually have more time for studies.

Felix pulled your attention back to him as he spoke again. “What will it take to prove to you I’m serious?”

You got up from the booth as customers walked by the two of you, heading straight to one of your tables. “Come back with a thousand in cash and I’ll quit on the spot. Rent is due this week.”

You had never intended Felix to be committed to his offer. The night he brought it up, he had quickly left after closing his tab while you were busy with other customers. Originally, you were worried you had upset him, but the next night you worked, Felix was there before you had even clocked in. You had stepped into the bar seeing him leaning against the wall, coat still wrapped around him.

His face lit up as he saw you. “Ah, I’m glad I caught you.”

Felix pulled out an envelope offered it to you. You reached cautiously, feeling it slightly heavy in your hands. There was cash was inside the envelope. You felt your heart skip a beat seeing the crisp hundred bills tucked neatly inside. Certain there was easily more than a thousand in there. “You were actually serious.”

There was confidence radiating from Felix as you looked at him. The corners of his lips occasionally turning up in a smile as you stood dumbfounded. Now you were unsure what to do. He kept his end of the deal and now was your turn. You had no intention of quitting your job. At least not yet till you learned more about this job opportunity with Felix. It was a Thursday, so work would be moderately busy, but not as bad as a weekend night. You quickly decided to just take the absence as excitement coursed through you. This was a potential once in a lifetime offer and you wanted to take the risk. The struggle to make ends meet was still present even with the bar tending job and here Felix was practically throwing money away.

You immediately turned on your heel after excusing yourself, heading straight through the tables over to the bar where your coworker Ji-hun was working. He was setting up for the evening shift. There were a couple of regulars here already, but as usual, the bar was empty this early in the night. Ji-hun saw the look on your face as you approached, the smile he had immediately fallen off replaced with confusion.

A shaky hand of yours gripped onto the edge of the counter. “Ji, I’m sorry. I need to call out tonight.”

“Are you okay?” There was immediate concern about you. He knew how badly you needed the money. You rarely called out, knowing you were the first to pick up shifts even if you were exhausted. You weren’t able to get any words out before Ji-hun was already assuring you he’d be fine and telling you to take care of what you needed to. “It’s gonna be dead. Plus, I can call Kaja. He wanted an easy extra shift.”

Perks of being a hard worker, you guessed. “You’re a lifesaver. Thank you! I’ll make it up to you.”

Not wanting to elaborate further, you pushed off the bar to make your way towards Felix. He was already making his way out the door as you tucked the envelope of cash into a pocket of your jacket that had a zipper, not wanting to lose it. You’d count it later, more curious about what the plan was with Felix.

Felix was looking down the sidewalk as you bundled your coat tighter around you. “Have you eaten?”

You quickly shook your head, feeling your stomach rumble at the idea of food. “Uh, no. I was running late to work tonight.”

“Good. I know a place down the street. We can go talk more about this job.”

Felix started leading you down the sidewalk as you walked beside him. Silence fell between you to as your nerves ate at you. You were unsure what was coming over you. Felix wasn’t a complete stranger by any means with how often he came into the bar, but it surprised you at how easily you were willing to take up the offer. You didn’t want Felix to think you were desperate for cash.

Unfortunately, you needed the money. Not only for your own expenses and survival, but for your family. You sent whatever extra you could back home to your parents. Your father was sick with his illness again. You hadn’t opened about it to anyone except a couple close friends not wanting to talk about it. The whole situation depressing knowing there wasn’t much you could do as he stayed in the hospice for care. Insurance was doing what it could to cover expenses, but wasn’t enough for your parents. Your dad deserved the care and wanted him to recover again. Perhaps this extra money from Felix could make a difference.

After a few minutes, the two of you had approached a small hole in the wall restaurant. You had never tried the place but passed it a few times while living in the neighborhood. It was always open late and looked fairly empty as the two of you neared the entrance. Felix opening the door to hold as you passed him to enter. The smell of food hitting you like a brick wall. His food idea was more appealing to you. The place seemed pretty discreet as Felix lead you to a booth.

You continued to take in your surroundings, admiring the decorations. “How do you know this place?”

“Used to come here with my members back in the day. We would finish practice late at night and then come here to eat.”

You nodded as you settled into your seat. Jacket of yours coming off so you could get comfortable. Menus placed in front of the both of you as a waitress came. She reminded you of yourself as you worked. Genuine kindness and service to make anyone’s night better. The two of replying with drink orders before she left with a smile, letting you two decide on what to order.

“I recommend these.” Felix reached over to point at a couple of items. You scanned over the descriptions as he went on about his favorites. “Get whatever you want, though. It’s on me.”

You let silence fall between you two as you continue to look over your options. A few of Felix’s suggestions sounded good enough to try, but you weren’t sure how much you could eat. As hungry as you were, nerves still had your stomach flip flopping. Perhaps something light to hold you over. You had woken up not so long ago as well and not used to having a full meal this time of day before work.

Once the food had been ordered, Felix cut straight to the chase. “How much do you need a month to be comfortable?”

“That’s a good question.” You pulled your phone out, resting it on the table. Clicking through to your note app where you kept track of your expenses. You could feel your face reddening as you double checked for accuracy. “I feel like I’m taking advantage of you.”

“Don’t.” Felix looked unaffected as you glanced over at him, placing his straw in his drink. “I’m literally paying for your time. That’s more valuable than most things.”

You nodded at his words. He had a point; time was everything, and it felt like you never had enough hours in a day. You were tired more often than not, just needed extra time to recover. What you’d give for a vacation but knew you couldn’t afford one. At least not in the current position. Perhaps this chance could change everything. You’d hear him out and see what he was proposing in his offer.

“I could survive off twenty-five hundred a month.”

Felix seemed to ponder on your words. “So three thousand then? I can do that.”

He couldn’t be serious. You scoffed at him. “Felix, that’s a lot of money.”

“Then I’ll make sure I’m demanding with your time then. I had a contract made for you if you wanted to see it. It doesn’t have all the details yet because I wanted to run it by you.”

Felix’s phone was placed down next to yours, as you could see a file on the screen. You immediately zoomed in to read the contents. It surprised you how prepared he was. Perhaps he had been thinking about this for a while. He had been coming to the bar regularly for months now. As you read, you wondered how he skirted around with his word choices. Noticing it simply mentioning funds for the labor you provided.

Felix was speaking as you continued to read the document. Nothing stood out as a red flag. “Sex would be involved, but that would be down the line. Are you alright with that?”

Your cheeks flushed as you looked back up at him, seeing concern on his face. Sure, Felix was attractive and your type, but the whole situation hadn’t sunk in yet. He would pay for that companionship like he mentioned, and you knew it would include sex. The idea of being paid for sleeping with him did not turn you off. Just embarrassed at such boldness from him in such a public space. “Yeah, I can do that. Just need a little time.”

“You’ll need to get tested.”

Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion. “For what?“

“Diseases. If we’re gonna have sex, I think we both deserve to be honest with each other. I can get you my results too, so that way you know I’m clean.”

“Oh right. I didn’t think of that.”

“I can sense the hesitation. Don’t stress. I can wait till you’re more comfortable with me. That can come later.”

It honestly surprised you at how calm you were. You weren’t apprehensive about the request at all. However, part of you wondering what got into you. You never entertained the idea of a job like this, but for Felix, you wanted to. The idea alone was thrilling. Felix had been treating you well as a customer and you were sure he could as an employer.

“If you’re uncomfortable with all this, you can say no. I won’t force you to do this.”

“No, I’m not. I guess I just don’t know why me, of all people.”

“You’ve always been so amiable. I enjoy our nights at the bar to the point I want more of it. Plus, I can pay you more than that place so you can actually focus on things you want to. We both win in this situation.”

The free time you would get from not working full time was enough to convince you to take the offer. Deep down, you already knew you were going to say yes, but forced yourself to weigh your options. Three thousand a month was a lot more than what you were bringing in. That money could do a lot of good for you.

“Alright, let’s do this. If you agree to fifteen hundred twice a month, I’ll do it.”

“Deal.”

You sighed as you felt Felix’s fingers run through your hair as the two of you were cuddled on his couch. The movie on the screen merely background noise at this point. Last you looked, Felix had his eyes closed, not falling asleep but enjoying the moment of peace. His jet lag giving him a rough time adjusting back to the time zone. You swore you’d help keep him awake for at least three more hours before he could finally crash.

Your voice was soft as you spoke. “You still with me, Lix?”

A silent nod from him as hugged you closer to him. Brown eyes finally opening as he smiled at you. A yawn leaving him and you giggled in response. You knew he wanted to sleep. He was trying his best to stay awake. With a grumble from him, you pushed off his chest to sit up. “Let me make you some coffee. Does that sound nice?”

His hand fell off your body as you rose to get up. You could hear him sit up on the couch. “Please.”

You made your way over to his kitchen, already knowing where he kept his instant coffee. You quickly placed the pod of coffee in the coffeemaker as you reached for a mug. A press of a button and the coffee started to brew. You sighed as you were waiting, contemplating making a cup for yourself. You were planning on staying up late tonight with midterms coming up. One paper close to being wrapped up, and you were sure you could finish it tonight.

Two months into the arrangement and things were smoothing out for you. The closer you were getting to Felix, the easier the job became. The free time already helping you catch up on schoolwork. Stress levels of yours going down as your time with Felix didn’t truly feel like work. The two of you mostly going out for dinner or events that Felix needed to attend to. The last two weeks introduced you to spending time with him at his condo. Felix saying he wanted some moments of privacy with you.

You were quick to realize Felix was one for physical contact. Hugs when you met up for the night, hand holding at restaurants, and cuddling in his car, and now in his place when you joined him. You didn’t mind in the slightest happy to oblige his requests. Felix kept his word on not pushing sex till you were comfortable with it, but the thought was indeed more appealing the more of you two hung out.

You came back with the cup of coffee, offering the handle to him. “Oh, before I forget. I need an advance from you.”

Felix took the cup from you, replying before he took a sip. “How much do you need?”

“Four hundred. I need to take an additional lab this semester. There is finally an opening, but I don’t have enough for the class.”

There was a playful smirk appearing on his face as he placed the mug down on the coffee table. “Then you’ll have to find a way to earn it.”

Without a second thought, you kneeled in front of him, your knees hitting the soft plush rug as you moved between his parted legs. Felix’s eyes were wide as he stared at you, not expecting such a bold action from you so soon. Your hands finding his thighs as you slowly ran them up closer to his crotch.

“That’s not what I had in mind, but that is the quickest way to get the money.” His hands found yours, stopping you from pulling down his pajama pants. “You sure you’re ready for this?”

You gave a nod. “Yes. It was in the agreement, anyway.”

“But I want you to be comfortable with this. Not doing it because you have to.”

You rolled your eyes, letting an annoyed tone come through. “Just let me suck your dick.”

Felix’s hands immediately left yours as he let out a laugh. Clearly not going to stop you after a remark like that. Your fingers tucked under the waistband of the material and Felix’s hips rose just enough to let you pull the clothing down to free his cock. His cock hardening as you reached for it. This wasn’t your first experience with someone, but it had been a minute since you’d had sex. Your goal was to take it slow and try your best to bring Felix as much pleasure as you could.

“Fuck,” A breathy sigh left him as Felix felt your tongue against the tip of his cock, licking up the first drop of pre-cum that had formed. He seemed to sink further into the couch as the sensation caused him to throw his head back. You licked down his shaft to provide enough lubrication for your hand that stroked him, feeling him become more erect.

Felix was a decent size as you guided his cock past your lips. You started with light sucks as you gradually got used to the cock in your mouth. As you worked more of him into your mouth, you focused on your breathing. You were quick to find a pattern, letting yourself enjoy the sounds Felix was making. His moans were low but deep in tone as he let them out.

“Oh, what a pretty little mouth you have.” You glanced up to see Felix gazing down at you with lidded eyes. A wide smile on his face as you pulled away to stoke his cock while you let yourself have a moment to breathe. Out of practice, but still willing to satisfy him. Your lips coming down to give an experimental suck on his balls. Another moan leaving him as he continued to watch you. “Someone is eager to please me. Don’t worry, baby. Make me come and I’ll let you have whatever you want.”

The money was the last thing on your mind as your mouth found the tip of his cock once more. You happily took him back into your mouth, hungrily sucking as Felix filled the room with moans. His hands finding your hair to help hold it away from your face as well to give him a better view of your actions. Felix was losing his composure under you as he lightly bucked up into your mouth. He was trying his best to remain still, but you knew he was getting close to his high.

“You’re being so good for me. Letting me use this mouth of yours.” You enjoyed the praises from him. They simply encouraged you. You stared up the best could through your eyelashes to look at him. You got a groan in response as the two of you made eye contact. “Fuck. Keep looking at me. I’m close.”

You let Felix have complete control when his bucks were becoming aggressive. A hand of yours cupping his balls, feeling your own saliva dripped down from your mouth and had coated them. The second squeeze from your hand earning you a hiss as Felix pushed you down further onto his cock. Nose flat against his pubic bone as you reacted to the sudden thrust. His action surprised you, trying to swallow as quickly as you could as you felt his hot seed spill into your mouth.

Felix’s hands released their hold on you as he basked in the afterglow of his orgasm. You pulled back, giving a few last licks across the sensitive tip, enjoying the flinching from Felix. His eyes were on you once more. You sat on your knees with a smug smirk. He looked pleased as he stared you down. The blissful look still on his face as he motioned you to come closer. “Come here.”

You climbed up into his lap, wrapping your arms around his neck. Knees falling onto either side of his hips as you lightly brushed your lips against his own. Felix leaned forward into the kiss and you felt his arms wrap around you, holding you to him. Felix was always greedy for your lips. You recalled him saying a few days ago how much he longed for your lips against his. You wouldn’t deny him, especially with his passionate kisses. Felix always kissing you with such vigor as if this was the last chance he’d get.

A whimper left you as you felt one of Felix’s hands come between you two to dip under your clothing to your needy core. There was no hiding how wet you had become. You gasped into Felix’s mouth as slipped two fingers into you. Felix took the chance to slip his tongue past your lips, letting it wrestle with yours as he aggressively worked his fingers. You hadn’t expected such a reaction from his touch, but your body felt on fire as the knot in your stomach quickly forming.

Felix pulled away, breathless. “Grind.”

You nodded at the command and worked yourself against his hand. The palm of his hand providing just enough friction against your clit. It had been too long since someone had touched you and you needed to get off. It wouldn’t be long till you fell apart, especially with Felix letting praises leave him as you continued to work yourself. His words going straight to your head. “Such a good girl indeed. Keep going.”

You let your head rest on his shoulder as you felt your orgasm sneaking up on you. A desperate whine leaving you. “Gonna come.”

The deep voice of his was barely loud enough to hear as he spoke into your ear. “Come, then.”

A curse left you as you picked up your pace. The knot quickly unraveling as you rode out your high. Pitiful moans leaving you right into Felix’s ear as you slowly let yourself stop after the waves of pleasure died down. You rested against Felix, clinging on to him as you let yourself collect your bearings.

You pulled away just enough to let Felix remove his hand out of your clothing. The wet digits brought to your lips, and you took them into your mouth, tasting yourself on them. You sucked his fingers clean as Felix stared with a raised eyebrow. You pulled away, feeling your cheeks redden. “Don’t give me that look.”

“What look?” A chuckle left him as you buried your head into his shoulder. “I’m just appreciating what you’re giving me.”

You didn’t respond but rested against him, waiting for the blush to fade. Eyes shut, just enjoying his warmth against you. You felt him reach for his phone on the arm of the couch. You wouldn’t push for the money, knowing you didn’t have to. Sure enough, a few seconds later, you could hear a ding of a notification from your phone.

You climbed off of him back to the floor to reach for your phone. There was a smile on your face as you read the bank notification of the transferred funds. You immediately opened your phone and sent a payment to your college to pay for the lab so you wouldn’t have to worry about it later. Once taken care of, you looked over to Felix. “Thank you. I appreciate it.”

“I know you do.” Felix leaned forward, pulling you back into his hold. He reached for your phone and tossed it further down the couch, away from you two. A sigh leaving him as he felt you rest against him. “I’m tired and it’s getting late. Spend the night with me?”

“Lix, I have a class in the morning.”

He rolled his eyes as an annoyed look took up his face. “Stay the night and I’ll take you to class in the morning.”

You couldn’t help but pout at him. “But if I stay, I won’t want to go to class.”

He quickly scoffed as his grip tightened the second you tried to pull away. “That’s your problem. I want you to stay the night.”

Six months flew by as the two of you continue to meet up. Your sessions were averaging to three nights a week, sometimes more, depending on Felix’s schedule and wants. You were a little heartbroken knowing he was going to be gone for a couple of weeks. He had a few fashion shows in New York that work forced him to attend. He offered to bring you with him, but unfortunately it was finals week for you.

The two of you taking advantage of what little time he had left before he left. You were resting against his sweaty frame in his bed. Both coming down from post orgasm haze as the two of you composed yourselves. Heart rates and breathing finally settling. Felix’s stamina surprising even you tonight. Now that sex was routine, Felix seemed always in need of you. The two of you finding new ways to play with each other to keep up with the demand. You didn’t mind in the slightest as Felix paid attention to your wants, making sure he achieved your pleasure just as much as his own.

The moment of happy cuddling interrupted by Felix. “I want you to move in with me.”

You sighed against him, not wanting to have this conversation again this week. “Lixie, I can’t do that.”

“Why not? It’ll be cheaper than that crummy apartment you’re in now. I’m never here to use it, anyway.”

You playfully smacked his chest. “Because you already pay me too much as it is. I’ll feel so guilty living here.”

Felix’s fingers found your chin to force you to look up at him. His eyes searching yours. “Then I’ll rent my condo out to you. You wanted to save money for your dad, and this gives you an opportunity to do so.”

You pulled away from his hold, annoyance in your voice as you sat on the edge of the bed. “Don’t do that Felix.”

There was a scowl on your face as you looked back at him. You hated when he pulled at your heartstrings to convince you to accept more of his money. Especially now that you had opened up to him about your father’s health. You had no problem calling him out on his manipulation that he was quick to rebuttal that it wasn’t.

“Look, I know you don’t like it when I overstep, but I want what’s best for you.” Felix still pressed on, even with you getting upset. Now he was sitting up and reaching for you to pull you close. You fought to brush his hands away, but he didn’t let up and a few seconds later, he jerked you back into his embrace. His arms were now tight around you, forcing you to remain locked in his arms. “You know damn well this condo sits empty. It’s one of the two I own. Let me rent it out to you.”

A huff left you too tired to fight your way out of the hold. “Then you’re adjusting the contract on how much you money you’re giving me.”

“You know damn well I could pay your wages in advance if I wanted to.” An eye roll from you as you told him not to brag. Another habit of his that you hated. You clearly knew he had the money, but he didn’t need to remind you about it. “I’m not bragging. I want you to stop worrying about how I spend my money and let me take care of you.”

You were hitting a breaking point. Almost ready to leave for the night. The two of you never fought, but had conversations like this that could end messy and heated. You knew Felix was getting attached to you. Felix was an open book with his emotions. He practically fought with himself to not say the familiar love word. In the back of your mind, you knew he wasn’t the only one getting attached. However, getting feelings involved made you feel ashamed of the whole situation. Felix shouldn’t have to buy your love and you didn’t want him to.

Now was the time to give him a quick reminder you weren’t his partner or lover. Just an employee. “You bought my time, not the right to control me.”

“I don’t want to control you.” There was irritation present in his voice, clearly annoyed with the statement from you. His grip constricting once more the second you shifted against him. Felix let out a sigh before speaking again. “Listen to me. I care a lot about you. I know I said I wouldn’t mention it, but I do. Renting this place out to you saves me money and helps you. I would be spending less. Isn’t that what you want?”

Felix was right, that was what you wanted. You had paid off your debt and had a decent amount in savings, even with sending money to your parents. Perhaps this would be an excellent opportunity for you. You wanted to pick up working again as well. Even if it was just part time. The sense of independence again with your own money you earned and not his own. You missed the bar tending job, and you knew you could go back at any time. Then perhaps you could talk to Felix about ending the contract. Clearly, a genuine relationship was forming, and you knew the both of you could only skirt around the love word for so long.

A smirk found its way on your face. “Okay, Daddy. Whatever you want.”

You let out a giggle as soon as you heard a growl from Felix. He loathed the pet name and you only use it to defuse situations. He was quick to wrestle you under him as more of your giggling filled the room. Felix successfully pinned you under him in a matter of seconds. Now staring up at him, getting lost in his brown eyes as he brushed the stray hairs out of your face.

“You know I hate it when you call me that.”

You playfully shrugged. “But I love your reaction. It’s funny.”

You felt a hand of his slip between you, giving you a cue to spread your legs apart, knowing he was ready for another round. “I’ll cut back your funds.”

“I’ll just pout at you then.”

Felix’s cock was hard again as he ran the tip up and down your folds. A gasp leaving you as he pressed into you once more. The mix of fluids from the previous session guiding him in with ease. A wide smile was back on his face as he rocked his hips into you. “Then I’ll just bend you over my couch and fuck your brains out till we’re both happy.”

Moving into Felix’s condo took a couple of months. The two of you were still struggling with the subject of the contact. You were desperately trying to show Felix that you didn’t care for the money at this point. The funds were needed, but you didn’t need the amount he pushed on you. That you didn’t need money to fulfill your wants. You had everything you needed now, but he pressed it was a staple for the two of you. That it’s what he could offer you to keep you happy. Not understanding that he was happiness. You were going to sit him down and talk things out. Money didn’t equal love, and you were determined to drill it into him.

Now here you were moving in your belongings, still thinking about your words. Unsure what to say to convince him to keep his money. You just wanted him and he was a fool for not understanding. He clearly wanted you, so why couldn’t he just accept your own feelings? He had no reason to be so set on that damn contract.

You set a box down as you turned to the help that brought their truck over to your larger furniture. “Chan right? Thank you again for helping me move.”

“Chris or Chan. I respond to either.” Chan stood up straight, dusting off his hands as he turned to face you. Wide grin on his face as he gave a shrug. “And it’s really no problem. I was free anyway.”

“Well, you came to my rescue. Felix wanted to rent a whole moving company for my tiny apartment when I just need a truck for my bookcases.”

“He gets like that. It worked out. I’ve been meaning to meet you.”

You hadn’t met most of Felix’s friends. Only meeting Minho and Jeongin for dinner on a couple of occasions. Work usually swamped Felix with traveling, and by the time he was home, he just wanted to spend his free time with you. He promised he’d let you met all his old members and give them a chance to tell all the embarrassing stories they had to you. It impressed you that the group of eight had stayed so close, even with their disbandment. Yourself not even having a best friend for that length of time, let alone seven of them.

“He speaks so highly of you.” Your curiosity now peeked, wondering if Chan knew if your arrangement or if Felix had just told him you were his girlfriend. Chan leaned against the couch, crossing his feet at his ankles as he continued talking. “He’s been lonely for a long time. I don’t know everything about you two, but I’m happy he found you. He’s back to himself and not on that dark path he was on.”

You gave a weak smile. “I think it’s mutual. Felix has done a lot for me, and I’ll never be able to repay that.”

“I don’t want to see him like that again.” There was no ill intent in Chan’s words, but you could see his face get serious. “Please keep being good to him.”

“Don’t worry, I will. I adore him.”

Felix made his way back through the front door with two boxes. He sent them down by his couch and you could see he still had his smile from this morning plastered on his face as he told the two of you that all of your belongings were finally in the condo. He was definitely more excited about you being here than yourself. You couldn’t help but smile back, now more motivated than before to talk to him about ending the contract.

The two of you were a couple clear as day and you wanted to be. The only thing the two of you missing was that dumb little love word. You wanted to say it to him, but still held back. You’d feel better being officially together, especially now with your own income again. It took some convincing on your part, but you told Felix you enjoyed the part-time work. Three nights a week wouldn’t kill him, especially with the six fashion seasons that kept him busy. Binging tv shows getting boring rather quickly when you weren’t working on schoolwork.

Felix made his way over to you to wrap an arm around your waist. “Do you want to stay for dinner? She’s a superb cook.”

Chan has reached behind him to pick up his jacket off the couch and slipping it on. “I can’t, sadly. The wife has dinner plans for us, but you two should swing by sometime. Come check out the new studio I built.”

You looked at Felix, knowing his schedule was fairly empty. “Maybe this weekend?”

There was a nod from Felix, and Chan was on board with the idea. With plans made, Chan made his way out of the condo. Felix slipping away to close the door behind Chan as he left. Now or never would be the best time to talk. “Lix, we need to talk.”

Felix’s smile fell as he pushed off the door, concerned as he noticed your fidgeting hands. “About what?”

“I want you to void the contract.”

“What?” There was panic in his voice as it became unstable. “W-Why? I thought we were doing so well.”

“We are. I want to be with you. The guilt of the contract is too much for me. I love you and I know you love me. Let’s just make this easier on both of us.”

Felix was silent as he shifted the weight on his feet. The lack of response surprised you. Now worried you had misjudged him. Perhaps he wasn’t ready for such a discussion. You had been convinced the two of you were on the same page. With certainty you had heard him whisper he loved you last night when he thought you were asleep in his arms.

You could see tears threatening to fall from his eyes. “Felix, say something.”

The bottom lip of his was lightly trembling, and such a reaction took aback you. This was completely out of character for him. Sure, he’d cried through a movie, but this wasn’t normal. “Voiding the contract means you could leave. I don’t want you to leave.”

“Why would I leave? I’m telling you I want you as a partner. I just don’t want you to pay for it.” You closed the distance between you two, reaching for his face. Your thumbs wiping the tears away. “Do you think I don’t genuinely love you?”

“We’ve never talked about it.”

Felix seemed overwhelmed. A pang of pain hit your heart. This was not your intention. Felix had a lot of love to give and you knew this. He just struggled not having the normal opportunities of a relationship. You wanted to give him that. Show him nothing was going to change. A piece of paper with some signatures being voided wasn’t going to have you running for the hills. Him not giving you money would not have you falling out of love with him.

“Hey, listen to me. I could have left at any point, and I didn’t. Your busy schedule doesn’t deter me away from you. Don’t be afraid of commitment. You’ve already done it this long.”

He nodded but stay silent. You continued speaking now with a small smile on your face. The longer you looked at his sad eyes, the more emotional you became. You were telling him this whole relationship wasn’t ever truly about the money. That’s why you two fought so hard over him sending funds. The relationship you formed was about Felix finding out that he could have happiness and love in his hectic life. That he deserved the love he wanted.

“You said you wanted to give me what I need, right? That you wanted to take care of me?” There was more nodding from Felix as he listened intently to your words. “Then do this for me and void it. I want you, not the money. For my sanity, I need you to get rid of it. Please.”

“Okay. I will, but I'm still gonna send you money though. I like not having to remember to pay the bills.”

You chuckled at him, “I can do that for you.”

He blurted his next words out, “I love you.”

“And I love you.” You placed a light kiss on his nose. “It feels great to say it.”

“Nothing is gonna change, right? You’re still mine?”

“All yours, baby.” You sighed as you wrapped your arms around his neck. “You can even still spoil me all you want. I know I won’t be able to stop you.”

Felix’s eyes opened when he heard you shut the bedroom door. You knew it was unavoidable in waking him, but you had hoped you’d be quiet enough to sneak in. A smile on his face when he realized it was you that disturbed him. He looked adorable as he stretched. His hair was all over the place as he moved to lie on his back.

“Get over here.”

Felix’s voice was always deeper in the morning. It always took you surprised it could get lower. You had teased him about it every time. His favorite joke of yours being a crack about water damage in those pipes of his. Made no sense but still got him to laugh.

You stripped yourself off your shoes and jeans before slipping under the blankets to join him on the bed. “I’m sorry I couldn’t come last night. Weather delayed my flight.”

Felix was quick to pull you to his hold. Your head resting on his bare chest as his arms held you to him. “I know, baby. I’m not mad. It wasn’t your fault.”

You immediately melted into his embrace, overjoyed feeling his warmth against you. “Thank you for sending a driver.”

He was mumbling, still not fully awake. Eyes already shut again. “I wanted to see you first thing.”

“Did you miss me?”

A scoff left him. “What kind of question is that? Of course I did. The longest week of my life.”

You had spent a week of your school break with your parents, finally getting the time to see them. A vacation for the first time and you loved every minute. Even your dad making significant progress in his recovery and up for the company. Felix was upset he couldn’t go with you, but you assured him there would be a next time. Already longing to go back. Swearing to yourself, you wouldn’t go that long without seeing them again. However, that was pushed to the side because now all you wanted was Felix.

Felix groaned as you moved to sit on top of him. “Need you now.”

You couldn’t hide the smirk on your face as you felt his cock already hardening under you. “Yeah, do you need my help?”

Another low guttural groan left Felix as he felt you grind your clothed core against him. A helpless whine leaving him as he writhed under you. “Baby, don’t tease me.”

You reached between your thighs to push the material of your panties to the side. Felix’s hand already pushing his briefs down enough to free his cock. The tip blindly prodding at your opening. You slowly worked his cock into you as you sank down. Your hands finding their way to his chest as you took a moment to adjust to the stretch. Felix’s hands gripping onto the sheets as he softly cursed. You loved the sight below you as Felix’s mouth hung open and whatever moan he had was trapped in his throat.

You were proud seeing such a reaction out of him. “You missed me.”

“Always. Especially when you send me inappropriate videos to taunt me.”

“Here I thought you’d appreciate them.”

What you would give for him to keep his morning voice all day. “Appreciate this more.”

You had to agree with his words. A happy sigh leaving you as you worked yourself up and down his length. Felix’s eyes finally opening to watch you as you moved. His hands slowly making their way to the hem of your shirt, signaling he wanted you to take it off. Taking the recommendation, you pulled the shirt over your head and tossed it to the side. Your bra soon joining the shirt on the floor as you watched Felix take you in. You loved how he always had a look of adoration on his face. He would worship you if you’d give him the opportunity, and you weren’t about to stop him.

Your hands trailed up to Felix’s neck. A blissful smile appearing on his face as he felt your hands squeeze the sides of his neck like he enjoyed. You were still apprehensive about with the action but he had assured you he wasn’t in any real danger. Teaching you on a previous occasion how he would tap your arm three times if he needed air.

A croak left Felix as your hips picked up speed. Back arching up off the bed as you applied more pressure against his throat. He was already teetering on the edge of an orgasm and you wanted him to fall apart under you. As soon as you saw his eyes rollback into his head, you released your hold on his neck earning you a sharp inhale followed by the neediest moan you had ever heard from him. His cum suddenly painting your walls as you rode him through his high into overstimulation.

A whine fell from your lips as your own need was building. “Lix, I wanna come on your cock.”

Felix was panting under you as he nodded. Bringing a hand to you against you to let his thumb rub at your clit. Your own moans slipping out at the added stimulation. You wouldn’t admit it, but you were as desperate for release as he had been. Truly a long week for the two of you after being able to spend such a considerable amount of time together.

You were near your high. Hearing how pathetic you sounded, begging for your orgasm. “Felix, please.”

Felix’s hips now bucking up into you to help the best he could. “Just come. Don’t fight it.”

Your eyes fluttered shut as your nails dug into Felix’s chest. Convinced that you’d be leaving marks, but you didn’t care in heat of the moment. The urge to come was there, and you just needed a little more to be taken over the edge. You let yourself enjoy all the sensations. Felix’s thumb finally finding the perfect pressure against your bundle of nerves. The strain on your thighs was getting to you as you mentally pleaded with your body to press on a little longer.

“Come on, baby. I know you’re close. I can feel it.”

You could barely hear Felix over your own pants, but it was just enough of a push you needed. Your walls clamping around his cock as your orgasm washed over you. You powered through the ache to ride your high as the moans you had been holding back finally left you. Felix’s thumb finally coming to a stop as you slowed down. You raised yourself enough to let his softening cock slip out of you before collapsing on him in heap now, not wanting to move. The jet lag of the long flight catching up to you.

You felt a hand caressing your side. “Don’t get comfy yet. Let’s go soak in the tub.”

“I don’t want to.”

“I’ll order food if you agree to the bath.”

You groaned, rolling off of him, mumbling into the sheets, “I hate you. Don’t use my weaknesses against me.”

There was a chuckle from Felix as he got up. You turned your head to watch him head straight for the connecting bathroom. You could hear the water running and you knew you’d join him. Just as soon as your thighs stopped aching enough for you to walk the distance to the tub. You could hear Felix ask you what bubble bath you wanted, but you didn’t respond. The choice didn’t matter; you enjoyed both.

Eventually, Felix poked his head back into the bedroom. “Get your ass in here.”

You smirked as you sat up. Finally, knowing the best way to get your revenge on him ruining your after sex nap. “Yes, daddy.”

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♡ inexperienced with chan

↳ chan x reader ↳ wc: 1.9k ↳ genre: smut, celeb!au, f2l ↳ summary: what happens when your friend is inexperienced ↳ warnings: fingering, protected sex, first time ↳ masterlist ♡ inexperienced masterpost ♡ read on AO3

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Chan isn’t really thinking at all when he tells you the words that set this whole thing in motion, which are “Maybe I should do it with you then.”

You two were having an innocent conversation about sex and how Chan still hasn’t had it. It wasn’t exactly a complaint—just a remark that did get him upset here and there, jealous even, of all the people that get to be with someone they care about. He didn’t feel that way all the time, of course. It’s just that sometimes, Chan wanted to have someone he feels that close to, too.

The thing was, he could have had sex many times, but he just didn’t want to hook up with a fan or someone who idealized him. For some reason, he felt it couldn’t end well, not if someone’s expectations were too high. Plus, Chan wouldn’t be able to shake the feeling he was using someone.

Other than that, he rarely met new people, save for other famous people, and that could end messy too. So, with work, working out, friends, and family, Chan didn’t really have that much time to even date, and most days, he didn’t feel the need to.

Whenever he did try to give dating a shot, he’d realize his job just wasn’t allowing him to be the type of boyfriend he wanted to be, a man who had enough time and energy for his partner, someone who had the means for grand gestures and romantic stuff, someone who could be there when needed.

His status didn’t allow him to go public with a relationship, so all his dating had to be done in secret, which meant no fancy dinners, no dates by the river, no coffee shops, no movies… Chan just couldn’t be seen with someone. Therefore, he wasn’t exactly shocked nor surprised that he still hasn’t had sex, and neither were you.

You weren’t a part of his industry, but you somehow understood his predicament. When he met you at the gym years ago, he thought of you as a nice woman with a really pretty smile and eyes that made him look again and again until he approached you. Nowadays, he thinks of you as one of the rare friends he has who aren’t associated with his company in any way, someone he can talk to about everything.

So, why Chan implied he should have sex with you is beyond him, seeing as this friendship means the world to him. What’s even more surprising is that you respond immediately, speaking in a low tone without breaking eye contact, “Maybe you should.”

For a second, his mind stops working and the only thing he can feel is the beating of his heart as it threatens to fly out of his chest. “Y-you want that?” Chan doesn’t think he’s the bravest guy out there, but getting those three words out is a heroic feat in his eyes.

“If we both want it, why not?” you say with a shrug, your eyes still as calm as ever as you sit up on the sofa, away from Chan’s shoulder that you’ve used as your cushion for the last hour, as always. There’s an air of closeness between you, always has been, and suddenly, it feels like you’re about to get a lot closer.

Ten minutes later, you’re in his bed, under him, naked. He’s naked too, and Chan can’t really believe this is all happening, that it’s real, that you’re going to let him sleep with you, that you both want this. It isn’t a big deal, but when you came over earlier, not even the smallest part of him thought he’d be getting laid tonight, so now that you’re tugging at his cock, he can’t believe his luck.

His favorite part so far? Kissing you. He’s not sure how long you two do just that, but he would keep doing it all night if he could. You taste so sweet and can be so gentle with your lips and tongue but so rough with your teeth, which Chan is starting to realize is his preference.

He wants you to bite him, scratch him, mark him, which you do when he fingers you. Every time he curls his fingers towards himself, you dig your nails into the skin of his shoulders, turning him on even more.

“Faster, Chan, ther—ahhh!” The moans filling up his room are the stuff of fantasies, and he hopes they’ll stay ingrained in his brain.

When Chan starts rubbing your clit with his thumb while his fingers are moving inside of you—which is something he has done before and that has gotten him great reviews—you start moaning into his mouth and assaulting his lips with your teeth, making his cock twitch against your thigh.

“Like that?” he asks, cocky about getting you to get this lost in pleasure so early on. Chan wasn’t expecting you to be into it as much as you are, and he’s so thankful he’s not the only one this horny.

“Just like that, fuck!” You’re needy and eager, which is so unlike the friend he knows and loves so much. This new side of yours just wakes something animalistic in him, something that makes Chan want to pin you down and fuck you into the mattress just because of how nicely you moan for him.

The amount of precum that’s slowly spreading across your thigh, leaking from his cock, is embarrassing, but Chan’s just never been this horny or excited in his life. Your whines and whimpers make the whole thing so much better. You’re just a friend, and he shouldn’t even be thinking about you this way, but he can’t help it, not when you’re clearly down to have sex with him.

A while later, when you come around his fingers, Chan grunts loudly as shivers run down his spine. He just made you come. Him, Chan. It’s not something you can or would even try to fake—your walls clench his fingers hard, he feels them release and clench again as you cry out his name. Some things can’t be faked.

The fact that you pull him in closer and stroke his cock while muttering “More,” over and over again into his mouth makes Chan even more eager.

The condom’s on in a matter of seconds, and when he finally takes a dive and enters you, he sees stars. “Oh fuck, so good,” is the first thing that comes to mind and leaves his mouth as he lets his head drop down until it practically touches yours.

Is it normal that sex feels this consuming, this perfect? Chan doesn’t know, of course, but he can’t even worry about the feeling he has, one that makes him think his entire body is burning, the need to move and feel even more of you overpowering him. “Fuck… Keep going,” you whine sweetly, driving him crazy.

His thrusts are slow but hard, hips moving rhythmically as if Chan’s been doing this his entire life. It is so easy—just lead his cock in all the way, let it graze the warm muscles, and then pull it back a bit, but not too much. Doing all that while trying not to come is challenging, mostly because you make it that way. You’re just too hot to handle, and every time he sees your face grimace in pleasure, he feels the need to start fucking you hard.

Seeing you spread your thighs even further is another thing that makes him grunt and so does the realization that he can finally squeeze your tit as he uses the other hand to prop himself up over your body, enjoying the view. “You’re so fucking hot,” Chan tells you, unsure if he’s crossing some friendship line. Then, he remembers he’s inside of you and that there are no more lines.

“I can’t get enough,” you admit, making him go crazy. Sex is supposed to be hot and sexy like it’s shown in the movies. But, when Chan leans in to kiss you, wanting to shove his tongue inside your mouth and feel you that way too, you lean in as well. You bump heads, which makes you both move away and grab your foreheads.

Instead of it ruining the moment, the collision makes the whole thing better because you both start laughing. Hearing you laugh so sweetly eases any tension that may have existed between you two and reminds Chan that it is still you, that you two are friends at the end of the day, and that you are both there to have a good time with each other. “Was that okay?”

“You hitting me on the head or?” you joke, giving him a quick shake of the head before letting it sink back into the pillow, your hands sliding up his arms until they reach his neck.

“No, me fucking you,” Chan tells you as if it’s the most normal thing, and for some reason, it feels that way. The mood shifts when he uses that word—he sees you biting down on your lip, feels your walls clench around his cock, sees how you stop giggling and focus on his mouth.

“It is perfect,” you admit, making Chan start moving again, albeit slowly. “Keep going…”

“Good,” he breathes the word and leans in until he’s hovering above you, using his elbows for support so his torso doesn’t crush you. “Let me know if you want me to change anything or if you ne—”

“Hey, hey!” Your hands fly up to his face, which you cup so gently Chan never wants you to stop. “You’re doing great, just keep doing the same thing.”

Since you’re asking so nicely, he does what you asked of him and focuses on not coming. Chan’s close whenever he listens to your moaning and thinks about being the man that makes you feel that way, so he has to look away and think of something else. Then, when he focuses on how tight you feel around him, he almost blows, so he has to pull out almost all the way and breathe deeply until his orgasm gets pushed back.

Even then, you giggle and act like you don’t mind, so Chan continues as soon as he can and uses his fingers on your clit to get you off. He wants you to come. In fact, he needs you to since he really has to make you feel good. It’s not a game, and you’re not just some random person he’ll never see again.

When you come a while later, his chest fills with pride, and Chan basks in the sounds you make and the way you say his name like a prayer. “Oh God, yes, yes, Chan, yes, Chan…” The low grunting will haunt him forever, and he wouldn’t have it any other way.

When Chan fills the condom up, he pulls out and just collapses on top of you, letting you caress his head and back slowly, gently, lulling him to sleep. Your fingernails graze his skin, sending shivers down his spine. You’re both still breathing heavily and trying to catch your breath, bodies warm and sweaty, and Chan enjoys feeling this close to you.

“Why haven’t we done this sooner?” he asks, not even thinking about it being his first time. It’s you he’s thinking of—why hasn’t he made a move on you the second he wanted to? Well, now he knows that was a mistake, and he hopes you’ll let him make up for it.

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I just read your 3racha fic and the way I am SWEATING 🥵🥵 please tell me there's a part two where Jisung gets to fuck

I WILL GLADLY MAKE A PART TWO! I had so much fun writing the 3racha fic!

hot chocolate

han jisung x fem!reader

description: fluff. reader starts her period and jisung comes in to help. short scene with the reader, chan, changbin, and hyunjin.

warnings: no warnings really, talks about periods.

wc: 1.4k

a/n: my period came 2 days earlier than when it was supposed to, so I decided to write what happened today(ofc jisung wasn't in my home lol). writing this definitely helped me feel better. :)

*not proofread*

I groaned as I laid in bed, trying to find a more comfortable spot. ever since I started getting periods, they got worse every month with every year. its to the point where I'm throwing up and passing out due to cramps- which just started happening this year. nothing seemed to help: walking around, jogging, working out, dancing, over the counter medicine, prescription medicine, nothing. heating pads and warm drinks helped me make it through the day, but just barely. the first day is always the worst of them all, I couldn't move without pain coursing through my body. so I stayed in one spot not moving, with nothing to eat or drink.

I curled up into a ball as I pulled my weighted blanket over my body, along with my other blankets on the bed. I nestled my head into my childhood stuffed animal, trying to hum away the cramps. humming along the somber songs I had playing on jisung's speaker. I cried out as another twisting pain bursted in my lower abdomen. I wish jisung was here, but he had to leave to work on the album coming up. we've been dating for a couple of months, but he has yet to see me during my period because of his schedule.

I must have passed out for the third time because the music had stopped or my phone had died. I couldn't remember if I plugged it up at all with my foggy mind. I didn't want to take the chance and check because of the fear of more pain. I sighed as I felt tears blur my vision. god, this is going to be the longest week of my life, isn't it. I hate this so much. I sobbed into my hand not wanting anyone- if they were home, to hear me.

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jisung slipped off his shoes and entered the dorm with changbin and chan. "I can't wait to eat this food!" changbin said, jumping in place. "easy there or you'll spill it." jisung said, laughing. they walked into the living room to see hyunjin on his phone. "hey hyunjin, how was your day?" chan asked, sitting next to him. "good, a little lonesome because minho, felix, and I finished practicing earlier than expected." hyunjin said, placing his phone in his hoodie pocket.

"what did you guys bring to eat?" hyunjin asked, rubbing his hands together. jisung shook his head as he was completely sure you had stayed over. "wait, y/n is still here right?" jisung asked, as he looked down the hall at his closed door. "I don't know, I've only been here for about an hour. it was quiet when I came home." hyunjin said, grabbing the bowl changbin had handed to him. jisung nodded, "I'm going to see if she's still here." jisung said, heading to his bedroom.

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I hummed to myself quietly as I carefully rubbed circles on my stomach in random places. i cried out as I felt another twisting pain. god, please just go away. I must have been in head so far, that I didn't hear anyone come in. tears going down my cheek, I felt someone touch my cheek. I gasped at the sudden affection and opened my eyes. looking up, my eyes met jisung's worried look.

"hey baby, what's going on? are you okay?" jisung asked, as his hand went down to my arm to rub it. I fixed my head to look at him better. "I started my period today, every year they've gotten worse and the first day is always the worst." I said in a small voice. his worried look soften, "is there anything I can do to help to make it more bearable for you?" jisung asked, I nodded with a soft smile. "I would really appreciate it if you could make me some hot chocolate then cuddle me as we watch emperor's new groove." I said.

jisung nodded, "of course baby. do you want anything to eat?" he asked, standing up. "no, if I eat anything right now I'll get a stomach ache." I said as I shook my head. "okay, I'll be right back. do you need to change before you get settled?" he asked as he stopped at the door, that was cracked open. I thought about it for a second. "yeah, can you help me to the bathroom?" I asked, holding my hand out to him. "of course baby." jisung said, coming back over to me. he held my hand and helped me off the bed. I groaned as pain went through my body as I moved. "it's gonna be okay." he said, hugging me once I was standing.

once I was in the bathroom, jisung headed back to the living room. he stood above the guys. "so is she still here?" chan asked with food in his mouth, looking over at him with his mouth covered. "yeah, she's been in bed all day. her period started today." jisung said, nodding his head. "oh, is she okay?" changbin asked. "its clear that she's in a lot of pain. she asked me to make her a hot chocolate and cuddles." jisung answered as he made his way to the kitchen. "well tell her I said, I hope she feels better." chan said, with hyunjin nodding his head. jisung nodded focusing on making his baby a drink.

"thank you channie." I said with a small voice, as I entered the room, hearing the last little bit. the boys turned their heads to me. "hey y/n-nie." changbin said with a wave. "hi binnie." I said, slowly making my way to the couch where they sat. "would like a bit a food?" hyunjin offered. "thank you but no. my stomach will ache if I eat anything right now." I explained to them as another painful cramp set in. i leaned down a little trying to easy it. "do you want some medicine?" chan asked with a worried voice. "most of the time medicine doesn't work for me, just warm drinks and heating pads." I said, closing my eyes.

changbin reached out and held my hand, trying to comfort me. "will you take two pills to see if it will help a little? I understand if you don't." chan said. knowing he'd be the worried dad figure in the dorm, I nodded my head. I hated for him to feel more worry, he doesnt need that on him. chan put his food down and ran to his room. "chan, bring them to my room." jisung said, holding a mug. he handed to me as he guided me back to his room. "bye y/n-nie." changbin and hyunjin said. I turned back and waved at them, not having any more energy to speak.

I made my way back onto the bed carefully and back into my nest of blankets. jisung did the same, letting me snuggle into him. I got a sip of my drink as jisung grabbed the remote and turned on the TV. he got it to Disney+ and clicked around till he got to emperor's new groove. "ready baby?" he asked, wrapping his arm around me. I nodded, placing my head on his shoulder and putting my legs onto his.

chan knocked on the door and opened it. he came in and handed me two pain pills. "here you go. if need need anything, don't hesitate to ask anyone here." chan said with a smile. "thank you chan." I said, taking the pills with a sip of hot chocolate. chan nodded and quietly made his way out of the room, closing the door.

jisung kissed the side of my head before leaning his onto mine. "I love you, y/n." jisung said quietly, rubbing small circles on my stomach like I did earlier. I smiled, "I love you too, ji." I said. I fixed my position a few times before fully settling. I sighed as I felt comfortable and loved. I mouthed some of the words of my favorite movie as jisung would giggle sometimes hearing some of the words under my breath.

after the movie was over, jisung looked down at me. "do you want to watch another movie, or try to get some rest?" he asked, rubbing my knee. "I guess a rest but I want to stay in this position." I said. jisung pulled me closer to him carefully. "okay baby." jisung said, as I snuggled into his neck. I closed my eyes and waited for sleepiness to fully set in. "thank you for taking care of me ji." I said, as my hand felt around for his. jisung smiled, bringing my hand up and kissing it. "sleep well, y/n-nie." I heard jisung say, just as I fell into a deep sleep.