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Ok listen-
i don’t know what happens in my brain at night but i woke up remembering my dream? So it went something like this:
Myself, Seokjin, Yoongi and Jungkook were drunk on bus?? The door was open, Yoongi was driving recklessly through the forest? Jungkook falls OUT OF THE DOOR and drags Seokjin with him, I panic and to try to grab them but they’re hanging onto a tree branch coming from the bus and they have a bag of food? Like generic white plastic bag.
And then all of a sudden I’m in a tree on Seokjins bare chest staring at bright pink things hanging from cherry blossom trees and i’m like “woah. what are those? they’re so pretty” and Seokjin MOANS, Yoongi grunts and Jungkook just giggles and says they’re plums??? And i’m like okay cool, that awesome. Let’s eat some! So we pluck some and then i’m laying on top of seokjin again but i’m lowkey leaving hickeys on his chest and he’s just watching the stars??? not to mention yoongi is tackling Jungkook to wrap up a wound he got?
And then I’m waking up to the doorbell and remembering this all like tf goes on in my brain at night
I had a small streak of Puyo Puyo dreams and one of them was some sort of visual novel with minigame elements where you play as Sig. To access "romantic" option for visual novel segments you'd play a level like this, where you need to shoot all the heart blocks and reach the goal (not visible until those blocks are destroyed) without touching Amitie, who's just standing there.
I drew that segment here, trying to remember the layout it had.
on the series of what i dreamt about today: i made a video called "blue bomber but he's a (hot) yandere"
it was just made up clips of him lashing out and vigorously swearing at yellow bomber for several minutes
I had a small streak of Puyo Puyo dreams and one of them was some sort of visual novel with minigame elements where you play as Sig. To access "romantic" option for visual novel segments you'd play a level like this, where you need to shoot all the heart blocks and reach the goal (not visible until those blocks are destroyed) without touching Amitie, who's just standing there.
I drew that segment here, trying to remember the layout it had.
on the series of what i dreamt about today: i made a video called "blue bomber but he's a (hot) yandere"
it was just made up clips of him lashing out and vigorously swearing at yellow bomber for several minutes
The other night I dreamt
Of death as a mother
A matriarc
Holding up the head of a soldier
His chest stained from arrow wounds
She reached to the sky
To pluck out the sun
Her face stoic as bone
Canine and strange
Her antlers tore through her hood
And stabbed at the sky
I have thought of it three days since
And I wonder who I am
The soldier or just the spectator?
This morning I dreamt of a woman
Braided snakes in copper hair
Telling me that here
At the opera of the world
I would learn to sing
Water rose and tried to drown her child
Though it would never touch them
She laid reaching for him
Crushed under stone
In a temple for another Goddess
I thought of Anu and her waters
I wondered if I'd ever see her again
This morning I dreamt of a world ended
Me and my father
Driving through the hills
In a relic-made mustang
Alien dogs chasing us like lost sheep
I thought as the tires dug up black mud
"I am not a thing to be herded"
On we went carrying the child of a Goddess
Precious cargo
Named 'Trailblazer'
I didn't think of when we ran out of gas
Just of the next hill
Of the next plains
The next river
This morning I had a dream- It was not beautiful, Not necessarily poetic, But for the sake of prettier things, I will speak it anyway I had dreamt about childish betrayal Something rooted so deep I woke sick and anxious I had dreamt of many “It’s just a game’s” “Why do you care’s” But it felt much more like He didn’t care at all About the effort of my work The pain rooted in self-value Or the sanctity of home It felt as though all those placements Meant nothing Territory marked was destroyed For the sake of a lesser, newer man The walls and tables were adorned with Bone charms and soft pelts Trinkets that filled the halls All supposed gifts for me, the Huntress As if doing my job for me Would soften the betrayal I went to the woods Only to find it empty Every creature killed By an innkeeper That claimed to be family That lied about brotherhood I thought to myself as I lay down to rest “Perhaps I’ll run off with that bandit” “From two towns over” “The one you hate so much” “At least he’s a warmer heartbreak.”
So i just woke up and imma just talk about what I remember from my dream
So it started out regular in new york,, where i was walking the streets with my cousin or friend (can’t remember) and we were watching ahead of us but my ass was like,, lemme look at the sky. Low and behold, I see a plane in the sky, at first it was just going normally, and then it’s engine or something exploded from one side. It started to come down to the ground, like i literally noticed it getting bigger and was scared that it was gonna hit in the spot my cousin/friend and I were standing. But it didn’t and it hit like a few miles or so over with a loud bang.
Then my mind warped into having me chase after my cousin cause her ass wanted to see the crash. And it almost backfired on us because it looked like it wasn’t done exploding and shit.
From there my mind warped me to fucking Atlantic City. What was I doing there I don’t know,, have i been there myself before, NOPE. But my mind had transferred me there so i got to live a little lol. Anyway, i was in my hotel room, and i was planning a day out with my 2 friends and one of their boyfriends. So i got ready, with heels and all and we went out to eat and then we drank at a place next to my hotel. From there i went back to my hotel room and noticed a really cool car from my window,, which wasn’t too high but not too low either.
The car belonged to my uncle lol, an uncle I haven’t seen in forever. This is the last part of the dream but it is a bit hazy. All i know is that i talked to him a few times and at one point i was back home and it was late, but mom wanted me to buy ice cream. It was too late at night so she said forget it but I remembered that my uncle is outside talking to his friends in the car. So my mind runs out and goes back to fucking atlantic city from New York and i ask my uncle if he could bring me to the store to buy ice cream. He said okay, i’ll call u in a bit (he had to drop off his friends first) and i was like aii bet, so i start to walk back and everything feels so fucking heavy.
I end up trying my hardest to stand up but my body had a mind of it’s own, it was like i don’t even know how to explain it besides that it felt like i was shit faced drunk. I went to take my heels off to help,, and lemme tell u i felt the fucking table behind me (that normally doesn’t happen to me in my dreams, but i mean this whole situation normally doesn’t happen where my mind literally feels like it’s collapsing) but after that i couldn’t even get up from the floor,,i was slightly embarrassed because I didn’t know if anyone was watching.
But, yeah, that’s how it ended. And then just now my mom screamed at me to wake up because it’s about to be 6 pm lol. This dream was scary not gonna lie. I’ve never delt with the sensation of reality with dreams, usually only seeing things i could barely remember. Anywho, i hope none of this is too symbolic for anything because the plan crashing scared me,, and my consciousness on the brink of collapsing didn’t help either.
Hope u enjoyed reading this literal crack.
The way I would completely fold............ it's actually embarrassing 😩😩
this... yeah.
you're fighting for your life arguing with haechan over something stupid. you don't even remember what started the argument because its shifted topics three times at least.
"i just feel like washing the dishes is something you should do without me having to tell you! i'm not asking for much, hyuck." you yell for what seems like the 50th time. all he does is nod nonchalantly and lean against the counter.
"you know..." he starts, "you look awfully cute right now..." he says with a small laugh.
you stop. did he just call you cute? "what..?"
"you heard me baby." he takes a step closer to you. then another. then another until he's close enough to where you can feel his breath on your face as he speaks. "you look cute."
he grabs your chin but you wriggle your way out of his grasp and push him away. "whatever..." you attempt to walk away but all he does is grab you by your shirt and pull you back.
"and who said you could walk away?" he asks teasingly. before you can protest anymore he pulls you in for a kiss. suddenly, you've forgotten why you were ever mad at him.
Journal 3 - 5/14-19/2021
I've been a little hectic inside my mind and it's been seeping into my daily activities. The few days that I took to myself has brought me a little more understanding about what has been going on around me. It started when I had this crazy dream about taking a journey and at the end I was given red roses and other plants that seemed unreal. There was one that looked like a small tree with purple blossoms but the white/ grey trunk had the face of a wizard-looking man carved into it.
A day after this I had pulled a Tarot Card from my Fairy Deck which was of the major arcana; 18 The Moon which. It read: "Powerful intuitive epiphanies. Letting go of worry and fear. Understanding the truth of a situation." I found that this card spoke to me by helping me realize that my dreams are telling me something big and powerful that may come into my life and that I must be wary of unfortunate events that may be brought on by poor decision making.
I have been through an awful depression this entire week and I have just found myself climbing out of it feeling hardly alive. I hope that by tomorrow I will be able to get on with my daily activities despite work and the people around me that bring negativity...
I wanted to talk about this phenomenon but I’ve been having trouble focusing. Sorry to keep this short~ I hope to come back with more interesting topics for my next journal when I’m feeling a little better.
Psychic Dreaming or Intuition?
I have always questioned whether I have the ability to peek into the future from time to time through the world of dreams or maybe it's just coincidence due to thinking too hard? Some people I have ever mentioned this phenomenon to always say that it's the latter but sometimes I really don't want to believe it. I feel like a much greater force, or a spirit guide helps me predict things so that I'm ready to face a situation and know how to react.
I wanted to talk about this because I had a dream that I believe helped foresee something important today. I had been waiting for interview details by email that I was supposed to receive since yesterday from Human Resources for a job that I applied for about three weeks ago. I never received the email. Until today, the day of the supposed interview, I still never received details for joining the Zoom call with the hiring manager. I waited and waited until it was already past the time I was supposed to have the interview, even calling the place to see what was going on. Unfortunately, the Human Resources lady I talked to before was not working today and no one could help me with the situation and said that they will give me a call back.
Already 30 minutes after no response from email or phone, I decided to give in to much needed sleep that I was lacking since I had woken up so early for the interview. I fell into a deep sleep, dreaming of strange things at first, like rolling a 6-sided die just for it to land on a 1 but someone had told me in the dream that I rolled a 1.5 instead, causing me confusion. (If anyone has any idea what that means, please let me know lol). I then had a quick dream that I received an email from the hiring manager himself and that I was late for the interview. I quickly sprung wide awake to check my email and there it was. I had received 3 emails from the hiring manager, giving me all the details I needed to join the call and have the interview. Only problem was that the email was received by me at 10:42am, I was supposed to have the interview at 10am. I don't know what happened or whether the hiring manager is just in a different time zone or what but I missed the interview and will have to call again tomorrow if he doesn't respond to my email first.
So what's your opinion? Do some dreams hold psychic meaning or are our intuitions already preparing us for something we naturally feel coming? I personally research my dreams and their meanings on a daily since they are so vivid but this has been the first one that's been so straight and to the point relating to issues directly from my waking life. Most of my dreams are internal desires and emotional issues I still struggle with constantly and understanding them further helps me grow a little more and learn more about myself that I think needs worked on.
I really wish I’d win the lottery. I’d love to have like 200 mil and just live life away from everyone and donate to things I love!
An apology for posting distressing dreams
I got carried away writing about an old dream earlier, but to make up for it, I will tell the story of my dream last night.
I was in an auditorium with some of my friends. They were nervous and I did my best to keep them calm. One by one, I watched as each took their turn on the stage in the audition. These were no ordinary auditions; they were auditions for an exclusive acapella/glee club comprised of people with superpowers. Those auditioning were dressed in barbershop quartet-style clothing (high-waisted pants, bowties, and sometimes multiple pairs of suspenders) or the traditional superhero spandex. They mostly sang medleys of boy-band songs from the 90's. The auditions were stopped early on account of a supervillan attack, thankfully all my friends had already gone.
We flew back home to another friend's house, where a party was being held. After flying around a bit, I made myself comfortable in the kitchen where there were people sitting around the table talking. I listened and took part in the conversation, enjoying the company. Someone brought out a couple of bowls of snacks and I helped myself (quite liberally) on what seemed to be reconstituted grapes. They were surprisingly delicious. Next, I grabbed a handful of freeze-dried/puffed potatoes that looked like tater tots and were covered in spices. They too, were delicious.
I woke up salivating.