Alrighty,, Anyone Wanna Cry With Me? Because This Is The Fic For You

Alrighty,, anyone wanna cry with me? Because this is the fic for you 😭😭✋

https://archiveofourown.org/works/27188491/chapters/66408277

42 chapters, almost 200k words, and a completed work.

Sakura: The food is too hot, I can't eat it!

Sasuke: You're too hot, and I still eat you.

Sakura: *blushes*

Sasuke: ;)

Naruto: One dinner. I just want ONE DINNER-

So i just woke up and imma just talk about what I remember from my dream

So it started out regular in new york,, where i was walking the streets with my cousin or friend (can’t remember) and we were watching ahead of us but my ass was like,, lemme look at the sky. Low and behold, I see a plane in the sky, at first it was just going normally, and then it’s engine or something exploded from one side. It started to come down to the ground, like i literally noticed it getting bigger and was scared that it was gonna hit in the spot my cousin/friend and I were standing. But it didn’t and it hit like a few miles or so over with a loud bang.

Then my mind warped into having me chase after my cousin cause her ass wanted to see the crash. And it almost backfired on us because it looked like it wasn’t done exploding and shit.

From there my mind warped me to fucking Atlantic City. What was I doing there I don’t know,, have i been there myself before, NOPE. But my mind had transferred me there so i got to live a little lol. Anyway, i was in my hotel room, and i was planning a day out with my 2 friends and one of their boyfriends. So i got ready, with heels and all and we went out to eat and then we drank at a place next to my hotel. From there i went back to my hotel room and noticed a really cool car from my window,, which wasn’t too high but not too low either.

The car belonged to my uncle lol, an uncle I haven’t seen in forever. This is the last part of the dream but it is a bit hazy. All i know is that i talked to him a few times and at one point i was back home and it was late, but mom wanted me to buy ice cream. It was too late at night so she said forget it but I remembered that my uncle is outside talking to his friends in the car. So my mind runs out and goes back to fucking atlantic city from New York and i ask my uncle if he could bring me to the store to buy ice cream. He said okay, i’ll call u in a bit (he had to drop off his friends first) and i was like aii bet, so i start to walk back and everything feels so fucking heavy.

I end up trying my hardest to stand up but my body had a mind of it’s own, it was like i don’t even know how to explain it besides that it felt like i was shit faced drunk. I went to take my heels off to help,, and lemme tell u i felt the fucking table behind me (that normally doesn’t happen to me in my dreams, but i mean this whole situation normally doesn’t happen where my mind literally feels like it’s collapsing) but after that i couldn’t even get up from the floor,,i was slightly embarrassed because I didn’t know if anyone was watching.

But, yeah, that’s how it ended. And then just now my mom screamed at me to wake up because it’s about to be 6 pm lol. This dream was scary not gonna lie. I’ve never delt with the sensation of reality with dreams, usually only seeing things i could barely remember. Anywho, i hope none of this is too symbolic for anything because the plan crashing scared me,, and my consciousness on the brink of collapsing didn’t help either.

Hope u enjoyed reading this literal crack.

Sasuke , handing Sakura a drink : here , have some water

Sakura : Sasuke kun, what's this for ?

Sasuke : I was worried , Sai said you get thirsty around me .

Sakura (choking on her water) : WHAT-

I hate being in a religious family while also kinda breaking out of my religion. You don’t get to take your own path and explore life in the way u want to and are looked down on, degraded to the point you feel guilty and uncertain.

The hardest part is having different views than someone else, in my case my mom. Like now, i told her my plans in the morning got cancelled and she uses the opportunity to say i have to go to the laundromat with my brother. I was confused because I thought she had to go and i stated as such. She said she has to go into work real quick and i was like okay, but you could have asked me instead if commanded me.

Is it so wrong for me to want to be asked instead of forced to do something, especially now that I’m in my depressive state. I don’t want to do much but if taken the right measures i might be able to get up and do things. And one of the measures is simply communicating with my ass, just ask me and then explain your reasoning, that’s all. I don’t give a fuck about age, it’s unless to expect me to treat you based off of your age instead of how your treating me as a person, a human being.

I hate that she’s so manipulative, saying ‘oh so yiu expect me to get on my hands and knees to beg to you, like your some god or something, like your the elder you think you are’, no you trick ass bitch of a mom, i want you to simply acknowledge my feelings and my boundaries. Not expect me to be at your beck and call like the slave you think im calling you. Which, for one, I don’t even know where she’s getting that idea from. The only thing i asked her to do was move into my grandmas, and that’s gotten us out of one spot, now we just have to work our way to a better one.

Always saying shit like my brother and i are useless and nuisances that she wants to leave, but where is she going to go? She’s been husbandless for 10 years now, who she gonna fall back on? No one, according to her ‘I don’t need anyone’s help and I don’t want to burden others’. Like you wash dead bodies to help out at the funeral home and other than that work one day a week, which is all a recent thing. Not to mention that when she needs something, her first reaction is to ask my brother or I to go out and get it for her.

I’m tired of the way she acts, I swear. She keeps expecting us to be religious and faithful, but we live in America, we’re surrounded by stuff that in our own home is unrecognizable. Of course we are going to get curious and reach out to the world, not the confines of our own home which we already know.

We wouldn’t have even argued if she realized that im asking for one thing, one thing and I would have just been like ‘cool, i’ll think about it.’ and knowing my brother, i would have gone with him to the laundromat not trusting him to fold the clothes properly. My heart hurts so bad right now that i want to cry, but I don’t want the reason to be something like this. To feel weak when i know im not, i know it can help relieve some stress, but how would it look if either my brother wakes up, or my mom looks to my side of the room and sees me crying. The only bad thing about living in the same room together lol.

Anyway, im glad that I could kind of get this off my chest. There’s so much more that goes into it, but it would take a really long time to write it out and rant, and I personally like reading more than writing lol.

Imma cry because i just read a 66k word fanfic and it’s incomplete and has been since 2013 😭😭😭

I feel so betrayed right now, I could have sworn I checked whether or not it was completed before I started. At least the last chapter left off on a beautiful image lol.