GOD VS GOD-COMPLEX

GOD VS GOD-COMPLEX

"For I am the One,

The True Source of Light;

Greater than a mere star,

and the most Honored.

Brighter than the Sun,

if not the Sun Himself,

I am to become."

another impromptu verses to accompany the drawing ⎯⎯⎯ while it might have started with good intentions, I believe that Resh's ultimate goal was likely to overthrow Megabird and take her place as the source of Light, as he judged that her light was weakening. he comes to believe that he is the only one from who emanates the Light, and who gives life to the Kingdom. Basically that nothing could live or prosper without his existence.

Can you tell I have an obsession? Eh? Okay

Youth

Adulthood

"A Heart hardened by War,

Crushed under waves of Guilt

and Mountains of Sorrow,

Yet Always so Tender

And so quickly rebuilt,

As its essence is her."

Mini impromptu verse to accompany these, boy do I have things to say about them 😭💔 ( seriously, who allowed me to hold a pen? I broke my own heart)

And closeups because yes

Two Halves and One Heart ❤️

I can't stop drawing them and I have so much to say about them 💔 also how much it ties into the series I am working on and all the lore . . . o<= the second picture is a bonus, it would've been angsty as usual but I thought, let's be merciful and give them so happiness first 💔☹️

Corrupted King, Resh

I have quite a few headcanons when it comes to Alef / Resh, and I will mention them below ( PS: could contain spoilers, so please be aware of that )

like I mentioned in a previous post, I differentiate Alef and Resh as before corruption, and after corruption. So Alef is the uncorrupted Prince which later on becomes King. The corruption is gradual however, and doesn't settle immediately, hence the "semi- corrupted", where I see him as losing his former personality to be replaced by increasing coldness, and ruthlessness. That being said, Alef and Resh become like two different people. the way I see it, is that Alef becomes a very small part of light, lost in the darkness. metaphorically very similar to the lone golden child in the void, before we get reborn. the way I envisioned it is, the darkness seeped into the very core of his surroundings, to such an extent it may as well have been an extension of himself. in that sense, Resh "fused" with the darkness around him, and the mountain of Eden, is /alive/ and actively trying to destroy sky kids, even though Resh is not visible himself. when the Elders set on sealing the King away, because he is too powerful, he might have been as big as a mountain tbh, and the sheer power that was being let out on that day likely shattered the diamond. perhaps, Resh's intention was to overthrow Megabird and become the sole source of Light, hence directing the diamond towards the heavenly Light, but of course.. it turned out for the worst

in a way, perhaps Alef is watching himself becoming unrecognizable, but is unable to do anything at all against the all-consuming darkness, which is himself?

The Shadow of Darkness

this video elaborates more on how I picture that after the King becomes corrupted, the darkness gains "sentience", and it grows the more Resh "listens" to it. In a sense, Resh's body is like that of a puppet, and Alef is imprisoned somewhere inside, his voice and light getting snuffed out more and more as Resh falls into Darkness. I believe that around the time of the Shattering, Resh (the body) and the Shadow become one; an all consuming Darkness which has a consciousness of its own. and the more it is fed, the more it grows. so basically, as the Elders attempt to seal him, he cannot be defeated due to his power. so the Darkness is sealed within the mountain of Eden, thus rendering it "alive" to a certain extent. it doesn't have a human body to manifest through anymore, so the rage is perpetual through the storm of Eden.

sound belongs to the very talented @doofguyva on TikTok!!

Shattering.

Alef / Resh has been living rent free in my head for a while and I just can't stop thinking about how everything led up to the shattering . . How Alef's person gradually slipped away until he was unrecognizable, and replaced by a corrupted version of himself, unreachable since he was trapped within his own darkness. Starting off with good intentions, only to be lifted so high he believed himself to be a god; aiming for eternal light only to be plunged in eternal darkness. A never-ending storm of rage and all-consuming darkness.