I Swear I Try To Think Of Something Else But Everything That Echoes In My Mind Since I Finished If We

i swear i try to think of something else but everything that echoes in my mind since i finished if we were villains is “Worthy prince, i know’t” and “don’t kiss james like that again” and “ ‘yes, i was’. it’s not the whole truth. the whole truth is i’m in love with him still” AND the fucking poem that james left. i just. i hate them?

an au where the foxes didn’t find out about andreil in baltimore and they’re totally oblivious to it despite andrew and neil being anything but subtle

they don’t figure it out until neil is chilling with matt in the girls’ room. dan ordered takeout and allison put on some raunchy 90’s romcom that no one’s really paying attention to

matt turns to neil and asks “so how’s andrew?” it’s been a year and a half, after all, and the monsters have calmed down somewhat following the aftermath of last year, so surely andrew still can’t be messing with neil?

neil, not realizing matt was asking if andrew was still bothering him and hadn’t clocked that literally no one has picked up on the fact that andrew and neil don’t really hate each other let alone have been in a relationship for the past year replies, “i think i’m in love with him.”

matt just fucking chokes on his orange chicken

EVERY DAY, and I REALLY mean it, EVERY DAY in my miserable life I remember (that) line in the dream thieves: “Ronan’s second secret was Adam Parrish”. you can’t imagine how much I screamed when I read this and it has been in my mind ever since. I mean, will I ever be able to forget it? damn, NO!

“you changed” bro i became the eyes and hands of a magical sentient forest that my best friend/boyfriend took out of his fucking dreams and now i have psychic powers

this post cured my depression

Hc that Andrew is actually CONSTANTLY blushing over Neil but nobody has any idea bc he only blushes w his ears and his hair has always been just a little too shaggy so nobody ever sees it happen (except for Neil who is constantly running his hands through it and smiling down at Andrew from above when they’re lying in bed)

Everyone accepts andreil’s relationship for what it is and it’s all good and fine and maybe Matt thinks that Neil deserves someone who is a little more affectionate and open with their feelings but w/e Neil’s obvs happy so he tries not to say anytying

And then during Neil’s second year, right before the Christmas banquet, Andrew finally, finally gets a really nice haircut that might just be a style Neil offhandedly liked when Allison had been hounding him about cuts for his own atrocious hair.

Now, they’ve been together for a year and a half/almost 2 years by this point. Neil’s scars are light pink and soft bc of the creams Andrew rubs into them every night and it doesn’t hurt to smile anymore inside or out so that’s what he spends the whole banquet doing- smiling at the upperclassmen, smiling at Nicky, smiling when Kevin chokes on his drink around a cute bubbly goalie from Atlanta, smiling smiling smiling at Andrew all night, tickling his palm with the short sides of Andrew’s hair, tracing the shell of his ears with light fingertips, kissing his knuckles when nobody is looking, mouthing off at an asshole from North Carolina.

And God his ears have just been red all fucking night. It takes a while for anybody to notice and Nicky is first bc he’s always looking over his shoulder for his family. At first he thinks it’s the alcohol, but then he sees Neil snag Andrew’s belt loop for a quick tug and release and his ears practically glow as his eyes track Neil from an impassive face. He nearly spills his drink trying to snack Matt’s shoulder to get his attention and point it out

Nicky and the upperclassmen all make a pact to never ever mention it bc they know how private and defensive those two can be and they don’t want to risk Neil toning down his obvious flirting or Andrew cutting off his own ears bc he probably would

OKAY LISTEN: i know we’ve all played the “DANE DEHAAN AS ANDREW MINYARD” game before. but (hear me out) BUT

you should all rewatch kill your darlings anyway. fucking look at him. everything he says in that movie is bored and unfeeling unless he’s high on something. just fuckin rewatch the movie please do me a favour